THE WEEKEND IS ALMOST HERE.........

HOW TIME FLYS......

MY SON THREW UP JUST BEFORE GOING TO BED......
I WAS GETTING HIM READY WHEN HE STARTED TO COUGH AND COUGH.....  HE WAS COUGHING ALL THAT JUNK. WHEN HE GAGGED AND THREW UP.....
I WAS LIKE THAT LAST NIGHT. I HAD TO SLEEP ON MY STOMACH; SO I WOULDN'T GAGGED......
I WISH WE COULD GET THIS COUGHT AND JUNK OUT OF OUR SYSTEM.......

BUT BESIDE ALL THAT; THINGS ARE JUST ROLLING HERE.....

OUR FOOTBALL GAME HAS BEEN MOVED TO SATURDAY NIGHT.....  I WILL BE WORKING ON SATURDAY BUT AFTER WORK; I WILL BE HEADING FOR THE GAME.......
I HOPE WE WIN BUT THE TEAM WE ARE PLAYING. IS  DOING WELL THIS SEASON. SO, I THINK IT IS GOING TO BE A SAD GAME.....
PLUS OUR TEAM HAS LOSTED ALL THE GOOD PLAYERS FROM LAST YEAR (BECAUSE THEY WERE SENIOR). AND THEY ARE STARTING WITH SOME NEW PLAYERS. SO THE TEAM IS STILL TRYING TO GET THERE STUFF TOGETHER......  OR MAYBE IT IS THE COACH'S DOING......  I DON'T KNOW, I AM JUST RAMBLING HERE.....

I WOKE UP THIS MORNING THINKING OF MY ENGLISH HOMEWORK......  I WAS WORKING ON IT LAST NIGHT. AND I GUESS IT WAS STILL ON MY MIND WHEN I FELL ASLEEP.....
I ONLY GOT 6 HOURS OF SLEEP, SO I AM HEADING FOR BED NOW.......

NITE, NITE.....
 

UHHHH.... WHAT A NIGHT.........

IT SEEMS LIKE EVERYWHERE I GO.......
THERE SHE IS..... UHHH.......

YES, I AM TALKING ABOUT THE MISTRESS.......

I JUST CAN'T GO PLACES WITHOUT HER SHOWING HER FACE AROUND.......
I MENTION THAT I HAD A TALK WITH MY HUSBAND THIS PAST WEEKEND.....
WELL, HE TOLD ME THAT HIS LITTLE MISTRESS....
GET THIS......  SHE WANTS TO APOLGIZE TO ME...

OH..... SHE DOES, I TOLD HIM......
SHE HAD PLENTY OF TIME TO APOLGIZE TO ME WHEN I SAW HER AT THE GROCERY STORE......
HE SAYS, SHE DIDN'T KNOW IT WAS YOU.
BUT DID SHE......  SHE JUST COULDN'T GET OUT OF THERE FAST ENOUGH........ I TOLD HIM.....
HE TELLS ME, YOU KNOW WHAT SHE SAID ABOUT YOU. "SHE SAID THAT I WAS BEAUTIFUL"......
SHE TOLD HIM THAT........
OH MY...... HOW SHE KNOWS HOW TO SWEET TALK TO YOU.....  SHE IS PLAYING HIM SO WELL.....
I TOLD HIM....

BUT NO, TODAY I SAW HER AGAIN......
FACE TO FACE, SIDE BY SIDE.......
SO I STAND THERE.  LOOKING AT HER.......
AND NOTHING. SHE LOOKS AT ME AND WALKS BY.......
WHAT A B****.........  HER KIDS AND MY KIDS ARE GOING THROUGH SO MUCH BECAUSE OF THERE STUPIDITY.......

I EVEN TOLD MY HUSBAND THAT HE DOESN'T SEE THINGS OR HEAR THINGS....

