So I called..........

My EX last night. To check if he knew if the girls came over to the house and that is the reason for the lights. He said that he did not know, but he would talk to them.
I did talk to my realtor and asked him to check on the lockbox if any realtor were in the house with out me knowing about it.
You see the lockbox has a sensor that will email my realtor of which realtor came into the house, and what time they were and left. NICE, HUH...... Plus in the paperwork, I have it down that they are to call me before showing the house.
Well, he said that no one had come in that night.

Now, also I did not mention in my last entry was that the gate lock was mismatched. Yes, breaking and entering. I will be taking care of the lock today.
I did call Weldon, the cop, last night so someone could watch the house last night. He was working till 10. So he kept an eye around. I was not able to fix the lock last night because it became dark fast, but I will be taking care of it this afternoon. Plus Weldon and I talked. He asked me to lunch again. I will be having lunch with him on Wednesday. We have not been talking much, but he has been busy, and I have been busy. But then he has not tryed to call me between being busy. I guess will see what happens......

Well, I finally heard back from Manny, and he mention about my email.  He agreed that we should slow things down, but he told me something that I am getting red flags.... I will not go into them, but I know that he is not the one I want to be with. He needs some growing up to do. I still see him as a friend, and I hope with some talking and discussions, I could help him grow.
Time will tell.......

Well, I better go.....
Need to get some work done.....
    

 

 What a weekend........

I had a date with Manny on Friday night. Plus, my boss had a get together at a club. It was her birthday, and she had everyone come out and celebrate with her at the club. I meet some of her friends, and I just hanged out till I was with Manny. He worked late, so I did not see him till later that night. But we had a great time, even through I saw Thomas......
Thomas was other guy I was talking to online. I met him once and then one night he called me at 1:30 in the morning. He freak me out; I think he was drunk because he kept asking me questions about who I was talking to online and if I was meet up with them. So after that I cooled it off with him. But I was surprise that I saw him that night. Manny acted protective. He made sure that he knew where he was and watched out for me. MY HERO....NOT because he knew I could take care of myself....
But Manny and I hit a rock on Sunday. I had a part in it...
You see he invited me to go to the beach (South Texas, nice....) on Sunday. I told him that I would have my son. He told me to bring him out and he would act like a friend (no holding hands or kisses). I told him I would think about it. Well, Sunday morning I work on getting the Moving Sale ready. ALL MORNING...... So by the afternoon, I was ready for some relaxation. So I head for the beach. I did not know what part of the beach he was going to be at. OH, this was going to be with all his friends. They were going to BBQ and play horseshoe, and so forth. So, He had me talk to his friend to get directions. I found the place and saw his truck. But the beach was packed and my son fell asleep during the drive. And I could not see where Manny was. So I called Manny again. Well, he did not answer. I wait a couple of minute then I left. When he finally return my call which it was 25 minutes later. I was already at home. He knew I was pissed......
He just left me hanging there. I talked to him and told him that my son was asleep and I was nerve in meeting his friend. The beach was packed, and I wanted him to meet me at my car. He told me that he was sorry but then he told me that would of been to soon to meet my son. I told him yes it would be but I thought that things were going well with us. then he tells me it was his turn for the horseshoe and had to say 'Goodbye," and I said 'Goodbye.' Well, he has not called me back......
I emailed him this morning that I see that it would have been a mistake to have my son out there and for him to meet him. It was too soon.... but told him how it show how much I care for him but then he did not call me last night.... I told him that we needed some time.....

And now it is Monday afternoon, and he still has not called me back....  MEN......

Where will this go?????
Anyway, I was feeling really bad last night. I was talking to my friend Susan. And I told her that this will only make me strong. I have to go throught these lesson until I find my guy........

I hate this Date Game........

Beside all that, I am getting ready for the Moving Sale. The small leak was found, and it should not be that expensive to fix. The house inspection was good; nothing major wrong. So It looks like we will be closing at the end of the month, 27th......

