I CAN'T STOP THINKING ABOUT MY HUSBAND..... I GUESS I NEVER WILL.
I WONDER HOW HE TRUELY FEELS. DOES HE STILL LOVE ME. IN SOME WAYS, I KNOW THAT HE STILL DOES. BUT WHY DOES HE WANT TO JUST GIVE UP. I KNOW HE HAS HIS REASON. BUT ARE THERE GOOD REASON, TO SAY, "THIS IS IT." OR WILL HE, IN COUPLE OF MONTHS, REALIZE THAT IT WAS NOT WHAT HE WANTED.........
DOES HE REALIZE WHAT POSITION HE IS PUTTING ME IN. HE HAS HURT ME SO DEEP. I DON'T KNOW IF I WILL EVER TRUST/BELIEVE WHAT HE SAYS........
I HAVE SO MUCH LOVE THAT I WANT TO SHOW HIM, DEEP DOWN INSIDE, I JUST WANT TO EAT HIM UP........ I WANT TO HOLD HIM FOREVER. TO KISS HIM WITH ALL MY LOVE.
ON SUNDAY, WHEN I SAW HIM. IT TOOK EVERYTHING OUT OF ME, NOT TO JUMP INTO HIM.
I KNEW IF I DID THAT HE WOULD JUST RUN.........
SO I JUST WAIT, BUT WILL HE REALLY REALIZE WHAT HE WANTS AND WHAT HE HAS DONE TO ME......
TILL NEXT TIME.......
Tuesday, June 14, 2005
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My sweet Brin, i know inside of you is a part that wants your hubby home and for things to work out..for your daughter to come back and for it all to be as it was and even better. I know you dont want this marriage to end. The one thing you have to know is that you can not make your husband feel what he doesnt or do what you want him to do....you can only change yourself and control yourself. I dont mean that harshly. You ARE strong and beautiful and this is not an easy thing to say but he may divorce you and in a few years try to come running back because he realized he was wrong. And it probaly will be too late. I know the pain. My ex came back over and over and tried to sabatoge my current marriage and i was so tempted because i very much believed and needed the dream to work out. It didnt. I wish i could hug you and see you and talk with you. Just keep talking about the pain....and think about going to counseling. I would be dead without the counseling i had. I love you!!! lisa jo
ReplyDeleteBrin....I am so sorry you are going through this...I know we always wonder about the "what if's" and we want to know what the other person is thinking and wanting to desperately try to make things go back to what they were. It can drive us insane...the pain...the heartache. I feel for you! I wish it would all get better....and soon! You deserve to be happy and to feel good again. Just remember it will happen...you will be happy again.
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Oh Brin, I know your feeling bad today , tomorrow will be better and everyday after that. You will have bad days, and really good days.... you know what I mean ??? Just be strong, your getting through this everyday.
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OH MAN BRIN!!.....I LOVE THAT SONG FROM FOREIGNER.....THERE ARE SO MANY MEMORIES ATTACHED TO SONG FOR ME TOO... now you got me tearing boo hoo damit!.~Andrew
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