PLAYDATE

  THE PLAYDATE, MY LITTLE MAN AND HIS FRIEND. AND THEY ARE ENJOYING THE CLIMBER......

NEW BOOK.......

I RECEIVED A GIFT FROM MY BEST FRIEND, THELMA.  SHE GAVE ME, "LOVE MUST BE TOUGH" BY DR JAMES DOBSON.

I WANT TO QUOTE THIS; "IN ANY APATHETIC OR DYING MARRIAGE, THERE IS TYPICALLY ONE PARTNER WHO IS RELATIVELY UNCONCERNED ABOUT THE DISTANCE BETWEEN THEM, WHILE THE OTHER IS ANXIOUS OR EVEN PANIC-STICKEN OVER IT. THE DETACHED SPOUSE, WHETHER HUSBAND OR WIFE, MAY NOT REALIZE HOW MUCH DANGER THE MARRIAGE IS IN OR MAY NOT CARE. THEREFORE, THAT PERSON RESISTS ANY EFFORT BY HIS MATE TO ENTICE HIM INTO COUNSELING OR COMPROMISES OR EVEN MEANINGFUL CONVERSATIONS TO ADDRESS THEIR DIFFICULTIES."

I DIDN'T NOTICE THE DISTANCE....... BUT I DID CARE.  BUT TO LATE, HE SAYS......

METEOR?????

I TOOK THESE PICTURES THE OTHER DAY.  I WONDER IF IT WAS A METEOR?

MY NEW CAMERA

 

WENT OUT TODAY TO TAKE PICTURES.  IT WAS A BEAUTIFUL DAY.....   THE BROWN PELICAN WAS A COUPLE OF FEET FROM ME.  LIKE HE WAS SAYING, "TAKE MY PICTURE."  IF ONLY I CENTER BETTER......

BUT I AM LOVING MY CAMERA.  SEEING THE WORLD IN A DIFFERENT LIGHT.......  ENJOY.......

AFTER CHRISTMAS...

  THE SNOWMAN, MY BABY GIRL AND MY LITTLE MAN MADE THIS ONE. IT WAS JUNIOR SIZE.... TO COLD FOR HER TO MAKE IT BIGGER.......  

  HERE IS THE CLIMBER.  WE FINALLY PUT IT UP YESTERDAY.  WE HAD PLANNED ON PUTTING IT TOGETHER ON CHRISTMAS EVE, BUT WITH THE SNOW AND COLDNESS.  WE WAITED..... BUT LAST NIGHT WE FINALLY PUT IT TOGETHER ALONG WITH THE SWING SET. AND THE LITTLE MAN  ENJOYED IT.  WOULDN'T EVEN COME IN AFTER IT TURNED DARK. HE IS GOING TO LIVING IN THE BACKYARD. I KNOW IT.......

MORE CHRISTMAS PICTURES....

THIS MORNING, I WOKE UP TO THIS  

  

WE GOT ABOUT 5 INCH....... MY BACKYARD......    

 

 THE SIDE OF MY HOUSE.  IT WAS BEAUTIFUL.....  

    

 

 I MADE A SNOW ANGEL.  I, TOO WAS HAVING FUN...... MY KIDS, EVEN THE LITTLE MAN WERE HAVING SNOW FIGHTS, FUNNNN.......

 

    THIS IS THE FRONT OF MY HOUSE. THIS WAS A VERY MEMORABLE CHRISTMAS.  NICE.  AND I THOUGHT IT WAS GOING TO BE A ROUGH CHRISTMAS. BUT THIS KIND OF CHANGE THE DAY.......   I WILL ALWAYS REMEMBER THIS DAY!!!!!! I HOPE EVERYONE HAD A HAPPY CHRISTMAS, TOO........

WHITE CHRISTMAS!!!!!!

      WELL, IT CHRISTMAS.  AND WE HAVE SNOW.  CAN YOU BELEIVE IT. DOWN IN SOUTH TEXAS AND IT'S SNOWING......... FOR ONCE WE HAVE A WHITE CHRISTMAS....... THIS WAS A NICE SURPRISE. WE ALSO OPENED PRESENT EARLY.  AND I HAVE A NEW DIGITAL CAMERA.... KODAK EASYSHARE DX7630.  THE PICTURES ARE A FEW THAT I HAVE TAKEN, STILL LEARNING HOW TO WORK IT.  BUT IT'S NICE....... HAS VIDEO, MY LAST CAMERA DID NOT.  SO WELL SEE WHAT I CAN DO WITH THAT..... WELL OFF TO SLEEP.  MERRY CHRISTMAS EVERYONE.......

