I finally closed on my house............................

   

NOW TO GO SHOPPING........

I am going to have some fun and some decisions to make....... 
I am looking at the bright side of things.....  because I was sad about my house......  I know that one day I will get back into a house. One that I could say that I am buying. I will do it.......  One of my goals for the future...... One step at a time..... HUH.......
I did decide that I will be getting my butterfly tattoo.....
Maybe this weekend......

Weldon just called me......  He is heading for work.  I worry about him. Being a cop is a dangerous job, but he works in a small town, somewhat........ I am happy that he called me....  I sometimes feel like he is not into me because I am the one calling him.  So somedays, I do not call him and wait till he calls me.....  I just hate the waiting....  I know I am impatient...... But he did call..... I happy now...... hahaha.......

I am so tried......  I am going to keep this short. I am hoping that this weekend; I could get online and catch up on some journals......
Right now, I want to heading for a bubble bath.......
then bed......

Till next time.......
 

OK, Quick entry..........................

Today was not a good day.  Closing did not happen because of the underwriters.  This sucks.  I just hope tomorrow will be good.......  That we close..............

As for my story about the first day in my apartment...............
I was so tried that I fell asleep at 10 pm, that is early for me.  Well, the whole night was good; I sleep until the yelling at 6 am.........  Yep, downstairs I could hear her yell, "Get the F**k out of my apartment......"  Now, I wonder what could have happen at 6 am for her to be yelling "Get the f**k out of my apartment."  Who knows.......  I kept thinking that I could of slept other hour before I was rudely awaken..................

Apartment living, huh.................................

Well, last night Weldon came over to the apartment...............

We had a great time.  I am having so much fun with him........ hehehe....... Sorry guys....
I just have to let some one know...... 

Anyway, I am so tried.  I am still trying to clear the boxes in my living room, so I could go shopping and dress up my apartment.  Can't wait.........

I did feel strange today.  I came home to my apartment and felt sad.......  I know this is a good change for me, but I was sad because no one was coming home.  It will just be DJ and I in this apartment.  I was cooking dinner for us and no one else. I miss the family life.  My girls and in someways how my husband now my ex would be home soon......  Now, time has changed......  It is just DJ and I.........  All this is hitting me......

A New Life.........

Well.....
Till next time.......

 

 

 

I love this song.............................

The first line which I live by now.....  "Who's to say what's impossible?"

and his other cd, "In between dreams" is a wonderful cd.............

I took my son and baby girl to watch Curious George the other day.  My son loved it.....  I need to get him some Curious George Books.......

Well, what else has been going on......  I have been moving.  I still need to finish with the house; cleaning....... everything else is out but that is what I will be doing today.......
I woke up yesterday with a sinus headache the worse.....  And then I had to deal with the EX.  Yesterday I asked him to help me with the above ground pool.  I was taking it apart to move to my mothers' house. 
All though the moving and packing; everything......  I have taken care of things for myself.  He had ask if I need help with moving to ask him.  Well, yesterday being that I was feeling sick. I asked him to help with the swimming pool.  He said he would........
When he came over he told me; "Don't expect that every time I ask for help that he would be there. That this was disrespectful to Katy. " I told him that if he she has a problem with this that he has to deal with it. he said that she did not that he felt that way. I told him that he is the one with the problem and that he could leave. I turn around and left him standing there.......... 

Boy.... was I pissed........   I have never asked him for anything else and the one time I did. He acts this way........  I wanted to throw him out but I knew I need his help with the pool and how I was feeling I would not been able to take it apart........... 
My EX is a big ASS.............

Now, let's turn the table.................................

Weldon.......  Oh my..........  He is so wonderful...........

He called me Friday afternoon to go out for dinner.......  I told him I would love to, but I had my son this weekend.  He says, "That's o.k."  So we made our plans.......
Well, I really wanted to be alone with him, so I found a baby sitter at the last minute.
Well, when Weldon was heading my direction.  I found out that he has his baby girl with him.  He wanted to do a family thing which I did not know.  He decide to do this after we had talked. I was put on the spot.  I told him that he change the plans with out telling me about it; even his daughter agreed.  She is 12 years old....  She was nice, cute girl.  I was so nerve.  I have never done that; meet the other kids.  But I guess this will be my life now, huh........  Meeting kids......  They also came over to my apartment.....  oh my. I still have boxes all around, but they like the place. My friend Thelma came over yesterday, and she liked the place too......  I need to take some pictures.......

