Friday, May 27, 2005


I AM MISSING MY HUSBAND.........

I KNOW HE IS NOT THE SAME GUY I FELL IN LOVE WITH.........  BUT I AM MISSING THE OLD GUY.  I AM REMEMBERING THE GOOD TIMES.  AND HOW THINGS USE TO BE........HIS TOUCH, HIS KISS.  THE WAY HE USE TO LOOK AT ME........  AND HE HAS BEAUTIFUL EYES........  I MISS OUR TALKS AND OUR PLANS.   THE LAST TIME WE PLANNED ANYTHING TOGETHER..........  WAS WHEN REMODEL OUR MASTER BATHROOM.  WE TALKED ABOUT WHAT WE WANTED AND HOW IT SHOULD LOOK.  WE PLANNED EVERYTHING...........

THOSE TIMES ARE GONE...............

HE DOESN'T WANT ME NOW...............I HAVE TO REMEMBER THAT, AND STOP THIS MEMORY LANE.........  BUT.........
IT SURE DOES HURT.............  THIS WEEKEND HE HAS THE KIDS.  SO I WILL NEED TO KEEP BUSY, MAKE PLANS OR I WILL JUST SLEEP ALL DAY AND CRY MYSELF TO SLEEP............

             

I HAVE SOME GOOD NEWS.........
I RECEIVED MY ACCEPTANCE LETTER TO THE COMMUNITY COLLEGE.  SO I AM IN.........

I ALSO FINISH PAINTING MY PICKETED FENCE.......  BOY, MY BUTT IS VERY SORE........  I CAN'T EVEN SIT DOWN WITHOUT SIGHING........  BUT A GOOD WORKOUT, HUH..........

SO I POSTED SOME OF THE PICTURES.......
DOES MY PICKET FENCE LOOK GOOD????ALSO OF THE DITCH........  AND SOME PICS OF MY LITTLE MAN............HAD TOO........



NOW, HERE ARE THE LYRICS TO
HOW DO YOU LOVE?

THERE ONCE WAS A LOVE   THROWN INTO YOUR ROOM
BUT YOU NEVER KNEW
A CALENDAR   OF DAYS JUST FOR YOU
BUT YOU NEVER KNEW, NEVER KNEW
AND THE TRUTH THAT YOU'LL FIND
WILL ALWAYS BE  THE TRUTH YOU HIDE

SO HOW DO YOU LOVE?
HOW DO YOU LOVE?
WHEN YOUR ANGEL'S CAN'T SING
AND YOUR WORLD IS STILL   LACKING OF ME

THERE ONCE WERE EYES    THAT ONLY SAW YOU
BUT YOU NEVER KNEW
A PORTRAIT OF   A FLOWER IN FULL BLOOM
BUT YOU NEVER KNEW,NEVER KNEW
AND THE WORDS THAT YOU FEAR
WILL ALWAYS BE   THE WORDS YOU HEAR

SO HOW DO YOU LOVE?
HOW DO YOU LOVE?
WHEN YOUR ANGEL CAN'T SING
AND YOUR WORLD IS STILL   LACKING OF ME

THE SPACE WHERE YOU'VE BEEN LIVING
HAS GIFTS YOU'VE NEVER GIVEN
THAT'S THE FACE   YOU ALWAYS SHOW
ASK ME FOR WORDS OF WISDOM
TELL ME OF YOUR CONDITION
'CAUSE I DON'T KNOW, I DON'T, I DON'T KNOW

AND THE TRUTH THAT YOU'LL FIND
WILL ALWAYS BE    THE TRUTH YOU HIDE

SO HOW DO YOU LOVE?
HOW DO YOU LOVE?
WHEN YOUR ANGEL'S CAN'T SING
AND YOUR WORLD IS STILL   LACKING OF ME

SO HOW DO YOU LOVE?
HOW DO YOU LOVE?
WHEN YOUR ANGEL'S CAN'T SING
AND YOUR WORLD IS STILL    LACKING OF ME

HOW DO YOU LOVE?
HOW DO YOU LOVE?
HOW DO YOU LOVE?
HOW DO YOU LOVE?.........


WELL, TILL NEXT TIME......... 

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4 comments:

  1. AnonymousFriday, May 27, 2005 at 2:28:00 PM CDT

    Brin,
    You have so much stress!  I hope you are taking out a little time to play basketball with your kids or just to go out in the backyard and run around like crazy with your little one.  ANYTHING to cut through that stress.

    You need support right now.  You have so much on your shoulders . . .  especially with your daughter talking about living with her father.

    Now, didn't he want to get back together a couple of weeks ago???  What happened?  Man, if he gets on that subject again, I would just ask him nicely to get back to discussing what needs to be discussed to complete the divorce.  It almost sounds like HE is playing games . . . and he's accusing you of things you aren't doing.  Saying you won't be able to take care of the kids!  He's going to have to give you child support to care for the children!

    He is being unfair and is hurting you . . .  enough!!!  You need your new life . . .  college, some new friends from college, and the rest of your focus on your sweet kids!

    Painting your fence was great.  Now, your fence looks good and you did something to help get rid of stress!  Physical activities are the best for stress!

    I am thinking of you.  I want the best for YOU and your children!

    Cyndy

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  2. AnonymousFriday, May 27, 2005 at 4:45:00 PM CDT

    Thanks for sharing the pictures. I think that the fence looks great. I hope that you have a good weekend, and stay BUSY! Don't think about things and enjoy the time.
    I have to work all weekend...UGH!!
    hugs,
    Kathi

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  3. AnonymousFriday, May 27, 2005 at 8:31:00 PM CDT

    Hey Brin..DONT WORRY ABOUT THE COMMENTS YOU LEFT...thats what journals are for...I wasnt pointing to just you other girls emailed some vivid questions ...so dont feel singled out....Hey..(look at me). dont be depressed over him...do you think he is depressed over you? stop wasting your time and start living...see this as opportunites being wide open...stretch your arms out tomorrow morning when you wake up and say " Today is going to be a good day". garaunteed you'll feel better. Hey keep your chin up..treat yourself to something special this weekend.
    Andrew
    http://journals.aol.com/hmkaavila2/HowdoIStackup

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  4. AnonymousSaturday, May 28, 2005 at 10:00:00 AM CDT

    Brin, it took me YEARS....YEARS to stop hurting inside over my first husband. Years...i was already married to Rick and had Chad and had moved on but that doesnt mean the heart doesnt remember and hurt. You have to hurt to grow. No one can know your pain but you but please continue to share your feelings because i know for a fact to write about it helps. Maybe not today, but someday. You are NOT the loser here Brenda...you are NOT. He is. You dont deserve this. You are beautiful and you deserve to be loved and CHERISHED. ((((HUG)))) my friend.....lisa jo

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