MY BABY GIRL........

MY BABY GIRL TURNS 14, TODAY.  SHE IS GROWING TO BE A BEAUTIFUL LADY.......

SHE HAS HELP ME ALOT FOR THE HOLIDAYS.  SHE HELP DECORATED AND HAS HELP MAKE GOODIE'S FOR FAMILY AND MY HUSBAND EMPLOYEES. ALONG WITH THINGS AROUND THE HOUSE.

SHE IS MY ANGEL!!!!(MY BABY GIRL)

PART 2: TO ARMOR OF AN UNHAPPY PARTNER.....

LAST PARAGRAPH: MATURE LOVE, THEY WRITE, COMES WHEN EACH PERSON HAS GROWN WITH THE OTHER'S HELP, AND WHEN BOTH PEOPLE KNOW HOW TO GIVE AND RECEIVE-"IT'S THE LIFETIME ACHIEVEMENT REWARD."

CAN THIS BE TRUE; CAUSE THE OTHER PARTNER HAS TO BE WILLING TOO...........

ARMOR OF AN UNHAPPY PARTNER......

I READ THIS TODAY FROM OPRAH MAGAZINE.  ARTICLE: LETTING LOVE IN. OCT. 2004.....

"IT'S SURPRISING HOW OFTEN THE COMPLIMENTS, APPRECIATION, AND ENCOURAGEMENT OF A WELL-INTENTIONED PARTNER MAKE NO DENT IN THE ARMOR OF AN UNHAPPY PARTNER.

HARVILLE TICKS OFF THE WAYS WE DEFLECT WHAT WE SECRETLY CRAVE: BY DEVALUING PRAISE; BY ASSUMING THE OTHER PERSON IS INSINCERE; BY CRITICIZING THE SENDER OF A POSITIVE MESSAGE FOR NOT GETTING IT RIGHT, NOT DOING IT ON TIME, OR NOT DOING IT OFTEN ENOUGH; BY NOT LISTENING; OR BY FEELING EMBARRASSED.  WE ALSO BLOCK LOVING WORDS BY HARDENING OUR CHEST AND STOMACH MUSCLES."

KEEPING YOUR GUARD UP IN A RETIONSHIP IS GUARANTEED TO KEEP THE LOVE OUT, TOO......

SOME WORDS I THOROUGH WERE SO TRUE....

THE CLEARING.......

I RENTED THIS MOVIE, THIS WEEKEND......

THIS WAS A HEARTBREAKER, AND THAT NOTE. THAT IS SO TRUE.  TRUE LOVE........

IF YOU LOVE ME, I HAVE EVERYTHING I NEED.

THAT QUOTE TOUCHES THE HEART.  ALL WE WANT IS FOR SOMEONE TO LOVE US...... WITH ALL THEIR HEART.

OTHER MOVIE I SAW THIS WEEKEND WAS; "THE DOOR IN THE FLOOR."  NOW, THAT IS FOR ADULTS ONLY.......  BUT IT WAS SOMEWHAT INTERESTING.  IT HAD A PLOT AND SHOCKNESS TO IT....

I DID GET THE BIG PRESENT FOR MY LITTLE MAN.....   NOW, TO PUT IT TOGETHER WITHOUT HIM SEE IT.....

                      

LITTLE TIKES VARIETY CLIMBER WITH SWING SET. THE PICTURE DOES NOT SHOW THE SWING SET BUT WE GOT LUCK.  WE PURCHASED THE LAST ONE AT TOYRUS.  IT WAS MEANT TO BE, HUH......  HE IS GOING TO LOVE IT........  HE LOVES TO BE OUTSIDE, SO HERE COMES LONG DAYS OUTSIDE......

My Little Man......

HERE'S MY LITTLE MAN AND HIS CHRISTMAS BOOK.  THEY HAD EACH CHILD BRING A BOOK PRESENT.  HE LOOKED THOROUGH HIS BOOK AND WAS NAMING EVERYTHING IN THE BOOK.  SO CUTE........

MY HUSBAND AND KIDS.......