I will try some time this week......  I feel so sick.......  I hope I could finish this week. Plus my living room is empty which is good because that is where all the boxes are at.  But I hope I could make some time to go and shop for my living room set this week.  I need too........

Well, I need to get some sleep.......

I will write more later today..........

I am glad to be back....  OH I have to tell you all about my first night in the apartment.....  but I will save that for later.....

 

I am back online.......

Will write later tonight.......

WHAT A WEEKEND........

THE PARTY WAS GREATTTTTTT..........

WELL, LET ME START WITH FRIDAY......
MY FRIEND LESLIE CALLED ME AND INVITED ME TO GO OUT AND HAVE A DRINK WITH HER AND HER FRIENDS.  WELDON WAS OUT OF TOWN, AND MY SON WAS WITH HIS DAD.  HIS WEEKEND, SO I MET UP WITH HER AROUND 9PM.  WELL, I WAS GETTING MY FIRST DRINK AND MY CELL PHONE RANG......  GUESS WHO IT WAS?????

IT WAS WELDON CALLING.  HE COULD HEAR THE MUSIC IN THE BACKGROUND.
I TOLD HIM WHERE I WAS.  HE ASKED WHY I WAS THERE. I TOLD HIM I WAS HAVING A DRINK WITH MY FRIEND LESLIE AND HER FRIENDS.  HE ACCUSED ME OF BEING THERE TO BE PICKED UP.  I TOLD HIM THAT I WAS ALONE AT THE HOUSE, MY SON IS WITH THE EX, HE WAS OUT OF TOWN AND I RATHER HAVE BEEN WITH HIM, BUT........  
SO MY FRIEND CALLED AND I LEFT TO GET A DRINK AND VISIT.......
WELL I THINK THAT PUT HIM ON HIS TOES BECAUSE HE CALLED ME ON SAT AND SUN; AND ON SUNDAY WE MADE PLANS TO GET TOGETHER.......  AFTER BEING GONE ALL WEEKEND, HE STILL WANTED TO COME OVER AND BE WITH ME......... I WILL GET BACK TO OUR GET TOGETHER IN ONE MOMENT, I WANT TO TELL YOU ALL ABOUT MY PARTY.......



I COOKED UP A STORM ON SAT.............
FOR APPETIZERS, I MADE DEVIL EGGS AND JALAPANOS WITH CREAM CHEESE WRAPPED WITH BACON......  THAT WAS ONE HOT APPETIZER.....  BUT GOOD IF YOU LIKE HOT STUFF... HAHAHA.......
FOR THE MAIN COURSE, I MADE KING RANCH CHICKEN CASSEROLE AND SPINASH SALAD PLUS A SIDE SALAD WITH RANCH DRESSING, FOR THOSE WHO DID NOT WANT THE SPINASH SALAD AND MINI LOAF CORNBREAD MUFFINS.
FOR DESSERT, I MADE BROWNIES, FUDGE CHOCOLATE CAKE WITH CHOCOLATE FROSTING. PLUS I BROUGHT OUT MY FONDUE AND MELTED CHOCOLATE, AND I CUT UP STRAWBERRIES, PINEAPPLE, BANANAS, AND ANGEL FOOD CAKE........

IT WAS ALL GOOOOOOD.....  I HAVE PICTURES THAT I WILL POST THIS WEEKEND......  WHEN I HAVE MY INTERNET.......

 IT IS ALMOST TIME FOR ME TO MOVE........
 

BUT I NEED TO FINISHING PACKING....... PLUS I HAVE A TEST ON WEDNESDAY WHICH SOME OF THE STUFF IS REVIEW FOR ME, BUT I WILL BE STUDYING ON TUESDAY NIGHT.......  AND I HAVE 7 PROJECTS THAT IS DUE ON THURSDAY, BUT I HAVE 6 PROJECTS READY.  WE WILL GO OVER THE LAST PROJECT TOMORROW IN CLASS.  SO I AM PLANNING ON FINISHING THAT IN CLASS; I HOPE...... REGARDLESS.........  I WILL HAVE TO DO IT. IF NOT, I WILL NOT BE ABLE TO SLEEP....... WHICH I AM NOT GETTING MUCH OF THESE DAYS ANYWAY......

WELL BACK TO MY PARTY.........
I HAD 7 OF MY FRIENDS OVER..... AND ONE OF THEM LEFT UPSET...... I'll EXPLAIN......... BUT BESIDE THAT,  EVERYONE HAD A GREAT TIME.... I DID TOO....  AT ONE POINT I CALLED MY MINI LOAF CORNBREAD MUFFINS; MINI LOVE CORNBREAD MUFFINS......... HAHAHA.......
I HAD TO MUCH TO DRINK........

