Wednesday, June 29, 2005


I HAVE BEEN DREADING THIS WEEKEND..........

YOU SEE.....
17TH YEARS AGO ON JULY THE 4TH.....
I WAS SAYING "I DO" TO THE LOVE OF MY LIFE........
THIS WILL BE OUR LAST YEAR.......
IT SO CRUEL THAT THE PAPER WORK WILL BE DONE AFTER OUR ANNIVERSARY......

I KNOW I COULD GET THROUGH THIS.....
I JUST NEED TO KEEP BUSY....
AND I HOPE THAT HE WILL STAY AWAY....
HE CAN'T BE THAT CRUEL......

I AM PLANNING TO BBQ AND TAKE MY KIDS (MY BABY GIRL AND MY SON) TO THE TOWN FIREWORKS.  IT HAS BEEN A TRADITION.  EVERY YEAR SINCE 10 YEARS NOW......  I REMEMBER LAST YEAR, MY HUSBAND TOKE US OUT TO EAT FOR LUNCH. I TOOK THE KIDS TO THE FIREWORKS.  HE DIDN'T JOIN US.  HE DIDN'T WANT TO DEAL WITH THE CROWD.  WHICH WE DIDN'T.......  EVERY YEAR I FIND THE RIGHT PLACE TO SEE THE FIREWORKS AND THE RIGHT PARKING SPOT. WHERE WE COULD EASILY JUMP IN AND DRIVE WITHOUT GETTING INTO THE TRAFFIC........  SOMEHOW IT JUST WORKS OUT......

THE LAST ONE.......
HOW SOOOOOOO MUCH HAS HAPPEN.
17TH YEARS.......  I REMEMBER WATCHING "PARENTHOOD" WITH STEVE MARTIN. HOW THEY EXPLAINED HOW PARENTING IS LIKE A ROLLERCOASTER......
YOU HAVE YOUR UPS AND DOWNS WITH TWIST AND TURNS......
IT IS ALSO WITH LIFE...... LOOKING BACK THROUGH ALL THOSE YEARS, HOW IT WAS SO REAL..... BUT EVEN GOING THROUGH THIS DIVORCE. HOW IT STILL HAS THOSE UPS AND DOWNS, TWIST AND TURNS..... YOU JUST KEEP ROLLING WITH IT.....
LIFE STILL GOES ON......

WELL, TILL NEXT TIME...... 

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4 comments:

  1. AnonymousThursday, June 30, 2005 at 1:31:00 AM CDT

    Hey Brin, I have the rollercoaster of my dreams, and your riding on it in your life. I guess it all means the same thing though huh. Hang in there girlfriend.
    Delaine

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  2. AnonymousThursday, June 30, 2005 at 3:42:00 AM CDT

    Brin, reading your journal makes me appriciate my family life... Thank you... My thoughts and prayers are with you...
    Hugs with Love,
    Kendra

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  3. AnonymousThursday, June 30, 2005 at 5:46:00 AM CDT

    Brin, Be strong this weekend you can get thru it . Have fun at the fireworks.
    Ellen

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  4. AnonymousThursday, June 30, 2005 at 7:11:00 AM CDT

    Sweet Brin, if only i could come get you....but i have a feeling he will somehow find a way to contact you on your anniversary. I KNOW how hard it is. I do. Keep busy....17 yrs is a long long time baby. So so sorry for your pain. You are beautiful.....inside and out. Love, lisa

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