CASE IN POINT......  MY SON HAS NOT HAD A HAIRCUT FOR OVER 3 MONTHS.... (DIDN'T HAVE THE MONEY FOR IT)  BUT I TOLD HIM....  DO YOU EVEN NOTICE, NO.....  SO WHAT DID HE DO WHEN HE HAD HIM ON SATURDAY. TOOK HIM TO GET A HAIRCUT........
THAT'S GREAT HE GOT HIS HAIRCUT.....
BUT MY POINT WAS THAT HE DOESN'T SEE THINGS FOR HIMSELF......  WHAT HIS KIDS ARE REALY FEELING OR HOW THEY ARE.......
MY SON TOO HAS THE BAD COUGH. BUT I DIDN'T CALL THE DOCTOR, IN FEAR THAT HE WOULD WANT TO SEE HIM (WHICH I CAN'T EVEN PAY). BUT DOES MY HUSBAND SEES THAT, NO.......
I HAVE BEEN DEALING WITH ALL THIS. AND I HATE I HAVE TO TELL HIM ABOUT IT INSTEAD OF HIM SEEING IT FOR HIMSELF..........
WHAT A GUY, HUH....... 

WITH ALL THIS I AM DEALING WITH PLUS MORE THAT I DIDN'T TELL HIM.......
BUT ALL HE COULD TELL ME IS "I CAN'T SEEM TO PLEASE EVERYONE"......... OH MY.......

I REALLY HATE THAT I HAVE TO SEE HER.....
IN MY TOWN, AT THE GAME, AT THE GROCERY STORE, DOWN THE STREET.  YES, I WAS MOWING AND THERE SHEDRIVES BY...... 
BUT, I AM BEAUTIFUL........ YES, I AM......

HANG IN THERE......
 

 WELL, BACK TO ROUTINE........

YEP, BACK TO SCHOOL. GETTING NOTICES OF UPCOMING TESTS. OH MY IS IT THAT TIME ALL READY...... YEP....

MY BABY GIRL CALLED ME AT 4:30 THIS AFTERNOON.  SHE INFORMED ME THAT THE FRIDAY NIGHT FOOTBALL GAME THAT DIDN'T HAPPEN. WOULD BE PLAYED TONIGHT. TALK ABOUT SHORT NOTICE.......
BUT WHAT A WAY TO HAVE A MONDAY NIGHT FOOTBALL GAME......
I HOPE WE WIN...... 

I WILL BE TAKING MY CAMERA.HOPE FOR SOME GOOD PICTURES.....

TILL NEXT TIME.....
 

HELLO EVERYONE..........

THANK YOU FOR ALL YOUR COMMENTS.......

I MADE IT THROUGH THE HURRICANE BECAUSE IT DID NOT COME TOWARDS MY DIRECTIONS.  NO RAIN FROM IT EITHER. JUST SOME WIND.......
SO THANK GOD.....  I DID NOT NEED ANOTHER PROBLEM ON MY PLATE.  BUT IT DID MOVE MY DIVORCE DATE.......

I DO NOT KNOW WHEN IT WILL BE RESCHEDULE.  MY FRIEND THINKS THAT IT WILL BE IN 2 WEEKS.... UHHH....  I WOULD LIKE TO MOVE FORWARD WITH THIS......

MY HUSBAND AND MY OLDEST DAUGHTER DID NOT EVACUATE.  I WAS SO UPSET WITH MY HUSBAND.  BUT THANK GOODNESS THAT IT DID NOT COME TO OUR DIRECTIONS.  I KEPT SAYING THAT I SHOULD HAVE TAKEN HER WITH ME.  THE LAST TIME WE HAD A HURRICANE. HE STAYED BEHIND, SO I KNEW HE WOULD DO THIS.  I HAVE BEEN SO PISSED OFF AT HIM.....
LAST NIGHT, I HAD IT OUT WITH HIM.......
HE JUST DOES NOT UNDERSTAND ANYTHING......  HE DOES NOT SEE EVERYTHING OR HEAR EVERYTHING.......
HE DOES NOT UNDERSTAND WHAT THE SITUATION IS....
I KNOW I AM TALKING IN CIRCLE. SORRY.....  
I KNOW THAT IT HAS MADE ME STRONGER AND HAS MADE ME LOOKING OUT FOR MYSELF AND MY FAMILY......

TONIGHT, MY SON IS SLEEPING AT HIS DAD'S......  THE FIRST NIGHT IN A COUPLE OF MONTHS.......  I MISS HIM.  BUT HAPPY THAT HE IS WITH HIS DAD.

