WHAT A WEEKEND..............................
I HAVE BEEN ATTRACTING JERKS. WHY IS IT THAT THERE ARE SOME MANY........ THE DREAM GUY NEVER CALLED; JERK. AND THIS WEEKEND, I DON'T WANT TO GO INTO WHAT HAPPEN BUT I JUST FEEL LIKE S**T.
TODAY WAS AN EMOTIONAL DAY FOR ME........
I MISSED MY KIDS SO MUCH..........
I WENT TO CHURCH TODAY. A FRIEND OF MINE THAT HAD MOVED AWAY WAS IN TOWN AND HER HUSBAND WAS GOING TO SPEAK AT THE CHURCH.
BACK IN 2002, THEIR SON HAD PASSED AWAY; A HUNTING ACCIDENT. I WANTED TO GO AND SEE MY FRIEND AND HEAR HIM SPEAK.......
WELL, NOT EVEN 5 MINUTES INTO HIS SPEECH. I WAS CRYING...... MY FRIEND, LIL WAS SITTING NEXT TO ME. I WHISPER TO HER THAT I HAD TO LEAVE. SO I QUIETLY GO UP AND LEFT......
HE WAS TALKING ABOUT LIVE LIFE NOW......
AND NOT TO WAIT FOR NEXT WEEK........
HE WAS GOING TO PLAY GOLF WITH HIS SON THE DAY BEFORE THE ACCIDENT HAPPENED, BUT WORK CALLED HIM AWAY. SO HE CALLED HIS SON THAT AFTERNOON TO LET HIM KNOW AND TO MAKE PLANS FOR NEXT WEEKEND. WELL, THE NEXT DAY, THEY WERE AT THE HUNTING LEASE AND THE ACCIDENT HAPPENED.......
THAT GOLF GAME NEVER HAPPENED......
LIVE FOR THE MOMENT.........
I AM MISSING MY OLDEST SO MUCH......
HER BIRTHDAY IS ON THE 23RD AND I DON'T THINK SHE IS WANTING TO SEE ME.....
SHE STILL DOESN'T WANT TO SEE ME NOW..... I CATCH GLIMPSES OF HER IN THE MORNING WHEN SHE PICKS UP HER SISTER FOR SCHOOL. BUT TO SPEND THE WEEKEND WITH US........
SHE WILL NOT.....
SHE IS GOING TO BE 17TH.
I CAN NOT BELIEVE THAT.....
HOW TIME FLYS...... SO LIVING FOR THE MOMENT WITH HER IS SO HARD.....
I WISH THINGS WERE DIFFERENT FOR US.......
I KNOW ONE DAY IT WILL...... I HAVE WRITTEN TO HER BUT SHE WILL NOT WRITE BACK TO ME. I PRAY THAT GOD WILL WATCH HER AND PROTECT HER.
WHY DOES LIFE HAVE TO BE SO SO..........
WELL, I BETTER GET TO BED.......
TILL NEXT TIME.....
Sunday, November 6, 2005
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Here's to wishing comfort for you, sounds like an emotional day.
ReplyDeleteLisa
Oh Brin....i know things HURT...i KNOW I KNOW....your oldest is a teen and selfish and at this time isnt able to see past her own hurt.....she has to have someone to blame and right now its you even if its not fair...someday she is going to look back on this and realize she gave away a year or two of time she cant get back and she will have to deal with it...i have been there and know...hold on sweet friend.....she will come back...she loves you so.....
ReplyDeleteyou are in my thoughts, love, lisa jo
Hey Brenda!
ReplyDeleteSorry you're having such a bad time right now.
With the jerks.
And with your oldest daughter.
Give her time. She will mature and realize that you are her Mother and she has to respect that.
She will come around.
Hang in there girlie:)
It will get better for you.
Huggs n love-
Niki
Its so hard with teen sometimes yes we never know when the last moment will be . but teens never look at life that way. andmen and jerk men talk about that one when you wish. Now you know I had a lady I once knew who she and her hubby had a fight that night they went to be not speaking. the next day she let him go out the door and they did not kiss goodbye as usual then he was hit and killed by a train that day. she said always make up. I was in my twenties when I heard that you know what????????? I have always remembered that. So this sermon you too will remember and use for the better. I pray your teen hears one like we have and wakes up.
ReplyDeleteOh Brin, Sorry about all this. Your daughter , the jerks, the speech at church . I hope this week is better for you.
ReplyDeleteEllen
my best to you Brin. judi
ReplyDeleteOHHHHHHHHHHh I hope that she comes around soon. So sorry to hear it is still going on. D
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