OH... I came home Friday night, and I sensed that some one was in the house. My lamp in the living room was on.At night, I only turn on the kitchen light above the sink and the front door light plus the hall bathroom light. So the lamp being on, I sensed that someone was in the house. I checked all rooms and found thing else out of place. Except later that night, I was getting a glass of water, and when I turn to face the porch. I found the side porch light on. Now, this light switch is in the master bedroom and is never on. So I knew someone was in the house.
The only other person who has a key to the house is my baby girl, plus the lock box on the front door.

ok, I have to go. My boss is here...
I'll write tomorrow....

~~BRIN

A quick entry..........

need to get to class.

I turned off all my alerts because I had 60 alerts, and I am not able to be on the computer like I was able to at home. But once I do get my internet back online at the new apartment. I will catch up with everyone......

Oh, Yesterday I found an apartment that I love......

They have 6 swimming pools, tanning salon, 24 hour gym, washer/dryer connection in the apartment, gated and the best thing.....

There is a church day care across the street......
How wonderful is that....
I have not put an deposits down because I am waiting for the testing to be done......

But I hope that they will still have the spot for my son at the day care..... maybe I should just do it. So that way I have his spot.....  Decision, Decision.........

Well, I better go....

Till next time.....

 

WOW, How time flys and so many things happen.......

Yesterday, they did the termite inspection and the plumbing. The termite was good but the plumbing, they found a small leak. They will be coming back on Friday to do other test, but he said that it could be air pocket in the pipes. So cross your fingers that it is. Today they are doing the house inspection. I prayer that things are not major wrong....

I am still looking for an apartment. I will be seeing some today and still looking for day care.

Things with Manny have been very good. I have a lunch date with him today. But Sunday we got together, and I meet his father and sister. I joked with him that he was already introducing me to his family. He just looked at me like he is proud too..... His father and sister were nice. We all ended up going to eat and watch the football game. He really wants to spend time with me. And he is calling me everyday, sometime 2 or 3 times a day. I am nerves but he really is nice and understanding. He makes me feel comfortable with him, but I make myself feel scared......  I know that things will get better.

The Cable/internet is turn off at home. I am at school in one of the lab class typing this and class is about to start. I will have lab this afternoon, so I will not be at work.

I will get back here tomorrow at work.
Till then....
 

What a day........

Friday morning I signed the papers to put my house on the market. That afternoon, I was getting phone calls from Realtors to schedule viewings. I came home, and I got DJ's bag ready for the weekend. And as soon as I was alone. I was finish things inside of the house. My house looks so good. Well, by Saturday morning, I had 4 schedule viewing for my house....

Now, I did go out last night. Manny, the other guy I had been talking to asked to met him. I needed to get out. After the argument with the EX and all the cleaning. I need some fun time.....

Boy did I have some fun.......
We met at a dance club, country. And we danced the night away. I could not believe how well we danced. We had so much fun. His friends that near by him were also there. Which was nice, I was not really alone with him. But we clicked so well. We talk like we have been friends forever. He kept telling me that I was so beautiful. He could not believe that my EX left me. But I could tell that we had chemistry. We danced till 2 a.m., after that I was hungry so we went to get a bit to eat(NO, Andrew, not that kind of bite) hahaha...... He order a grande breakfast taco and chocolate chip Belgian waffles. And We shared our meal. We acted like we had been dating for long time and it was our first date.....  OH MY....
It was a good date. He called me today.

OH, another major decision was made last night.......

I do know if I mention that the community college I go to. Is in the next town to where I live. Well, this semester they double the fees for out-of-district. I was pissed. That was the reason why I had to drop English.
Well, last night I was talking to my friend Susan, and I have decided to move to this town. I guess I could say the names now. I live in Portland, Texas and the community college is in Corpus Christi, Texas.
So I will be moving to Corpus...... It is a big city. That is where we go for clubbing or dancing, so forth.....

Well, back to the buyers, I was out of the house by 12:30 p.m., the first schedule.The second was at 1, and the 3rd was 1:30 to 2:00, and the last one was at 2:15 to 2:30. All back to back.

Well, by 1:30, my realtor called me to tell me that we have 2 contracts coming in (the 12:30 and 1) then at 2, he called and said we have a 3 contracts coming in then at 3, he called and said we have 4 contracts coming in.......