I HAVE BEEN TRYING TO GET OVER THIS BAD COUGH. IT HAS ME SOUNDING HOARSE...  AND TIMES I FEEL LIKE I AM GOING TO LOSE MY VOICE...  
BUT I AM KEEPING BUSY......

I CAME HOME FROM MY MOTHER'S HOUSE, WITH A MOOD TO CLEAN......  I GOT MY HOUSE IN ORDER.  I EVEN CLEANED MY DESK OUT, MY BABY GIRL'S ROOM (WHICH WAS A BIG MESS) AND CLEANED OUT MY GARAGE.....
I HAD EVERYTHING FROM OUTSIDE IN THERE......
AFTER THAT I NOTICED THAT THE YARD NEEDED TRIMMING. SO I MOWED THE LAWN AND EDGE. MY HOUSE LOOKS GOOD.......
WELL, AFTER ALL THAT...........
I INVITED MY FRIENDS OVER FOR DINNER.  WHERE DID I GET THE ENERGY FOR ALL THAT......  I DON'T KNOW.....
BUT IT WAS NICE.......

SO I AM TRIED BUT I WOULD LIKE TO READ ABOUT WHAT EVERYONE ELSE IS UP TO........
MAYBE TOMORROW......  AS FOR RIGHT NOW, I AM GOING TO BED.........

 

 

HURRICANE RITA.......

I AM AT WORK BUT ONCE I AM OUT OF HERE. I AM PACKING AND PREPARING THE HOUSE. AND I WILL LEAVE......
I WILL BE DRIVING TONIGHT TO MY MOTHER'S HOUSE......
PRAY FOR US AND I WILL KEEP POST ONCE I AM BACK....
I HOPE EVERYTHING WILL BE FINE. WHEN I RETURNED.....
I DON'T WANT TO WORRY ABOUT IT TILL IT IS OVER....
BUT I AM SCARIED.......

TILL NEXT TIME......  BRINxxxxxxx

FROM THE HEART OF TEXAS.......



I NEED TO START WATCHING THE NEWS.........

I HEARD TODAY AT WORK THAT THERE IS A HURRCAINE ENTERING THE GULF THIS WEEK. AND IT WILL MAKE LANDFALL BY THE END OF THE WEEK.......

I HAVE BEEN SO BUSY, THAT THIS COULD OF PASS BY WITH OUT ME KNOWING ABOUT IT..... IF IT WASN'T FOR WORK....

I AM NOT EVEN PREPARE FOR IT. I DON'T HAVE BOARDS FOR MY HOUSE.....  MY HUSBAND AND I NEVER PREPARED FOR IT. I DO HAVE WATER, CAN FOOD, LIGHTS AND ETC, ETC......  PLUS MY DIVORCE DATE IS THIS FRIDAY.... UHHH..... THIS IS GOING TO PUSH IT BACK......

BUT I PRAY THAT IT WILL NOT GAIN STRENGTH.......
I CAN'T WORRY ABOUT IT, BUT BY WEDNESDAY WE SHOULD KNOW MORE OF WHAT WILL HAPPEN. HOPEFULLY......
BUT I PRAY THAT THIS WILL NOT BE A STRONG STORM.....

WELL, I BETTER GO TO BED......
TILL NEXT TIME..... 

WELL.......

I AM BETWEEN CLASSES AND BETH IS OUT. SO I CAME TO THE LIBRARY.  SO A QUICK ENTRY.......

I AM STARTING TO THINK ABOUT THINGS THAT HAS HAPPEN WITH MY HUSBAND. I AM GOING BACK TO THE TIMES WHEN WE WERE DATING. THE TIME WE HAD OUR CHILDREN. THE HAPPY TIMES, I WILL ALWAYS HAVE THOSE. THEN THE HARD TIMES AND THE UGLY TIMES. I GUESS IN MY SITUATIONS; DIVORCE DATE AROUND THE CORNER. PEOPLE THINK ABOUT THEM AT THIS TIME......

