THE MAN I LOVE..........
FOR OVER 17 YEARS AND I SOME WAY, STILL DO.........
IS IN LOVE WITH SOMEONE ELSE........
REALIZING THAT......
AFTER EVERYTHING, I AM STILL DEALING WITH THIS.......
AND IN SOME WAYS, I AM TRYING TO LET GO.......
SAYING IT AND REALIZE IT, IN SOME WAYS BRINGS CLOSURE. BUT I AM CRYING MY EYES OUT.......
THE PAIN, THE HURT, THE LIES........
EVERYTHING THAT HAS HAPPEN DOESN'T MAKE IT EASIER.....
I GET ANGRY AND UPSET. AND IT WAS WAY TO DEAL WITH IT. BUT DOWN INSIDE, I FEEL LIKE DYING, SO WORTHLESS. LIKE WHAT IS WRONG WITH ME.....
AND I KNOW THAT IT NOT ME, HE JUST DOESN'T KNOW WHAT HE LEFT.......
I DEAL WITH IT ALL OF THE EMOTIONS.....
AND TONIGHT, ALL OF THEM......
I AM FEELING SO LONELY. AND I KNOW THAT IS WHY I AM FEELING ALL THESE EMOTIONS.......
TOMORROW WILL BRINGS OTHER DAY AND I WILL FEEL/MOVE ON WITH MY LIFE........
TILL NEXT TIME........
Saturday, September 3, 2005
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Brin, i UNDERSTAND THESE FEELINGS EXACTLY. I swear to do. THe man i loved wasnt my husband but he meant the WORLD to me. I have never gotten over the pain or the loss of him. I havent. Thats one reason i go on and on in my journal. Its been years too.....a song or a memory takes me right back to it all. I know these seem like empty words but you are beautiful and loving and after your divorce you will grow and change. YOU WILL. You will be able to look back on the long marriage and the memories and silently say a prayer but it wont hurt your soul. Your husband is a fool and i think his girlfriend will not end up being worth losing YOU over. I dont see happy times ahead for them. I can see him telling you years from now that he was wrong. I had it happen. The rift with your oldest will heal. She needs time and maturity. So much pain he has caused to you all. It makes me sick. I love you and think about you every single day. Try to stay strong!!
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Brin, Lisa jo is right. HE will regret this. You are a beautiful person, dont forget that. Its his loss. You will come out of this a different person. I promise.
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Sorry you feel lonely but just remember that B****** doesn't deserve you! D
ReplyDeleteBrin,
ReplyDeleteYou are a strong woman . . . look how FAR you've come. You are a good mother, a kind woman, and an attractive one. YOU WILL LOVE AGAIN . . . and I pray that next time it will be someone who truly deserves all you have to offer.
Cyndy
I'm so sorry that your having such a bad day! Hang in there girlfriend, better days are just around the corner. I promise! Rhonda
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