I AM FRUSTRATED WITH MY HUSBAND ON HOW HE IS ACTING. OK, HE WANTS TO BE HERE FOR HIS KIDS, BUT THIS IS WHAT HE IS DOING.  HE IS IN MANAGEMENT, SO I UNDERSTAND THERE IS NO SET HOURS.......  WELL, THEY HAVE AN EMPLOYEE PLAYROOM, THEY JUST ADDED A INDOOR TABLE TENNIS.  EVERYDAY THIS WEEK, HE HAS STAYED AFTER WORK TO PLAY WITH THE EMPLOYEES.  AND I AM OK WITH HIM PLAYING BUT EVERYDAY.  I PUT MY SON TO SLEEP BY 8PM.  BUT LAST NIGHT, I LET HIM STAY UP SO HE COULD SEE HIS FATHER.  HE WAS IN BED AT 9PM, BECAUSE HIS FATHER GOT HOME AT 8. I NEED TO SAY SOMETHING TO HIM.  HE COULD TELL I WAS UPSET, BUT I KNOW I NEED TO TELL HIM.......

BUT THIS IS HOW HE THINKS......  HE DOESN'T KNOW HOW TO BE A FATHER.  HE LOSE HIS FATHER WHEN HE WAS 5 YEARS OLD AND ONLY HAD HIS MOTHER.  THEN HIS MOTHER DIED WHEN HE WAS 15. SO I COULD SOMEWHAT UNDERSTAND WHY HE DOES NOT KNOW, BUT SHOULDN'T IT BE INTUITION.  SHOULN IT!!!!!  I FEEL THAT WAY.  I DIDN'T HAVE GREAT PARENTS. MY CHILDHOOD IS ANOTHER STORY BUT I HAVE BEEN A GOOD MOTHER TO MY KIDS.  AND MY HUSBAND WILL TELL ANYONE THAT, BUT FOR ME TO SAY THAT ABOUT HIM.  I CAN'T. HE IS GOING TO BE A 5 MIN. DAD.  THAT'S WHAT MY FRIEND HAS TOLD ME.  HE IS TRYING IN THE BEGINNING BUT ONCE THEY ARE COMPLAINING OR FUSSING.  HE IS FRUSTRATED. I HAVE PUT THE EXTRA EFFORT BECAUSE OF MY KIDS, BUT NOW THAT HE WANTS THE DIVORCE.  I WONDER ABOUT MY KIDS WITH HIM...........

 

MY LIST FOR TODAY.......

1. GO CHRISTMAS SHOPPING. I NEED TO FINISH........ I'M SO BEATING MYSELF UP BECAUSE I SHOULD OF DONE THIS WITHOUT MY HUSBAND AND NOW IS LAST MIN. THINGS.  AND THE LITTLE MAN, HIS CLIMBER MIGHT HAVE TO WAIT TILL AFTER CHRISTMAS.  SO SAD, I SHOULD OF DONE IT EARLIER............

2. GET SUPPLIES FOR PARTY TRAYS.  COOOKING..........

3. TRAVEL TO SAN ANTONIO ON SUNDAY......

SCHOOL VACATION!!!

YESTERDAY WAS THE FIRST DAY OF SCHOOL HOLIDAYS. AND IT STARTED WITH PROBLEMS.

MY OLDEST (16TH) AND HER FRIENDS WERE OVER. AND I WAS WORKING IN MY BEDROOM.  I FIGURE SHE COULD TAKE CARE OF EVERYTHING... BUT!!!!

THEY WANTED TO CELEBRATE THE END OF THE SEMESTER BY BURNING SOME PAPERS IN THE FIREPLACE.  WELL.......

THEY DIDN'T OPEN THE VENT AND ALL THE SMOKE CAME INTO THE HOUSE. THE FIRE ALARM WENT OFF WHILE I WAS WORKING....

BOY SHE WAS IN TROUBLE....  NOW, I DIDN'T EMBARASS HER IN FRONT OF HER FRIENDS. BUT ONCE MY HUSBAND CAME HOME AND TOLD HIM WHAT HAPPEN.  WE HAD A TALK WITH HER.....   BUT THE SAD THING IS SHE DOESN'T THINK SHE DID WRONG AND THAT IT WAS NOTHING.  SINCE THE HOUSE DIDN'T BURN DOWN.

BOY..... TEENAGE YEARS, SHE IS REALLY TRYING ME......  I CAN GET THE SMOKE OUT OF MY HOUSE NOW.