WELL, ANYWAY..... THIS HOW I SEE LIFE.......
LIFE IS EVERYTHING GOOD, BAD, UGLY, SAD, AND ETC, ETC.....  IT HOW YOU DEAL WITH IT THAT MAKES IT COUNT.......  THIS IS LIFE.  AND I WILL OVERCOME EVERYTHING.  IT WILL NOT KILL ME, I LEARNED TO ACCEPT THINGS AND MOVED AND MOVING FORWARD.......

I HAVE GROWN SO MUCH.......  AND I FEEL LIKE I AM FINALLY LIVING.  NOT TO SAY THAT I WAS NOT LIVING BEFORE.  BECAUSE I DO HAVE MY MEMORY; THE GOOD, BAD, UGLY, SAD, EVERYTHING......  BUT NOW, I FEEL LIKE I AM MAKING THE DECISION FOR MYSELF.  I AM IN CONTROL OF MY LIFE.  AND IF THAT MEANS FAILURE; WHICH I WILL GIVE ALL MY POWER NOT TO....  BUT THIS IS MY LIFE......

LIKE BON JOVI SONG......
IT'S MY LIFE......  ROCK ON!!!!

WELL, HAVE TO GO TO CLASS......

TILL NEXT TIME...... BRINxxxxxx

IT'S ALMOST 5AM ON SATURDAY AND I CAN'T SLEEP.........

WHY DOES MY MIND WANT TO THINK AT THIS HOUR OF THE DAY.......
I HAVE A DREAM AND WAKE UP FROM IT. THEN MY MIND START TO THINK ABOUT THE DREAM AND THEN I AM AWAKE. UHHHHHH.......

AND SOMETIMES MY DREAMS ARE JUST DREAMS. I WAS DREAMING ABOUT SCHOOL. NOTHING SPECIFIC THAT I CAN REMEMBER. JUST IN SCHOOL WORKING ON A PAPER.
BUT THEN MY MIND START WONDER ABOUT THE DREAM. THEN I AM AWAKE. THEN MY MIND STARTS TO WONDER ABOUT OTHER THINGS.

THIS COMING FRIDAY WILL BE MY DIVORCE DATE.......
IT IS ALMOST HERE.......  TIME DOES FLY, WHEN YOUR HAVING FUN OR WHEN YOU ARE SAD........
I SAW MY HUSBAND YESTERDAY. THIS WEEKEND WOULD HAVE BEEN HIS WEEKEND WITH THE KIDS.  BUT HE MADE PLANS TO GO OUT OF TOWN. ONCE A YEAR, THEY HAVE A MINI VACATION FOR THE UPPER MANAGEMENT IN HIS WORK COMPANY. THEY GOING AND RENT THIS HOUSE BY THE BAY. AND GO FISHING.....  BUT THE FIRST NIGHT, THEY HAVE A FAMILY BBQ. THEN THE WIFE AND THE KIDS GO HOME AND THE MEN ARE LEFT TO FISH AND PLAY CARDS.........  LAST YEAR, THE COMPANY WAS TO BUSY TO MAKE THE PLANS BUT 2 YEARS AGO. I WAS THERE. WELL, LAST NIGHT, MY HUSBAND WAS PICKING UP THE FISHING GEAR AND JUST HAD VISITED WITH HIS SON. (MY BABY GIRL WAS ASLEEP, WHEN I CAME HOME FROM WORK AND PICKUP MY SON FROM DAYCARE. I TRYED TO WAKE HER SO SHE COULD SPENT SOMETIME WITH HER DAD. BUT SHE DIDN'T WANT TO.)
SO WE WERE IN THE GARAGE GETTING THE GEARS AND TALKING. WE TALK ABOUT MY OLDEST. SHE OPTED TO STAY WITH A FRIEND FOR THE WEEKEND INSTEAD OF HERE. WHICH HE TOLD ME THAT SHE HAS BEEN IN MOOD. HE SAID THAT SHE MUST BE PMSING BECAUSE IT HAPPENS ONCE A MONTH, THIS ATTITUDE......  BUT WE TALKED AND TALKED. THEN I ASKED HIM....... WELL, THE MISTRESS BE GOING TO THE FAMILY BBQ...... HE UHM.... AND YES....  OH MY, THE DIVORCE IS NEXT WEEK BUT YET HE IS BEING WITH HER IN FRONT OF HIS CO-WORKERS. SO DISRESPECTFULL...... BUT THAT WHAT I GET FROM HIM..... THAT IS WHAT HE IS SHOWING TO HIS WORK.  REMEMBER THAT THEY WORK TOGETHER..... SO, THEY ARE LIKE THIS AT WORK.....
I HAVEN'T EVEN STARTED TO DATE. AND I WILL NOT TILL THE DIVORCE IS FINAL BUT YOU KNOW. IT WILL NEVER BE THE SAME, DATING......  THAT IS A WHOLE OTHER ENTRY I COULD WRITE ABOUT....... MAYBE ONE DAY, I WILL. WHEN I AM IN THAT BOAT......