 Can you believe that......

What a day....... Well as of right now, we have 3 counter offers because my realtor work his magic. And the bid war began...... So right now, I have one offer that is 5,000.00 more than my asking price..... and the second and third are 4,000.00 more. I do have to look at the types of loans they have, but I am going to meet up with my realtor tomorrow morning.

So, It looks like my house could be sold in least than 30 days (knock on wood).........  I am so happy........

Now, for the bad news.......

The cable and internet will be shut off on Monday.......
So, I will only be able to get online at work, but I received an email from AOL. About this account is at risk of being cancelled......

You see, my EX is paying for this account. He is starting to feel the money crunch. So it looks like I will be losing AOL completely. Until I am able to afford it.

My Journal and My Online Friends......

What will I do until I am back on line......

While the buyers were look at the house, I was in Corpus looking for an apartment. I was looking for this company that looks for apartment for you. They had went out of business but I did see an apartment. The living room is so small. I know I have to get use to apartment living.. That is going to suck. I wonder how my son is going to feel. And How he is going to feel abouta new day care.....

I know one step at a time.....  but the girl who showed me the apartment told me of other company that will look for apartment for me. So I saw them, and I will be going on Wednesday to look at some.

Well, I better go....

I am going to see what research I could do online for an apartment and day care.....

Till next time.....

 

I have to explain...............

I wrote about the boyfriend's car parked at my home.
I have to mention that this car was not Weldon's car.
The car belong to other friend of mine.
I see this friend once in a while. He and I understand that our relationship is nothing more than friendship. I feel like I need to explain myself.

I am doing this dating thing, and this time around. I am going to experiment. Weldon is my first white guy that I have ever dated. He was very nice and handsome. I just wonder about the differences. What I mean: They way I was raised compare to how he was raised. Makes the person. Does that make sense?

Well, this time around I am going to do it different.....

I have to go now....

Till next time.....

 

OK.......

Sorry I have been busy with so much....
And today was not a good day.

Now, The date was great.......

He was a true gentlemen. He opened the door for me and pulled my chair. He was a sweetheart. He has beautiful hazel eyes and this wonderful smile. He was nerve because he said that he felt under dress compared to me. I told him that he looked nice. He was casual. I was wearing black jeans and a pretty top with heels. So I was not dressed up to much.... but I wanted to wear my favorite blouse. He was in a polo shirt and blue jeans. So I could see why he felt that way, but I tried to put him at ease. We ate lunch and then when for a walk by the water. It was a beautiful day for a walk. He did tell me that he had a great time and wanted to see me again.

Now, I was getting worried yesterday night because he did not call me till 8:30 pm. I was starting to think that maybe he did not like me. I can not really put my finger or explain why, but something is there. I guess what I feel is that he is holding back. Not to sure of what.....

But we will see what happens......

Now, tonight..... and I will explain everything.

My EX came over because of it his visitation with his son. Well when he dropped him off. He told me that the paperwork for the child support has not gone through, and he was going to give me a check for the child support. Like last month, I signed a paper saying that the check was for the child support. The different for this month was that he was only paying for one child because Sabrina has moved in with him. The child support for 1 child will not pay the mortgage, so I pleaded with him to keep the amount the same till I could sell the house, and I would pay him back once the house sold. He said that since he has other mouth to feed, and he has bills to pay. He could not help me. I pleaded and pleaded. I told him this was his doing and I needed help. He turned it on me and told me that it was all my doing. I made him leave me, and Brenda Lee left me, and now Sabrina has left me. He said, 'Do you not see a pattern. He point to DJ and said that if he was able to choose that he would choose to move in with dad. I was pissed. I told him that he was the one who had the affair and left and divorce me, but no he kept saying it was my doing. He even said that Brenda Lee passed by the house last night and saw my boyfriends car parked near the house. I told him that I was able to move on. At least I am divorce and moving on. Then I told him that he is being with a girl who is not even divorce and has them around my girl. What moral value are you teaching them. He said that they (the girls) like her.  He was being a big time jerk. I then told him that he should talk with Brenda Lee if she was having sex. Then I told him while I was walking back into the house that he should put Brenda Lee on the pill.....  I should have not said that. But I was angry....

