Wednesday, June 15, 2005


I AM IN A MOOD.........

I READ IN JENNIFER'S (JOURNAL).  HOW SHE HAD TO DEAL WITH THE LOSS OF HER CLOSEST FRIEND, HER EX.

I AM GOING THROUGH THAT I RIGHT NOW........  I KNOW.......  AND IT'S SO HARD.........
I CRY EVERYTIME I FINISH TALKING TO HIM.  AND MIND YOU, I HAVE BEEN TRYING TO AVOID HIM.........
BUT HE STILL FINDS HIS WAYS.........
AND IT INVOLVES THE GIRLS........

I JUST HATE THAT I FEEL LIKE THIS AND ALL I COULD DO IS CRY........ CAN'T I.......... IT'S SO HEAVY........

I KNOW EVERYONE AND MY FRIENDS TELL THAT IT WILL GET BETTER.  BUT AS FOR RIGHT NOW.  ALL I COULD DO IS CRY.......
I THINK FOR THE NEXT COUPLE OF WEEKS. I AM GOING TO FEEL THIS WAY. I AM JUST SO DOWN. AND TRYING TO DEAL WITH EVERYTHING THAT THE DAY BRINGS........

I KNOW LISTENING TO THESE SONGS, DOESN'T HELP FOR MY MOOD..........
BUT IT DOES MAKE ME REALIZE WHAT HAPPEN, AND HOW FOR ME, IT WASN'T WRONG.........
I'M SO MUCH IN MOURNING.......... BUT HE IS STILL LIVING. HOW HE SO CLOSE BUT CAN'T TOUCH.........

        


THE LYRICS FOR

I WANT TO KNOW WHAT LOVE IS.
BY: FOREIGNER

I gotta take a little time
A little time to think things over
I better read between the lines
In case i need it when i'm older

Now this mountain i must climb
Feels like a world upon my shoulders
I through the clouds i see love shine
It keeps me warm as life grows colder

In my life there's been heartache and pain
I don't know if i can face it again
Can't stop now, i've traveled so far
To change this lonely life

I wanna know what love is
I want you to show me
I wanna feel what love is
I know you can show me

I'm gonna take a little time
A little time to look around me
I've got nowhere left to hide
It looks like love has finally found me

In my life there's been heartache and pain
I don't know if i can face it again
I can't stop now, i've traveled so far
To change this lonely life

I wanna know what love is
I want you to show me
I wanna feel what love is
I know you can show me

I wanna know what love is
I want you to show me
And i wanna feel, i want to feel what love is
And i know, i know you can show me

Let's talk about love
I wanna know what love is, the love that you feel inside
I want you to show me, and i'm feeling so much love
I wanna feel what love is, no, you just cannot hide
I know you can show me, yeah

I wanna know what love is, let's talk about love
I want you to show me, i wanna feel it too
I wanna feel what love is, i want to feel it too
And i know and i know, i know you can show me
Show me love is real, yeah
I wanna know what love is...

TILL NEXT TIME.......... 

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5 comments:

  1. AnonymousWednesday, June 15, 2005 at 10:30:00 PM CDT

    Awwww Brin I really can relate... I can also promise there is light at the end of the tunnel (and its NOT a train, lol). Keep your chin up and remeber you are WORTH MORE.
    Jennifer

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  2. AnonymousWednesday, June 15, 2005 at 10:32:00 PM CDT

    Babe, i'm blue tonight too. That Foreigner song is a killer huh?
    If i live to be a 100 yrs old i will never get over the man i loved before Rick that didnt love me back. Every day i miss him. Pray he is content and happy. Ache. I love my husband. But. That but will be there until i die and i know how you feel.
    Why the hell is life like it is? Why do we have to go thru this shit?

    Love, lisa

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  3. AnonymousThursday, June 16, 2005 at 6:08:00 AM CDT

    Brin, sorry your still feeling down.  You know it will pass, it just takes time.   I wish there was more I could do to help.  Come to NY !!!  That will help you some.
    Ellen

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  4. AnonymousThursday, June 16, 2005 at 7:16:00 AM CDT

    You have got to stop listening to songs like this!  It's gonna tear you up every single time!  Every sad song you hear you will relate to and think "Hey, this sounds just like what I am feeling!".  But, you know what?  It just shows you that others have all felt this way before, which is why people who write songs write about this type of loss, the loss of a relationship/love.  It hurts, and it hurts deeply.  I know you don't want to hear that it will get better, you are too new to this pain, but trust me, it WILL!  And, it's not going to only take a few weeks, it will take months.  Just don't become bitter like my mother did and learn to HATE men.  They all aren't that bad and all of them aren't out to hurt you or break your heart.
    Hugs and love, Lisa

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  5. AnonymousThursday, June 16, 2005 at 4:18:00 PM CDT

    aww brin...you can cry on my shoulder...just let all out here on Jland...were here to listen if you want us too. Those songs are just too sad...I know...I have memories attached to them as well of my ex.....have a great nite ...treat yourself to somthing tonite....Andrew

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