MY SON IS STARTING TO UNDERSTAND THAT DAD LIVES AT THE APARTMENT AND WE LIVE AT HOME.
SO.......THIS COMING WEEKEND WHEN DAD HAS THE KIDS. WE ARE GOING TO TEST OUR SON.  HE WILL BE SLEEPING AT THE APARTMENT WITH DAD ON FRIDAY NIGHT. IF HE DOES WELL, THEN HE WILL SLEEP ON SATURDAY NIGHT TOO......
BEING THAT HE UNDERSTAND THAT DAD LIVES IN THE APARTMENT AND MOM IS AT HOME. MAYBE HE'LL UNDERSTAND THAT WHEN HE SLEEPS AT DAD'S THAT MOM WILL STILL BE AT HOME WHEN HE COMES HOME. HE WAS BEING CONFESSED BY THE NIGHTS...... DIDN'T  KNOW HOW TO EXPLAIN, "WHERE IS MOM?" THING.......
BUT NOW THAT I THINK HE KNOWS THAT DAD LIVES AT THE APARTMENT AND MOM AT HOME. MAYBE HE WILL UNDERSTAND THAT EVEN IF HE SLEEPS AT DAD'S APARTMENT. MOM WILL BE AT HOME WAITING TILL HE COMES BACK.......  WILL SEE??????

WILL I AM GOING TO TRY TO GO BACK TO SLEEP......
IT 5:30 AM.... STILL COULD GET SOME SHUT EYE......

TILL NEXT TIME........ 

OK, QUICK ENTRY...........

MY HOMEWORK TONIGHT FOR MY ENGLISH CLASS WAS TO WRITE A JOURNAL ENTRY ABOUT FAMILY........

SO I WOULD LIKE TO SHARE IT WITH YOU ALL.......

"THE WORD FAMILY ARE MANY PEOPLE IN MY LIFE: MY KIDS, MY MOTHER, MY SISTER, MY BROTHERS, AND MY CLOSE FRIENDS. IN TIME OF CRISIS, YOU REALIZE WHO YOUR FAMILY IS. THE ONES WHO HELP YOU, TO GET BACK ON YOUR FEET. THE ONES WHO WILL GIVE THERE SHOULDER TO CRY ON. THE ONES WHO LISTEN TO YOUR PROBLEMS AND WORRYS.
THEIR ARE THE PEOPLE THAT ARE BE SIDED YOU, EVERYDAY.".......

I WILL BE ADDING MORE TO THIS. BUT THIS IS THE FIRST DRAFT.
LIKE I LEARNED IN CLASS. MY THOUGHT LINES..........

MORE TO CONTINUE, AT A LATER DAY.........

HOPE EVERYONE IS DOING GOOD.......

TILL NEXT TIME.....

 

SO.....
TONIGHT I WENT TO MY DAUGHTER'S INDUCTION FOR NATIONAL HONOR SOCIETY.......

IT WAS SO NICE........
ALL THE HARD WORK SHE HAS DONE. SO PROUD OF HER. I'M GLAD I WENT.....

I RECIEVED AN EMAIL FROM MY HUSBAND ABOUT IT LAST WEEK. I WAS SAD TO HEAR ABOUT IT FROM HIM AND NOT HER.  SHE IS STILL NOT TALKING TO ME.  SHE WILL SAY HELLO BUT IS VERY STANDOFFISH.......
BUT I WAS SO HAPPY TO SEE HER WEARING THE GROWN AND BANNER......
SIT THERE REMINDS ME THAT IN LESS THE 2 YEARS.  SHE WILL BE GRADUATING.......
I CAN'T BELIEVE THAT TIME IS FLYING........