WELL, TO MY FRIEND LESLIE WHO LEFT UPSET.......
LESLIE, SUSAN K. AND I HAVE GONE OUT. I MEET LESLIE THOUGH SUSAN.  WELL, LESLIE BOYFRIEND KENNY, SUSAN AND I AND LESLE WENT OUT BACK IN DECEMBER.  I DID NOT REMEMBER THE TIME BUT KENNY HIT ON SUSAN.  NOT IN FRONT OF SUSAN. HE WAS DRINKING AND JUST EXCUSED TO THAT. WELL THE DAY AFTER, HE WENT OVER TO SUSAN'S PLACE!  WHEN THAT HAPPEN SHE CALLED ME AFTERWARDS, AND I REMEMBER THAT DAY BECAUSE MY OTHER FRIEND SUSAN J. WAS WITH ME. WELL, SUSAN DEBATED ABOUT TELL LESLIE ABOUT THIS.  SHE DID NOT BUT STILL FELT THAT SHE SHOULD.  SO SUSAN AVOID LESLIE........
NOW....
THE PARTY WAS THE FIRST TIME THAT LESLIE AND SUSAN WERE TOGETHER SINCE THE KENNY THING.......
WELL LESLIE KEPT TALKING ABOUT HER BOYFRIEND AND HOW HE IS AND THIS AND THAT ABOUT HIM.  SUSAN FELT BAD THAT SHE WAS SO BLINDED ABOUT HIM,  AND WHEN THEY WERE ALONE IN THE KITCHEN.  SHE TOLD HER........
WHICH LESLIE, AT FIRST, DID NOT BELIEVED HER.  WELL, SHE TOLD HER SOME DETAILS ABOUT WHAT HAPPEN, BUT SHE STILL DID NOT BELIEVED HER.  IN SOME WAYS SHE DID, BUT DID NOT WANT TO DEAL WITH IT........
SHE FELT BAD AND LEFT.... AND SUSAN FELT BAD EVEN SAYING ANYTHING BECAUSE SHE DID NOT BELIEVE HER.  NOW SUSAN HAD TO MUCH TO DRINK, SO THAT IS WHY SHE DID WHAT SHE DID........  BUT SHE SHOULD HAVE NOT DONE THAT AT THEPARTY.......  BEING THAT HAPPENED IN DECEMBER, I THOUGHT THAT SUSAN HAD DECIDED NOT TO TELL HER AT ALL.......  BACK WHEN IT DID HAPPEN I TOLD HER SHE NEEDED TO TELL HER, BUT SHE COULD NOT......  SO NOW THAT SHE WAS DRINKING AND HEARING LESLIE GO ON AND ON ABOUT KENNY......  SHE BIT THE BULLET AND TOLD HER.....  AND NOW LESLIE IS UPSET.......  I DID CHECK ON HER, AND SHE IS STILL DEALING WITH IT.....  SHE IS A STRONG LADY AND WILL OVERCOME THIS.  I JUST HATE THAT IT IS AFFECTING 2 OF MY FRIENDS.......  SUSAN FELTS BAD AFTER EVERYTHING WAS SAID AND DONE......  AND HOW SHE DID IT (THAT SHE WAS DRUNK)...... SHE SEES HOW IT WAS WRONG TO SAY IT AT THE PARTY..... 
I NEED TO CHECK ON LESLIE TONIGHT.....  I HOPE SHE IS DONE BETTER........  MEN........

SPEAKING OF MEN......

I DID TALK TO WELDON THAT NIGHT.......  LIKE I SAID HE CALLED ME ALL WEEKEND, HE MISSED ME.......



NOW, OUR GET TOGETHER, I RENTED THE 40 YEAR OLD VIRGIN, AND I LAUGHED AND LAUGHED. 
SO I WANTED TO WATCH IT WITH WELDON.  WE WATCHED AND HE LAUGHED AND LAUGHED.  THAT MOVIE IS GOOD......  IF YOU HAVE NOT SEEN IT; GO RENTED; IT IS GOOD.... BUT NO KIDS.....
IT WAS NICE BEING WITH WELDON.  HE IS SO SWEET.  HE RUBBED MY BACK AND MY ARM WHILE HE HUGGED ME.  WHICH FELT NICE......  HEHEHE.....
AND HIS KISSES; TO FEEL HIS LIPS ON MINE, SO GOOD...... EVEN HIS FRENCH KISSES ARE
CAN YOU TELL THAT THINGS WERE GETTING HOT AND HEAVY......
WELL THEY DID...... HEHEHE........
LETS JUST SAY THAT WELDON DID NOT LEAVE TILL 2 AM........  HEHEHE.......



