MY ALL..........

I READED THIS THE OTHER DAY FROM OTHER JOURNAL.........

I refuse to give of my heart, my time, my love, my respect and care to anyone who cannot give of it freely in return. I can no longer settle for a one-sided relationship with anyone. I've done it too often and have been hurt too much. I deserve better.

I HATE TO ADMIT THIS, BUT I TREATED MY HUSBAND BAD......... LOOKING AT IT.  I DO AGREE (WITH MY MOTHER) THAT WE MARRIED TO YOUNG...... I WAS 18 ABOUT TO BE 19, AND MY HUSBAND WAS 21. I DID NOT KNOW ME.......... MY  TRUE ME.........

AND I MADE MANY MISTAKES......... AND I KNOW REALIZE HOW MUCH MY HUSBAND LOVES ME........ AFTER 17 YEARS, HE TOKE ALOT FROM ME........

HE IS A KIND, STRONG, LOVING MAN......... IT WAS MY FAULT FOR ALL THE BAD TIMES. I REALIZE SO MUCH NOW.......AND HAVE GROWN SO MUCH.

THAT JOURNAL QUOTE IS WHAT I DID ONE-SIDED RELATIONSHIP AND I AM SO SORRY FOR THAT.  I WANT TO GIVE MY ALL, MY HEART, MY LOVE, MY SOUL TO MY HUSBAND............ I LOVE HIM SO MUCH.  I TRUELY THINK HE KNOWS ME MORE THAN I WOULD LIKE TO ADMIT............

EVEN THROUGH WE BOTH ARE WORKING NOW ON OUR RELATIONSHIP.......I AM STILL AFRAID OF BEING REJECTED FROM HIM. THAT HE IS NOT ABLE TO FORGIVE ME.........

ONLY TIME WILL TELL......... TILL NEXT TIME. BRIN.