I DO HAVE SOME GOOD NEWS.....  I HAD A PHONE INTERVIEW WITH A COMPANY THAT I APPLIED.  I'M CROSSING MY FINGERS THAT I DID WELL......  I PRAYED THAT I WILL HEAR BACK FROM THIS COMPANY.  THEY ARE A HUGH COMPANY AND A GREAT BENEFIT TO WORK.  I'LL EXPLAIN OTHER DAY, IF I DO GET HIRE...  I HOPE I HEAR SOMETHING BEFORE THE NEW YEAR....  THAT WOULD BE A GREAT WAY TO END THE YEAR..... BEING THAT THIS YEAR WAS SOOOOOOOOO BAD FOR ME.  BUT I HAVE GROWN AND LEARNED SO MUCH OF MYSELF.......

POINSETTIA......

      

I FINALLY TOKE THESE PICTURES.  I DON'T REMEMBER WHEN THESE FLOWERS WERE PLANTED.  BUT EVERY YEAR, IT IS A TREAT TO SEE.  THEY (WHICH IS 2 HOUSE, SIDE BY SIDE) LIGHT THEM UP EVERY YEAR DURING CHRISTMAS.   I'M GLAD I FINALLY TOKE THEM........ 

TOO CUTE!!!!!

  THIS IS MY BABY GIRL..... SHE WILL BE TURNING 14, ON THE 23RD. WE DECIDE THAT WE WOULD GET A CELL PHONE FOR HER BIRTHDAY THIS YEAR. AND WE WOULD SURPRISED HER. HERES THE STORY, THIS IS CUTE....... SHE SITS IN THE LIVING ROOM EVERY NIGHT BY HER CHRISTMAS STOCKING. SO WE DECIDEDTO PUT IT IN HER STOCKING, AND CALL HER CELL PHONE.  OH.... RIGHT NEXT TO HER STOCKING IS THE BABY'S TOY BASKET.  THIS IS IMPORTANT.  I CALLED HER PHONE AND IT RANGED AND RANGED THEN VOICEMAIL CAME ON.  SO I CALLED AGAIN, IT RANG AND RANGED, THIS TIME, WE LOOKED DOWN THE HALLWAY AND NOTICED THAT SHE WAS LOOKING THRU THE TOY BASKET TO FIND THIS NOISE.  OH.... I HAD HER RINGER SET ON CHRISTMAS SONGS.  I YELLED DOWN THE HALLWAY,  "LOOK IN YOUR STOCKING." WITH SO MUCH SURPRISE ON HER FACE, SHE FINALLY FOUND IT.  SHE HAD THIS BIG SMILE, AND SHE THANKED US........ SHE WAS SO HAPPY.  I ONLY WISH I HAD THOUGHT ABOUT MY CAMCORDER.  I WOULD LOVED TO HAVE THAT ON VIDEO........ MAYBE EVEN SENT IT TO AFF.  THE ONLY GOOD THING THAT HAPPENED THIS WEEKEND.

THE WEEKEND.......

THIS WEEKEND WAS DIFFICULT.  BEING THE HOLIDAYS AND THE HOUSEHOLD. NOT TO MENTION THE MOST IS DEALING WITH MY HUSBAND.  I HAD AN EYE OPENER CONVERSATION WITH HIM.  AND I AM TRY TO BE STRONG FOR MY KIDS.  BUT I WISH THINGS COULD BE DIFFERENT, RIGHT NOW.

I KNOW I WISH I COULD KNOW EVERYTHING SO I COULD ACCEPT IT AND MOVE ON.  BUT SOMETHING ARE NOT POSSIBLE.  I JUST NEED TO DEAL WITH WHAT I CAN. AND MOVE ON FROM THAT.

MY HUSBAND IS A PIECE OF WORK. IN SOMEWAY, I DO SEE THAT I LET THIS HAPPEN (THINGS) AND LET IT HAPPEN AGAIN AND AGAIN.  BUT I AM SLOWLY LEARNING FROM IT.  I GUESS PRACTICE MAKES IT PERFECT.  AND BEING STEP ON TO MANY TIMES, I'LL EVENTUAL SAY ENOUGH.

THIS WHOLE YEAR WAS BAD FOR ME.  I HOPE THE NEW YEAR WILL BE DIFFERENT..........

AS FOR MY LIST, NOT THIS WEEK........  I AM LIVING ONE DAY AT A TIME.  HAHA.......