Now, I am going to put the house on the market tomorrow.....

Well, I need to get to sleep....

Till next time.....
 

The first day of school was bad..............

I will find out today if one of my class will be cancelled due to not enough students register for the class. But I am worry because I have to add other class because of my pell grant. I am planning on add my English class if this class falls though.

Plus I woke up yesterday morning with a head cold.....UGH.......
I am not running fever or aches, but my nose will not stop running.....

Today is the day.....
I have my lunch date with Weldon. He and I have been talking every night since he gave me his number.  I hope this goes well..... I am excited to see him. I hope the best for us. If not, I think we will be good friends.
There is other guy from the online dating site that I have been talking to him.  I not to sure about him.  Can't really put my finger as to why. Anyway I am going to take this one at a time.....

I am still trying to get the house ready for the sell....
Man, there is a lot to do.....

Well, I better finish getting ready for school.....
Till next time.....
   

I want to say that there is two persons that knows what I am going through......

Thank You, Kendra Motomom <-- Her link to her journal.

She sent me some emails that hit the spot. In a lot of way, She went through what I am going through......

KENDRA FOR EVERYTHING.....

YOU ARE A SWEETHEART.

MY MOTHER..... She has gone through this......
I put my mother through a lot.....
I am so sorry Mother. You say that I was not bad, but I remember something. And Yes, I am SORRY.....I am sorry about everything. I believe what comes around, goes around....  And Now it is my turn with Brenda Lee.

Well, I need to get ready for school.....

Till next time....

 

School starts for me tomorrow......

Back to the books... I can not believe that I will be trying to sell my house while I am in school, but I have too......
also... after the house is sold, the moving... 

oh by the way, my EX told me yesterday that when I need help to move to call on him. He would help out...  Yesterday, We moved out my baby girl (Sabrina) stuff to dad's apartment. Her room is empty now.... SAD. Only a BED for her to sleep on visitations....

Well, this weekend we had an argument, and I had one with Brenda Lee too.... So My weekend was not great except I did have phone conversation with Weldon..... (the online date, My Wednesday lunch date). Sabrina was twisting my words. She even said something that Brenda Lee would have said. So, Brenda Lee is influencing her, and Now Sabrina is treating me like Brenda Lee would. Now, Brenda Lee came knocking and ringing the doorbell on Saturday night at 9:30 at night. She was knocking hard, and I had my son (DJ) asleep......  She needed to go to bathroom, and I was the closes house she knew to go. I got after her.... and she told me that she would never brother me again and tried to leave. I stopped her and had a talk with her. But she told me that she did not need to tell me anything. That dad knew where she was, and I could tell her anything then left.... I tried to stop her and talk to her again. I had retainers in my mouth that I sleep with and was not able to call her. She told me when I learn her name will I be able to talk to her. And she left..... I was left standing at the sidewalk dumb stucked....
I had talk to the EX yesterday about that, and he said that he did not like how she treated me. She had no right to talk to me that way and that he was going to talk to her....  At least he sees how the girls are treating me....
I did also ask him about Brenda Lee reading my email. He said that she read and deleted the email. He asked her about it, And she said that it was the same old things....
I copy and pasted the email and send it to him, so he could see what I wrote to her. I told him that she is to angry and will not see it different.
The more I try, the more I push her away.....
I guess no one will understand..
I do because I did the something to my mother.... 
I told the EX that, and he asked what happen to me. I told him that I turned to him..... and he said Brenda Lee has Tim now... So we will see what happens. This is her life and she is in control of it... What ever happens to it....

THIS  IS HARD.... I just want to shake her out of this...

Well, till next time.....

 

Yesterday was my mother's birthday......
HAPPY BIRTHDAY MOTHER......

I meet up with her for lunch, and My friend Thelma. Last year, Thelma and I had lunch with her for her birthday. My mother joked how this could be a tradition....  I hope so. We had planned on going up north to visit my grandmother, her mother, but the plans fell apart. I was excited about the trip. We were going to do a road trip, but it did not happen. But we did talk about go on spring break. So we will see how the plans come out.....
It was a nice lunch......