I KNOW SHE WILL BE SO GOOD AT ANYTHING SHE PUTTS HER MIND TOO.......
SHE IS SO MUCH LIKE HER MOTHER......
I GUESS THAT'S WHY WE ARE IN THE POINT WE ARE......<WINK>......

THE GUEST SPEAKER WAS THE PRESIDENT OF MY COMMUNITY COLLEGE.  I KNEW WHO HE WAS BECAUSE MY CLASSWORK.  WE HAD TO FIND OUT WHO WAS OUR PRESIDENT.  GOOD SPEECH......  HE QUOTED THE PRAYER "GOD GIVE MY THE STRENGTH TO CHANGE THE THINGS I COULD CHANGE, ACCEPT THE THINGS I CAN'T, AND THE COURAGE TO CHANGE THE THINGS I CAN."

WELL, TILL NEXT TIME.....
 

STILL TRYING TO GET MY COMPUTER TOGETHER..........

BUT THINGS ARE GOING GOOD FOR ME.......

I HAVE BEEN BUSY THIS WEEKEND BUT HAS BEEN ENJOYABLE. I DID GO THROUGH MY CLOSET AND CLEARED OUT SOME STUFF. I ALSO WHEN THROUGH MY SON'S STUFF. I HAVE A TRUNK LOAD. SO, I PLAN ON GOING TOMORROW TO DROP IT OFF......  I CLEANED HOUSE AND DID GET SOME STUFF DONE ON MY COMPUTER....

BUT, ALL IN ALL, MY WEEKEND WAS GOOD.......

WE WENT TO THE FRIDAY NIGHT FOOTBALL GAME. WHICH, OUR TEAM DIDN'T PLAY WELL......  BUT WE (MY SON AND I) HAD A GOOD TIME. MY BABY GIRL TWISTED HER ANKLE AGAIN..... SHE IS HOPPING AROUND WITH CRUTCHES. BUT SHE WILL BE OFF HER ANKLE THIS WEEK....  BUT MY SON MADE A NEW FRIEND......  HE IS ALSO 3 YEARS OLD...... I WILL HAVE TO POST THE PICS ON AN OTHER DAY..... {STILL WORKING ON MY COMPUTER}........

WELL, I BETTER GET SOME SHUT EYE......
TILL NEXT TIME......

 

I KNEW THAT I WOULD BE BUSY...............

BOY, AM I........

IT'S GOOD THOUGH. BUT I AM BEHIND ON MY JOURNAL READING. AND WORK SEEMS BUSY, AT TIME......
I ALSO HAD MY COMPUTER REIMAGE. SO THAT'S WHY I DON'T HAVE BACKGROUND. STILL WORKING ON GETTING EVERYTHING BACK UP.......

IT'S FOURTEEN DAYS TILL MY DIVORCE IS FINAL........
I CAN'T BELIEVE THAT.......
I'M HANGING ON, JUST DEALING WITH THINGS, ONE AT A TIME. BUT I HEARD YESTERDAY FROM A FRIEND. THAT THERE IS THIS GUY THAT IS INTERESTED IN ME.......
I TOLD MY FRIEND THAT YES, I WOULD LIKE TO MEET HIM. AFTER I ASKED HER ABOUT HIM. BUT NOT IN TILL MY DIVORCE IS FINAL....... THANK GOODNESS IT'S ONLY FOURTEEN MORE DAYS.....

I'VE BEEN SO BUSY THAT I HAVE NO TIME TO WATCH THE NEWS. BUT MY FRIEND TOLD ME THAT SOME OF THE HURRCAINE VICTIMS ARE IN OUR TOWN AND NEIGHBOR TOWNS. THAT IS HOW BIG THIS IS.........

SHE HAS PUT IN SOME VOLUNTARY TIME DURING HER LUNCH. SHE IS SO GOOD. I WISH I HAD MORE TIME TO HELP. BUT I WILL GO THROUHG SOME STUFF THIS WEEKEND. TO SEE WHAT I COULD HELP WITH. MY BABY GIRL HAS TOLD ME THAT THEY ARE GOING TO SCHOOL. SHE HAS THIS BOY IN HER SPANISH CLASS THAT VOLUNTARY TO TALK TO THE CLASS ABOUT WHAT THEY (HIS FAMILY AND HIM) HAD GONE THROUGH. IT'S SO SAD........

