I HAVE THIS SAD FEELING OVER ME.....I CAN'T THINK. I TRY TO PLAN AHEAD BUT THERE IS TOO MUCH ON MY PLATE, I AM DAYDREAMING, AND CAN GET ENOUGH SLEEP.......... I AM STILL WAKING UP IN THE MIDDLE OF THE NIGHT.
I USE TO MAKE LIST OF THINGS THAT NEED TO BE DONE. THAT'S WHY I STARTED THIS JOURNAL.......I NEED TO GO BACK INTO DOING THAT.. **LIST**
THIS JOB HUNTING IS NOT DOING GOOD.......I AM STILL WAITING AND WAITING. I THINK THAT IS WHY I AM FEELING SAD. IT IS SO HARD ON YOUR EGO..........IS THERE SOMETHING WRONG WITH ME? OR WHAT I SHOULD SAY IS; " YOU HAVE NOT FOUND THE RIGHT JOB. THE RIGHT JOB IS OUT THERE. YOU JUST NEED TO GO OUT AND FIND IT." ~ RIGHT, HUH ~
AND FEELING LIKE THAT GOES INTO EVERYTHING YOU DO.........FOR ME, THE WAY I RUN THIS HOUSE.....NEED TO FINISH SPRING CLEAN, BUT I DON'T FEEL LIKE IT. MY RELATIONSHIPS WITH MY HUSBAND AND KIDS..........I AM LIVING DAY BY DAY WITH THEM. CAN'T REALLY PLAN FOR THE FUTURE BECAUSE WHAT WILL BE THE FUTURE?????? I KNOW DAY BY DAY. BUT THAT MAKES ME FEEL SO ?????? OH.........MY TENNIS LEAGUE. YES, I PLAY TENNIS.........WELL, THIS MORNING. I COULD TELL AND THAT'S WHY I SAY; "I CAN'T THINK." YOU HAVE TO KEEP YOUR EYE ON THE BALL AND PLAN FOR YOUR MOVE...........WELL, I DON'T FEEL LIKE IT. BUT I LOVE TENNIS!!!!!!
YOU SEE MY PROBLEM..........IT JUST ME. I DON'T KNOW WHAT TO DO..........ANYMORE???
WELL, TILL NEXT TIME............BRIN.
Brin, sometimes things just become a bit too much when there is so much going on. I know that feeling all too well. Take a deep breath, and find time to do something for YOU. You will find the right job.....just remember that you are loved and needed and a special lady. Sounds to me like you are very anxious right now. Step back and just do one thing at a time. We're here for you if you need us. Love, lisa
ReplyDeleteI remember the lists you make in this journal...Might help to start doing again, I agree. I was thinking of starting to do things. I get so overwhelmed with work and home, its nuts. Good luck with the job, dont get discouraged.
ReplyDeleteEllen