So This online dating thing.......
There is this guy that we have been emailing back and forth. I knew he looked familiar, but I could not place him.
Well, Yesterday he emailed me that his subscription was going to expire and gave me his work email to keep in touch with him. Which gave him away, he is a police officer..... and in my town. That is why he looked familiar. I have seen him around and he has friends that are my friends. Strange that we had not met. I had emailed him about this. Well, today he emailed me with his phone number.
Now being that I kind of knew him and I had talk to my friends, the ones who know him, about him.
I felt comfortable to call him. I usually will not call a guy. My rule is: If he is interest in me, he will call me.
But I called him. We talked and talked for about a hour and half. By the end of the conversation, we set a lunch date for Wednesday. Why Wednesday because of his cop schedule and my school/work schedule....
Oh My Gosh.... A LUNCH DATE......
What do I talk about? What will I wear?
What will he think of me when he finally sees me?
What will I think of him when I finally see him?
A picture is worth a thousand words, but up close and in person is so different than a picture.......
From what my friends tell me about him is all good. He is very nice and a wonderful dad. He has 2 girls. He is very easy to talk to. Which yes, that is why we talked for a hour and half. All good stuff about him. So Why am I worried......
He is not so much like a stranger. My friends know him and I have seen him around.
Now, He said that he vaguely remembers me, maybe that is why I am nervous......

Well, I am going to be thinking about this till Wednesday...

Till next time.....
 

Ok, quick entry because I need to finish getting ready for work......

I remember something that I did not write last night.... 
The EX told me the boyfriend is from a single household and a only child. He told me that he is talking to my oldest (I could say names now) Brenda Lee that she should talk to me and work things out.  Being that his mother and him has gone through what we are going through he is talk to her about it......  God works in mysteries ways...... and thing happen for a reason. I so believe that.....

Now, this morning I recieved an email from someone on the online......

I would have thought nothing about it.... but he is from NY.......

Here is the email......

Hello Angel
How are you doing this lovely day? I hope all is well with you.. I want to call you angel but I know your name might not be angel but I choose to call you that cos you look more like one.. Well I am new to this online dating stuff and new to this dating sites as this is the first I am joining... I came across this awesome profile of yours that caught my eyes in a big way and I said I must say Hi to this lovely angel even if she doesnt reply back at my message, But I will be happy if the angel reply back at me so I can get to know more about her.... I am thomas by name and my email address is charmwhitex at yaho com and I do yahoo IM too though.I know there is a huge distance between us but I know that if two are distined to be together no matter the distance, there will surely be....Just a chance to get to know more about each other.I want a chance to get to know more about you..I believe a chance will be ok.I am ready to get down if things will workout for us. I am looking forward to hearing from you soon angel...see my profile and if you are interested, get back at me.

With love from Thomas

So Tell me what you all think.....

Till next time.....

 

My baby girl called me tonight......

She had a band competition and made 6th chair. She called me to tell me the good news........  So Happy for her.....

I also told the EX that I was selling the house. Today was visitation with his son. So I had been think about it and wanted to tell him. To get over the shock.......

But he asked where I was moving... I first told him that was none of his business. But he told yes it is because of the kids.... So I told him I did not know; still looking into it.... He asked if I was think about move to the town next to us. I told him that I anything was up in the air... I am looking at all possibility. That I was tried of his girlfriend being around.... He told yes that I am see her and show her the bird.... I said 'What' and he said yes, did you not see her this morning and throw her the finger....

I did not..... I just laughed.... She thinks that.....

She must of run to him..... "Oh, I saw your EX and She showed me the bird..." OH MY......

But I left him hanging....  He brought this on me.... and He could just think about why.....

Now to change the subject........

Andrew has talked about online dating.....

Well, I am doing the same thing.... I have met a few men.... But I am not having luck on this.....

Now, Today I did get a wink from this guy that I have seen around town. I do not know what to think of him, but I heard good things about him....