I HAVE BEEN CAUGHT UP WITH ME, THAT THEY ARE OTHERS WORST OFF THEN ME........
I PRAY THAT GOD WILL WATCH OVER THEM.......
BUT I BELIEVE THAT THIS, THERE PRESENCE WILL AFFECT PEOPLE HERE. HOPEFULLY TO REALIZE THAT LIFE IS PRECIOUS....
I KNOW I DO......

WELL, TILL NEXT TIME.....

 

MONDAY, I WENT TO THE BEACH WITH MY FRIEND, SUSAN.
AND HER SON, WHICH IS MY SON'S BUDDY...........

WE HAD A GREAT TIME. WE STOPPED AT THE GOURMET COFFEE HOUSE AND EATERY. WE PICKED UP SANDWICH AND FROZEN CHAI LATTE. THEY ARE SO GOOD........

WE SAT ON THE BEACH WATCHING OUR SONS' MAKE A SAND CASTLE AND PLAYING IN THE WATER........
WHEN WE GOT THERE, I REMEMBERED THAT I FORGOT MY CAMERA.
AND IT'S WAS A BEAUTIFUL DAY........
THE LAST DAY OF SUMMER, LIKE THEY SAY......

BUT ALL IN ALL, IT WAS A GOOD DAY. I SAT IN THE SALT WATER. WHICH HELP MY CUT KNEE. IT WAS STARTING TO PUSS UP AND THE WATER WAS HEALING IT......... BUT I AM STILL PUTTING NEOSPORIN.
AND I AM NOT EXERCISING......  BECAUSE IF I MOVE IT A CERTAIN WAY OR BEND DOWN. I STILL FEEL PAIN........

WELL, I BETTER GO. NEED TO GET READY FOR SCHOOL THEN WORK.......

TILL NEXT TIME.....
   

THE MAN I LOVE..........

FOR OVER 17 YEARS AND I SOME WAY, STILL DO.........

IS IN LOVE WITH SOMEONE ELSE........

REALIZING THAT......
AFTER EVERYTHING, I AM STILL DEALING WITH THIS.......

AND IN SOME WAYS, I AM TRYING TO LET GO.......
SAYING IT AND REALIZE IT, IN SOME WAYS BRINGS CLOSURE. BUT I AM CRYING MY EYES OUT.......
THE PAIN, THE HURT, THE LIES........
EVERYTHING THAT HAS HAPPEN DOESN'T MAKE IT EASIER.....
I GET ANGRY AND UPSET. AND IT WAS WAY TO DEAL WITH IT. BUT DOWN INSIDE, I FEEL LIKE DYING, SO WORTHLESS. LIKE WHAT IS WRONG WITH ME.....
AND I KNOW THAT IT NOT ME, HE JUST DOESN'T KNOW WHAT HE LEFT.......

I DEAL WITH IT ALL OF THE EMOTIONS.....
AND TONIGHT, ALL OF THEM......
I AM FEELING SO LONELY. AND I KNOW THAT IS WHY I AM FEELING ALL THESE EMOTIONS.......
TOMORROW WILL BRINGS OTHER DAY AND I WILL FEEL/MOVE ON WITH MY LIFE........

TILL NEXT TIME........
 

ALSO, HOW THING HAPPEN AT A BLINK OF AN EYE......

YESTERDAY CAME HOME TO HEAR WATER COMING OUT OF MY AC UNIT.......

NOT GOOD......
THE DRAIN TRAP WAS CLOGGED..... AND I DID THE WORK, WITH A HURT KNEE......   BECAUSE I CAN'T AFFORD TO HAVE SOMEONE TAKE CARE OF IT. BUT I WILL PLAN FOR NEXT MONTH, TO HAVE SOMEONE CHECK OUT MY SYSTEM.......
I PRAY THAT NOTHING ELSE GOES WRONG.......

WHEN YOUR DOWN, YOU FIND A WAY TO DO THINGS......
OR ALEAST THAT IS WHAT I DO......