IT WAS SO WONDERFUL AND BEAUTIFUL.............. I AM BLUSHING NOW...... HEHEHE....... BUT WITH A BIG SMILE...........
OK, ENOUGH INFO..... BUT I AM SO HAPPY......
HE IS A SWEET AND WONDERFUL GUY......  HE MAKES ME HAPPY. HE MAKES ME FEEL GOOD. I AM FEELING SO LOVED.  COULD IT BE TOO SOON????? I GUESS NOT BEING THAT WE HAVE SHARED A CLOSE AND INTENSITY NIGHT.........
IT'S ALL GOOD,HUH........

WELL, I NEED TO GET BUSY......
TILL NEXT TIME.......

    

 I am planning a Dinner Party for my girlfriends.........................

This Sat. at 7 pm.  DJ will be with his father this weekend plus this will be the last weekend at the house.  Closing is set for the 22th.  Which I have the movers schedule for the 23rd, so I will be moving no matter what......... I have made arrangements for my EX to keep DJ with him on the 23rd, so I could move and get things so what ready......  He agreed, Thank God, DJ will not be in the way of the move.......

But I decided yesterday that I needed to make a go away party for myself.  I called all my close girlfriends and told them to just bring what they would like to drink......
I have about 10-12 girls coming over...... OH MY........
I told one of the girls that I want to Party Hard...... Live up.......  I told her that I want the neighbors to call the cops because of the noise, hehehehe..........
It will not be like that but........
We will have fun.......
I am still planning the menu and dessert as I write this.....

I will try to remember to take pictures, so I posted them afterwards.  When I get my internet.....  Which is next Sat......... 



Weldon called me yesterday afternoon and evening.......
He left for Galveston yesterday afternoon and will not be back till Sunday afternoon.  :( :(

But I am trying to keep busy......  and with the party coming up.  I will.......

It will be nice to have all my friends together before I move.  I know that I am not moving far, and I will stay in contact with my friends.........
But I just love a party.........
I am planning to have an open apartment party too.  When I have things together in my apartment.........
Other good reason to have a party..... huh.......

Anyway, I better go back to work.
Till next time........
   

What a day yesterday was!!!!!!!!

Weldon changed shifts yesterday and worked from 10 pm to 6 am last night, so he came over before starting work. He brought KISSES AND KISSES TOO...... hehehe......

I made chocolate cover strawberries which he never had. He like strawberries and chocolate, but he never had them together, and he did not like them....  Go figure.......
But he like that I made something for him plus his Valentine's Candy Heart Shape Box.

I also received a Valentine's card from my mother......

It was so beautiful; I have to share it with you all.....
She has been so supporting thought my divorce and others... so this card means a lot to me.......

What the card said:

Daughter

On special days like Valentine's Day, and on ordinary days, too, please know that I see you....

inside the first page:

I sse the path you've made that's all your own. I see the many unique talents and gifts you have to share.  I see your brilliance, your enthusiasm, and how deeply you care and, sometimes, hurt.  I see your hard-earned wisdom, your soft pure innocence, your courage and compassion, your unconditional goodness.  I see what a difference you make in this world......

the inside card:

.....and I hope you know how very much I love you, and how proud I'll always be to have a daughter as wonderful as you.  HAPPY VALENTINE'S DAY with LOVE

then she signed it:

with lots of love "always" MOM.....

I know now how words move you. She pick the perfect card to express everything........  How much my mother loves me...... I see so much now...... So much I could share with my girls because of how my relationship is with my mother.......

It was a good day yesterday which was strange because the day before Valentine's Day.  I was in a mood.......

Oh, I even talked to my EX yesterday. We even talked about Weldon.  Sabrina told dad about Weldon..... hehehe....
He said that he was happy that I found someone to be happy with. Whatever....but I am happy with Weldon; I just wish we had more time for each other. Plus now that I will be moving to Corpus.  I wonder how things will go......

I know..... take it one day at a time........

Well, I have to go to class.....
I will get to my comments later......

Thank You all for being here for me.....
Till next time......

 

 

HAPPY VALENTINE DAY..........

I hope everyone had a good day........

I had a good night; something finally happen......

My oldest, Brenda Lee, called me last night.....

What does every teenager want???????

