Well.......

I found out that 2 out 3 classes; I have made an "A."  
Tomorrow I will check into my last class.......

Yesterday, My son's daycare had a Christmas performance. It was so cute.......
I had other mother come up to me and tell me some surprising news.......
She said that my son came up to her, and he told her that her daughter was his girlfriend........ 
He is already starting....... 3 years old and has a girlfriend.  I wish I knew before hand so I could take a picture of her.......  She is so cute......  She had small ponytails on her hair, beautiful dress and white pantyhose with black shoes.  Just Darling.........
She said that she pointed 'My Son' out to her husband and told him. There is your future son-in-law......  I laugh now but time flys.......  I do not even what to thimk about that.......

Anyway I am still looking for work. This sucks.......
I feel like such a failure......  But I know that employers do not want to hire someone that in a few weeks is going back to school......  And all the holiday work is taken.... JUST MY LUCK..... but I am still searching....

the Trans Siberian Orchestra will be near me this weekend....  I wish I could go and see it......
I love to hear music like this......

Also, I was reading my divorce decree, and this year is my schedule time with the kids for the Christmas Holiday........  
'Ex' is not happy about it.... I really feel bad for him.....
But a few days ago, he was going on with his plans, when he though that he was spending Christmas with the kids....

So now that the decree has the schedule time for me to be with the kids this Christmas holiday.  He wants to see if I will work things out with him.......

So stick with the schedule on the decree or make arrangements???
I know I should be thinking about the kids.......
and I am....  I will make plans with him.

But I am so angry with everything has happen to this point.
I know that the kids are in the middle. I hate that this is our lives....  Kids in the middle; they want both of us, but we are in two different places.....  SUCKS......

I know with time things will get better. This is our first year, but I wonder what will happen next year when he has the schedule Christmas time with the kids. Will he be willing to work things out with me? 
When he thought he was going to have the kids. He never mention anything specific for me to spend time with the kids.
I would tell him to do what he wants that he has been doing that. Case in point; 2 weekends ago, he was 'NOT' available to pick up the kids. He kept saying, "Read your divorce decree, Brenda. Read your divorce decree." And he was reading the wrong divorce decree......
But it is all for himself.......  Was he thinking about the kids at that time.....  It was his schedule time with the kids and he decided to go out of town instead of being with his kids. (and this was not a business trip, it was for pleasure.)
In someways I did not want to get my hopes up and then he could destroy them. He has done that before......
I can not depend on him to keep his word...... because he has not kept it. I had to fight to get what he said he would do. So, in dealing with the kids. I have that on my mind.......  I can not depend on him....... SAD,HUH.....
and when he says he will. I worry till the last moment if he will come through with his word.......

Anyway, I am tried....... I hate dealing with all this..... But I know I have too......  This is my life.......

Till next time......