WELL..........
MY HUSBAND MOVED OUT.........
I REALIZE THAT I WOULD RATHER BE LONELY WITHOUT HIM; THEN BE LONELY WITH HIM AND HIM TREATING ME THE WAY HE IS...........
I DO DESERVE ALOT MORE..........
PLUS HE DID SAY SOMETHING TO ME THAT HAS ME SHOCKED. HE TOLD ME THAT HE DOES LOVES ME AND CARES FOR ME. HE WANTS TO WATCH OUT FOR ME; BUT.........HE IS NOT IN LOVE WITH ME. RED FLAGS....
IT'S HITTING ME; WHAT I HAVE DONE.........I AM TRYING TO BE STRONG.......
I PACKED ALL HIS STUFF AND WHEN HE RETURN FROM WORK; WHICH WAS LATE....ONCE AGAIN...PLAYING TABLE TENNIS AT WORK. HOW CONSIDERATE......
HE WALKS IN AND ACTS SHOCKED.........LAST WEEK, I BLOW UP AND LET EVERYTHING ON THE FLOOR. I EVEN TOLD HIM THAT I WANTED HIM TO MOVE BACK INTO THE APARTMENT. THAT WAS THE DAY I ASKED HIM TO MOVE OUT.
IT WAS LATE EVENING. SO I TOLD HIM IT COULD WAIT TILL TOMORROW. WELL, THE NEXT DAY CAME AND HE DIDN'T...SO I LET IT GO. THINKING THAT HE WOULD WORK THING OUT. REAL CONSIDER ABOUT HOW THINGS WERE GOING, AND CHANGING THINGS.
BUT NO, THE WEEK WENT THE SAME........
HE COULD GIVE ME THE WORLD; TAKE CARE OF THE HOUSE, BILLS, ETC, ETC......BUT WHAT I WANT IS HIS HEART, HIS LOVE...........IF HE CAN'T GIVE ME HIS HEART. THEN IT WASN'T MEANT TO BE..........
I LOVE HIM SO MUCH........BUT I NEED TO BE STRONG FOR MYSELF..........
WELL, TILL NEXT TIME..........
Saturday, April 9, 2005
MOVED OUT..........
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You are in my thoughts, keep your head up!
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Kathi
When we spoke earlier, you really sounded like this is going to be OK this time. I hope my feeling is right. As always, i'm here if you want to talk again.
ReplyDeleteEllen
You do deserve to be treated better. If he isn't trying to change and gets mad at you for things....then you should really consider what you are willing to put up with. Hang in there!
ReplyDeleteMichele