I have met a guy name Thomas. Now, He is starting to make me uncomfortable.....  He called me last night at 1:30 am. I was not happy and could not sleep after he called.  He has beenout-of-state for work, but he made me feel like he is being a little possess. I am starting to let go od him... Talk to him less.....

This online dating is scary... I am trying to be careful, but I have net some nice guys..... some that nothing happens. There loss....

I am still scaried that my EX is reading my journal.....
I know he is not but I still wonder. He is still under my skin. I can not believe I am acting this way. I want to talk more freely but scaried. I know I should not, but I do.....

 

Well, Till next time.....

 

 

I have been so busy..................
Sorry Cherry, I know you tagged me, but I just do not have the time.... Maybe this weekend....

Now, that I plan on selling my house. I have been busy getting it ready and started packing.
Spring Cleaning has come early for me.......

But life is moves on even if you have other plans. On Tuesday, I waited in line for almost 3 hours at campus because I need to sign up for my English class. Well, Yesterday I found out that the cost of all the class I wanted to take would have taken all my pell grant and student loan, plus I would have to pay.  So I dropped my English class. I stood in line for nothing...... UGH....

My Ex emailed me again on Monday afternoon to inform me that my baby girl was not feeling good and she stayed home from school, plus that my oldest has a boyfriend who turned 20 that day.

So I emailed my girls......

My baby girl did read her email, but my oldest as of this morning. She still has not read her email. I want to included the email. Tell me what you all think about it:

 

  I do not even know if you will read this email..... But I write....   Dad just emailed me that you have a new boyfriend. He just turned 20.  First, You are a beautiful, smart, wonderful girl. You are my daughter. I wish only the best for you.  I hope that you have more good days than bad. But I know that it can not always be good.  I hope he treats you right and respect you.  I hope you are making good decisions.  I do worry about you everyday.  I worry about all of you.....  I miss you all.  I will always be here if you need me.....   Be careful and take care of yourself......     Well, I better get ready for work......
Till next time......
 

What a weekend..................

I went out Friday and Saturday night. Which I am glad. I needed that.... After everything that had happen....
I missed my baby girl and my son....

But I also was making some hard decisions.....
I have decided to sell my house.....
I have been going over the pros and cons, but I do believe this is the right move for me.....
I am starting to prepare the house for the sell and I started to look for an apartment.
I found this lovely apartment.... Beautiful.. They are brand new, they just finish the first sections. I fell in love with it.....
The one thing that I love so much is that they are gated. You need a code or key card to get in......
So the EX will not be able to do any drive bys.....
NICE, HUH........
But it has a huge swimming pool, hot tub, 24 hour exercise room and a party room. Plus the membership for the country club (which is near by) will be included. That is nice......
A whole new life for me and my son......
Now, first I need to sell my house....
Anyone interested? Just kidding,hahahaha........

I had a talk with my baby girl today. She told me that she wants to stay with her dad, which I knew that is why I decided to sell the house....
It was hard, but I told her that I wanted her to be happy. I was sorry that she is not going to be here with us. But I wanted her to be where she will be happy and smiling. She did tell me that she wants to do the visitations. She was not going to be like her oldest (She still does not want to see me.) But I did find out that my oldest has a college boyfriend today...... Mind you all she is a junior in high school....
So this is how my EX is raising them..... I believe he know about it because he told me about this guy who called her on New Year Eve. But was going to party with his friends.... My EX told me that he try to talk to her to let her know that he might not be into her because he did not want to spend the time with her, in stead he went with his friends....  I just do not get it.... Anyway she is not my problem. She does not want me and my EX is taking care of her... It is his problem.... SAD.....
When we were married. He was more strict, now he is not.... Wonder why.....
He emailed me today......
Which I did not respond. He told me he was not going to help me out anymore because I did not help him out today. Which I was not surprise. And just went on and on and on.....
But I did notice that some words he was using are words that he never used before.... So I believe that the girlfriend is influence him. I could see it now... How he has lost it..... He can not think for himself.... Stupid...
He also told me that he will not be paying for the cable/internet anymore for me. He was paying for it because my baby girl was here and he wanted it for her. Which I am not surprise that he was going to do that.....
But he wanted to rub it in my face because I did not help him out.... Whatever, huh......
So I will not be able to do an entry. Only at work when I can..... I will have to check on the date that my cable/internet is paid up till. Then things will change until I am able to offer it.....
More changes..... My life is a roller coaster ride....
What fun.......