GOOD NEWS!!!

I HAVE GOOD NEWS.    I HAVE DAYCARE IN LINE FOR MY LITTLE MAN.

HE HAS BEEN GOING TO MOTHERS DAY OUT PROGRAM, AND I BEEN WAYING FOR A SPOT.  WELL, TODAY I HEARD THAT THERE IS A SPOT FOR HIM. NOW, TO FIND THAT JOB.  I KNOW NOW THAT EMPLOYERS PUT A HOLD ON HIRING UNTILL THE NEW YEAR, BUT I AM PRAYING THAT SOMETHING WILL HAPPEN THIS YEAR.  I NEED TO START WORKING FULL-TIME CAUSE THIS PART-TIME IS NOT WORKING.

WORK,WORK,WORK. THIS WORK AT HOME CAN BE LONELY!!! SO COMMUNICATING WITH CO-WORKERS SOUNDS GREAT.

~~ MY LIST 12/06/04 ~~

I HAD A BUSY DAY YESTERDAY. SHOPPING, TRYED TO START ON THE CHRISTMAS LIST. BUT MY DAUGHTER NEEDED A OUTFIT FOR THIS TUESDAY. BAND CONCERT!!! SHE HAS A SOLO TO PLAY AND IS NERVES.  SHE HAS BEEN PLAYING HER FLUTE OVER AND OVER AND OVER. CAN WAIT TILL TUESDAY.  NOT THAT I COMPLAINING.  I LOVED TO HEAR THE BAND PLAY, BUT TO HEAR HER OVER AND OVER.  MY SANITY!!!

ALSO STILL RECOVERING FROM MY TRIP THIS WEEKEND.  WHEN TO SAN ANTONIO, TEXAS FOR THE FOOTBALL GAME.  WE LOSSED 26-13, BUT WE WERE 13-1. 

  THIS WAS ON MY CAR TO AND FROM SAN ANTONIO.  WE HAD HONKS, SO MANY. IT WAS SO MUCH FUN.........

THE GUYS DID A GREAT JOB, FOUGHT TO THE END. I DIDN'T GET HOME TILL 2AM.  THEN WOKE UP WITH THE LITTLE ONE AT 8 AM.  DIDN'T NAP, BECAUSE OF THE SHOPPING AND ETC...  MOTHERS WORK IS NEVER DONE, HUH!!!!!!

WILL NOW THE NEW WEEK,

1. WORK MY HOURS & GRAB HOURS FOR NEXT WEEK.   DONE.

2. TRY TO KEEP LOOKING FOR WORK. OR HIT IT HARD AT THE BEGINNING OF THE YEAR.   STILL LOOKING.

3. DT APPT ON WED.    DONE.

4. DAUGHTER'S DENTIST APPT ON FRIDAY.   DONE.

NEED TO INCLUDE.

6. CHRISTMAS CD. TO GET INTO THE CHRISTMAS SPIRIT. DONE

~~ LIST

MY SHORT LIST FOR THIS WEEK:

1. GET TICKETS FOR THE FOOTBALL GAME. (ALMOST TO STATE. GO G-P.) DONE

2. GET MORE HOURS TO WORK NEXT WEEK.

3. GET A HAIRCUT. DONE

    I CUT MY BANGS.  I WANTED THEM TO FEATHER BACK.

4. GET DIRECTION FOR THE STADIUM. DONE

5. WORK ON LOOKING FOR WORK. THE FREE TIME THAT I HAVE.

WELL, OFF TO GET THIS ACCOMPLISHED!!!!

STATEMENT

I READ THIS STATEMENT THE OTHER DAY,

"IS WHAT I'M DOING AND WHAT I'M SAYING BRINGING US CLOSER TOGETHER, OR PUSHING US FURTHER APART?"

I NEED TO KEEP THIS IN MIND. WITH ANY RELATIONSHIP!! RIGHT NOW, WITH MY DAUGHTER.  WE ARE NOT SEE THINGS CLEARLY; FROM HER VIEW AND MY VIEW.  BUT I KNOW SHE FEELS LIKE I'M NOT BEING SUPPORTIVE. I THINK I AM BUT MAYBE THERE IS SOMETHING I DO NOT SEE.

TIME WILL ONLY TELL.  SHE IS ALSO A TEENAGE. ~~ REBEL STAGE!!!