WELL, TILL NEXT TIME..... BACK TO WORK.
BRINxxxxxx  ;-)

THE AFTERMATH....................

MY MOTHER TOLD ME THAT I WOULD FEEL BAD TODAY.
BOY, WAS SHE RIGHT......  (I SAID MOTHER...)

I WOKE UP THIS MORNING. ACHING.......
PLUS MY LEFT ARM IS HURTING TO.
WONDER WHY.......
IT WAS MY LEFT KNEE THAT I FELL ON, SO MY LEFT ARM WAS TRYING TO HELP AND NOW, I AM SORE.......
BUT WHEN I THINK ABOUT IT. I AM LAUGHING. CAN YOU BELIEVE THAT I AM LAUGHING. HURTING BUT STILL LAUGHING ON THE INSIDE......


WELL, LAST NIGHT WAS FOOTBALL GAME.....
AND WE LOST......
IT HAD BEEN RAIN HERE AND THE FIELD WAS SOAKING WETTING. THE FOOTBALL TEAM WERE SLIPPING AND SLIDING. COULDN'T KEEP A HOLD ON THE BALL, (BUT ALSO THE OTHER TEM). BUT THEY WERE MAKING ALOT, ALOT OF PENALTIES.....
AND THAT WAS WHY WE LOST.....
BUT I WAS ABLE TO GET VIDEO OF MY GIRLS.......
BEING THAT THE FIELD WAS WET.....
THEY PLAYED IN FRONT OF THE STANDS. SO, I WAS ABLE TO GET UP CLOSE, VERY UP CLOSE........
I WISH I KNEW HOW TO PUT VIDEO ON HERE. I WOULD LOVE TO SHOW IT......
DID GET SOME PICS.......
BUT THE NIGHT WAS TRYING BECAUSE OF MY KNEE......
SO, I SLEPT WELL.......

WELL, I BETTER GET READY FOR WORK.....
I WORK TODAY. BUT WILL BE OFF ON MONDAY, YAHOO........  I WILL GET CATCH UP WITH MY JOURNAL ALERTS.....

TILL NEXT TIME.....
 

OK, I AM AT WORK.....
IT IS SLOW SO I AM PUTTING A QUICK ENTRY......

I NEED TO WRITE THIS.....
I FELL DOWN AT SCHOOL......
I CAN'T BELIEVE IT. I WASN'T PAYING ATTENTION, MESSING WITH THE TAPE RECORDER.
AND DIDN'T REALIZE THAT THE SIDEWALK HAD A STEP TO STEP DOWN.
THEN, BOOM......
DOWN TO ONE KNEE......
TORN MY JEANS, MY FAVORITE ONES......
AND MY KNEE IS CUT.......
THE OTHER STUDENTS NEAR BY CAME OVER TO HELP ME. ONE EVEN ASKED IT I NEED A ICE PACK. THAT HE HAD A FIRST AID KIT. THAT WAS SO SWEET OF EVERYONE TO COME TO MY HELP.

BUT INSIDE I AM JUST LAUGHING......
I CAN'T BELIEVE I FELL THAT HARD. AND THE FIRST THING I THOUGHT WAS......
WHO SAW ME????? I TURN TO LOOK AROUND AND JUST SAT THERE......

OH, MY....... WHAT A DAY......
WELL, I BETTER GO......
TILL NEXT TIME....
BRINxxxxx :-)

THIS FIRST WEEK WAS BUSY.........

THE TRAFFIC AROUND CAMPUS IS SO CRAZY. I HAD HEARD ABOUT THE PARKING AT CAMPUS WAS LIKE THIS......
BUT IT IS SO BAD...... PLUS THEY ARE DOING CONSTRUCTION ON ONE OF THE BUILDINGS. AND THEY ARE TAKING PART OF THE PARKING AREA. WHICH MAKES IT ALITTLE HARD ON PARKING.......

I AM GETTING INTO THE HOMEWORK....
IT JUST TIME CONSUMING, BUT INFORMATIVE.

BUT LIFE IS JUST ROLLING ON.....
GLAD TO KEEP BUSY, BUT I AM TRIED.
OFF TO BED......

 BRIN