MUTUAL ACCOUNTABILITY.....

LAST NIGHT, MY HUSBAND AND I HAD OUR 1ST ARGUMENT SINCE GETTING BACK TOGETHER.........

I KNEW IT WAS COMING...........IT'S TRICKY BUT HERE IT GOES.

LAST NIGHT, I HAD A TENNIS GAME. I PLAY TENNIS LEAGUE ALEAST ONCE A WEEK AND PRACTISE ON SUN AFTERNOON.  IF WE GET RAINED OUT OR HAVE TO RESCHUDULE; SOMETIME I HAVE 2 GAMES AWEEK.  WELL, MY OLDEST DAUGHTER HAD TO WORK AND MY BABY GIRL IS CAMPING. I ASKED MY HUSBAND IF HE WOULD STAY HOME WITH THE LITTLE MAN, INSTEAD OF PLAYING BASKETBALL. HERE WHAT'S TRICKY.......... HE PLAYS BASKETBALL ON TUES, THURS AND SAT AFTERNOON EACH WEEK. DEPENDING?????  PLUS I UNDERSTAND HE SOMETIME WORKS LONG HOURS..........

WELL.......WHEN I FINALLY REACH HIM AT WORK. HE TREATED ME SO COLD.......I COULD TELL HE WAS UPSET WITH ME!!!!

WHEN I FINALLY SAW HIM.  YES, HE WAS UPSET WITH ME.........I ASKED HIM WHY???  HE TELLS ME, WELL LET ME THINK..........I PUT IN A 13 HOUR DAY THEN YOU ASK ME TO SIT WITH THE LITTLE ONE.  WELL, WHY WOULD I BE UPSET......... HE TOLD ME THAT; IT'S ALL ABOUT ME.....SO INCONSIDER. AND THAT I WOULD NEVER CHANGE.

I REALLY COULD NOT AFFORD TO GET A BABYSITTER CAUSE OF FINANCES. PLUS IT HIS SON. THAT WHAT PISSES ME OFF..........I SHOULDN'T EVEN HAVE TO ASK!!

THIS IS ONE OF OUR MAJOR PROBLEMS.........I HAVE BEEN THE ONE TO DEAL WITH ALL THE FAMILY PROBLEMS. HE WILL STEP IN WHEN THERE IS A MAJOR PROBLEM. HIS EXCUSE; WORK.........BUT I KNOW IT'S MY DOING. I LET IT HAPPEN AND NOW I AM DEALING WITH IT........BOY, THIS IS TOO MUCH.

BUT IF YOU LOOK AT WHAT WAS HIS MAIN COMPLAINT. ME..........I BELIEVE HE DOES NOT LIKE ME PLAYING TENNIS. FOR WHAT REASON.........THAT A GOOD QUESTION TO ASK HIM.

WE HAVE SO MUCH TO WORK ON..........I FEEL LIKE WE MIGHT NOT MAKE IT. ONE DAY HE WILL SAY; I GIVE UP, NO MORE..........THE PAIN FROM THE LAST HE DID THAT. STILL HURTS ME..........I CRY EVERYTIME I REMEMBER. MY FRIEND, SUSAN, TELL ME THAT I AM WALKING ON EGG SHELLS.  AND THAT I CAN'T LIVE LIKE THAT.

I PICKED UP MY BOOK "LOVE MUST BE TOUGH" BY DR. JAMES DOBSON.  AND READ AGAIN THIS PART; WHICH HELPS ME:

"GENUINE LOVE DEMANDS TOUGHNESS IN MOMENTS OF CRISIS."..................."UNCONSCIOUSLY, PERHAPS, THEY ARE ASKING THE QUESTION. "HOW MUCH COURAGE DO YOU HAVE, AND DO YOU LOVE ME ENOUGH TO STOP ME FROM DOING THIS FOOLISH THING?" WHAT THEY NEED IN THAT MOMENT IS LOVING DISCIPLINE THAT FORCES THEM TO CHOOSE BETWEEN GOOD AND BAD ALTERNATIVES. MUTUAL ACCOUNTABILITY."

I NEED TO HOLD HIM FOR HIS WRONGFULL ACCOUNTS; IF YOU KNOW WHAT I MEAN..........STOP TRYING TO RUN THIS ALL BY MYSELF, HUH.....

WELL, TILL NEXT TIME......BRINx