Well, I am sleep... Need some shut eye....
I know there is more to be said... But...
Till next time......
 

                       I am missing my baby girl......

                                 It has been hard. I am feeling low, but I know it had to come to this.....
                      I call her cell yesterday and left a voicemail. 
                      But she did not return the call.
                      Which I did not except.
                      I did talk to the EX yesterday.
                      And he said that she was smiling and happy.
                      I told him that was good, but I was hurt.
                      He said also that she said living here was boring.
                      I do not know if he said that to get to me.
                      But I told him that she would lock herself in her room....
                      I try to get her to come out and be with us (my son and I).
                      This is too much.......
                      Something is always happening to me......
                      I am trying not to left this get me down....
                      I need to move on.......

                      Well, I am not up to writing much.....
                      I am tried. I am going to sleep........
                      Till next time.
                       

I have gone private........

I had a talk with my baby girl. She basically had a problem with; staying out late, drinking, and asking her to babysit the little one....
she put it that she is not allowed to stay out late then I should not. She does not even go out to parties, why should the mother go out. I should not be drink because it is not good for you. What example am I showing her.
Well, I told her that I will not ask her to sit for the little one anymore. And I am a grow up who can stay out late, She is a young teenager. She has gone to party, but she chose not to go to all of them. Her chose.....
As for the drinking, I told her that I only drink 2 drinks. I know my limit and I will not put myself in danger....
I have kids that need me and I want to be here for my kids....... Plus it not illegal to drink, I am able to drink because I am older than 21.

She then said that she had to decide where she wanted to live....  (Dads doing...He planted the seed.) She wants to live with both of us. But she understood that can not happen. She was frustrated with make a decision.... She was in tears... I told her that she needs to accept the situation and make a decision....  That how it is....
We are divorce and she can not have both.... I told her that she needs to see someone because she is have a hard time with all this.... She is not talking to anyone and she needs to....  She admitted that she does not want to talk to anyone... but I told her she needs to talk. Everyone is worry about her and she needs to get it out.....
But she would not listen she ran to her room....
Then she called dad.....

That when I became upset....
She runs to dad when things are bad. Here I am trying to get her to talk to me... Plus I believe this is her game....
When she wants dad. She calls and he comes running.....
I told dad to wait at the door. and I told her.... NO, this is not how it will go... Go back and forth, back and forth......You need to make a decision of what you want to do... So, She said she wanted to live with dad....
So I told her to pack her bags for the week. And this weekend she will move her things to dad apartment.....

I will not play this game.....
She needs to accept that she is a divorce kids. and She can not have it like it was.....
You see.... She has been living this way for about 1 year already.... Now, that I am active dating..... She is acting this way.....

Why is it so hard for single mothers......
The dad has a girlfriend, No problems there. They like her..... They do things like a family... On goes his life....
Now, When the mother goes out.......
The kids are upside down about everything.....
We worry about them.... and try to keep it from them....
I was talk to my boss and she has a friend who has been divorce for about 5 years...  My boss received an email from her explain how she had a bo over at night. When she thought that her kids were asleep. Well, the kids walked in the living room and saw her.... She was worried about the kids.... The mother in us, but we are still human. We have needs and wants.... My boss told me that our kids see us like a nun's life......
Little do they know, huh......

Well, I am tried I am going to bed.....
Till next time.......
 

        


      JUST KIDDING.......


Last night was wild.....

I lived it up..... I danced and meet new people, and I spent it with my friends.......
My friend susan, Leslie and Her Bo Kenny, and Monte and Kristi, and I met Steve......
And yes, He kissed me at midnight....... It was a small kiss because of the new year....
But we had a blast....

I hope everyone else has a good time.... Can't wait to read......

I also added some pictures of Christmas....
How do you like the little man's new car......
He looks very good in it, Doesn't he??????

Well....
Till next time.....