LAST MONTH ISSUE OF "O"

 

I READ ABOUT THIS ESSAY CONTEST.

"MOVING FORWARD"

I WANTED TO GET READY FOR MY TEST; THE ESSAY WRITING SECTION.

SO I WROTE AN ESSAY AND HERE IT IS.

TELL ME WHAT YOU THINK:

 

 

 

 

Dealing

 

I have been dealing with the loss of my love.  My husband announced that he wanted a divorce after 16 years of marriage.  The road of our marriage had brought many struggles with good times and beautiful moments. I have gone through stages of dealing with my divorce.  I dealt with denial, anger, bargaining, letting go, and acceptance. I believe I will deal with them for the rest of my life.

 

I am learning to be a single mother, while finding myself.  At the same time, dealing with the everyday changes that life brings to me.  At this moment, I sit here alone in my home, missing everything I once had in my life.  But next weekend, my kids will be with me and it will fill the void of my emptiness.  My friends and family tell me, he is the one losing and losing a lot more.  But I know deep down inside, no one has won. I am learning to make peace with the past and to learn from it.

 

I am moving forward in life.

 

I know I have choices.  If this is what life brings to me, I learn to move forward. I am taking baby steps, one at a time.  First, I am going back to work.  In addition, I have plans to attend college.  I received my acceptance letter the other day.  What a joy.  For the first time in my life, at the age of 36, I will step onto a college campus.  An opportunity, I never thought I would have had.

 

I read that it is easier to stay down, because you will have less to lose, however living brings so much more; love, joy, happiness, etc, etc…..  With it comes hurt, sadness, etc, etc….  What I know is that this is life and how we react to it, makes us. Moving forward and not backwards. So, I choose to move forward. 

 

 

NOW, FOR A NEW SONG........
I BROUGHT THIS CD..........  BECAUSE I LOVE THE SONG "COLD".........  BUT LISTENING TO THIS CD.

I BECAME ATTACHED TO THIS ONE.  IT A LITTLE CREEPY, BUT IT'S HOW I FEEL..........

 

"Dead Skin"

So I'm the king of all these things of this mess I have made
Such a waste what a shame my whole life is a fake
Well I'm a bore and I'm sure I'm a thorn inside of you that has torn at you for years
The alcohol the demerol these things never could replace
What a minute with you could do to put a smile on my face
I'm a bore and I'm sure I'm a thorn inside of you that has torn at me for years
I can't get out of this dead skin I can't shed my skin
I'm not sure where to begin why can't I begin again
I can't get under my dead skin I can't shed my skin
Can I sllep 'til then

Phenobarbitol and alocohol these two surely will do
To knock me out keep me down at least a day or two
When I'm awake I can taste how bitter I've become
And it's more than I can bear somedays I pray someone will blow me away
Make it quick but let it burn so I can feel my life fade
Well I'm a waste and I can taste how bitter I've become
And it's more than I can bear
I can't shed my skin
I can't shed my skin

 

WELL, TILL NEXT TIME.......