MY HUSBAND AND KIDS.......

I AM FRUSTRATED WITH MY HUSBAND ON HOW HE IS ACTING. OK, HE WANTS TO BE HERE FOR HIS KIDS, BUT THIS IS WHAT HE IS DOING.  HE IS IN MANAGEMENT, SO I UNDERSTAND THERE IS NO SET HOURS.......  WELL, THEY HAVE AN EMPLOYEE PLAYROOM, THEY JUST ADDED A INDOOR TABLE TENNIS.  EVERYDAY THIS WEEK, HE HAS STAYED AFTER WORK TO PLAY WITH THE EMPLOYEES.  AND I AM OK WITH HIM PLAYING BUT EVERYDAY.  I PUT MY SON TO SLEEP BY 8PM.  BUT LAST NIGHT, I LET HIM STAY UP SO HE COULD SEE HIS FATHER.  HE WAS IN BED AT 9PM, BECAUSE HIS FATHER GOT HOME AT 8. I NEED TO SAY SOMETHING TO HIM.  HE COULD TELL I WAS UPSET, BUT I KNOW I NEED TO TELL HIM.......

BUT THIS IS HOW HE THINKS......  HE DOESN'T KNOW HOW TO BE A FATHER.  HE LOSE HIS FATHER WHEN HE WAS 5 YEARS OLD AND ONLY HAD HIS MOTHER.  THEN HIS MOTHER DIED WHEN HE WAS 15. SO I COULD SOMEWHAT UNDERSTAND WHY HE DOES NOT KNOW, BUT SHOULDN'T IT BE INTUITION.  SHOULN IT!!!!!  I FEEL THAT WAY.  I DIDN'T HAVE GREAT PARENTS. MY CHILDHOOD IS ANOTHER STORY BUT I HAVE BEEN A GOOD MOTHER TO MY KIDS.  AND MY HUSBAND WILL TELL ANYONE THAT, BUT FOR ME TO SAY THAT ABOUT HIM.  I CAN'T. HE IS GOING TO BE A 5 MIN. DAD.  THAT'S WHAT MY FRIEND HAS TOLD ME.  HE IS TRYING IN THE BEGINNING BUT ONCE THEY ARE COMPLAINING OR FUSSING.  HE IS FRUSTRATED. I HAVE PUT THE EXTRA EFFORT BECAUSE OF MY KIDS, BUT NOW THAT HE WANTS THE DIVORCE.  I WONDER ABOUT MY KIDS WITH HIM...........

 

MY LIST FOR TODAY.......

1. GO CHRISTMAS SHOPPING. I NEED TO FINISH........ I'M SO BEATING MYSELF UP BECAUSE I SHOULD OF DONE THIS WITHOUT MY HUSBAND AND NOW IS LAST MIN. THINGS.  AND THE LITTLE MAN, HIS CLIMBER MIGHT HAVE TO WAIT TILL AFTER CHRISTMAS.  SO SAD, I SHOULD OF DONE IT EARLIER............

2. GET SUPPLIES FOR PARTY TRAYS.  COOOKING..........

3. TRAVEL TO SAN ANTONIO ON SUNDAY......