Yes, she called me for money.....  Which I did not mind because she called me. I was happy that she called. Plus she came in and talked to me for a while......  which was very nice.....

Well, this morning before school, I called my girls, so I could go by and drop off their Valentine's Candy Boxes....

Brenda Lee gave me a hug, finally...... Sabrina did too....
But she always does.....  They gave me a candy rose and a card. Which both of them wrote in it......

I have been so happy....... This has been a good day.....

As for the guys......

Manny is history. He is the one that did not call me all weekend, and I still have not heard from him........but It has finally register that Manny was too much of a bachelor even though he has kids, but he does not see them, so he does not know what it is to be a full time parent.

As for Weldon, he is a full time parent.  The mother of his kids is not around, so his time is very limited.  The time he gives to me take time from his kids. Which I understand that.......  along with being a cop and working for the coast guard.  He has less time......

But I am still waiting for the night.......  See what happens......

I better go.... I just wanted to say Happy Valentine's to everyone..... and I can not wait till I have my internet......

Oh, someone has broken into the gate door again....  Nothing is missing. So, I do not know who could be doing it..... I hate this....
Anyway, the guy who is doing the repairs to the house has nailed it shut..... So, If they break in; they will make alot of noise, and I hope someone catchs them (neighbor or I)....... But I can not wait till I move out......  the 23rd

 

Well, till next time.......

 

DJ and I attended my friend's daughter birthday party on Sunday.  My friend took this picture...........     My son was on his second plate of cheese puffs........ I am styling my hair different these days...... Do you like it?   Things with Manny have slow down.  He has not called me. As for Weldon, He has been so busy, but he has not called me either.  I will get him some time.  But I have been stay busy too.  I will be able to moving into my apartment on the 23rd, but I have a test on the 22th. So, I will be packing and study for my test. UGH.....
My plan will be to pack things and live out of my boxes....... I called and schedule for the cable and internet to be turn on on the 25th.  ............ So I will be online starting the 25th....................   I will need to go shopping for apartment size furniture and decor. I am so excited; I get to chose what I want, what color, what style, etc...... Now, I need to make sometime to shop....... When it is all over I will post pictures.  I do a before and after pictures.......   Well, till next time............  

I have been wanting to put this in my journal.........

I received it 2 weeks ago, and I have been putting it off.

So here it goes:

Maya Angelou said this:
"I've learned that no matter what happens, or how bad it seems today, life does go on, and it will be better tomorrow."
"I've learned that you can tell a lot about a person by the way he/she handles these three things: a rainy day, lost luggage, and tangled Christmas tree lights! ."
"I've learned that regardless of your relationship with your parents, you'll miss them when they're gone from your life."
"I've learned that making a "living" is not the same thing as "making a life."
"I've learned that life sometimes gives you a second chance."
"I've learned that you shouldn't go through life with a catcher's mitt on both hands; you need to be able to throw some things back."
"I've learned that whenever I decide something with an open heart, I usually make the right decision."
"I've learned that even when I have pains, I don't have to be one."
"I've learned that every day you should reach out and touch someone.
People love a warm hug, or just a friendly pat on the back."
"I've learned that I still have a lot to learn."
"I've learned that people will forget what you said, people will forget what you did, but people will never forget how you made them feel."

Till next time.......

 

Things are just going........

 

I did finally talk to Manny last night. No major excuse as to why he ignored me all weekend.

You see he was dating this girl last year; who ended with him to be with one of his friends. Well, his friend and this girl were in an accident that killed them both on New Year's Eve. She had 3 kids that Manny talks too. Well he made plans to take them out to lunch because they did good grades on their report cards.  That was on Sat.; He said that it affected him; he became sad, and wanted to be alone the rest of the weekend. I told him that I was still upset, but I understood. I told him though that if this is how he treats his friend that I did not want to be even his friend. I let him have it......  

 Well, He called me this morning, and I was down the street from his apartment. I was putting the deposit for the apartment. Yes, It is down the street from his apartment, but the office was not open and would not open until another 30 minutes, so I went to his place.

BUT....... I let him have it again. I set him straight. I told him that I was still upset with him. He tried to explain again. I told him again that if this is how he treats his friends then I do not want to be his friend. I told him I will not be treated this way. Life is to short and I have been though so much. I told him I wish that he would have open up to me. I would love to help him out. I told him I have been though depression and now a divorce. I know how rock bottom things could look. I know how to change, and how hard it could be....

I did tell him that I am still deal with stuff, but that is life. It is how you deal with it and not closing out your friends or family. He said his father has been on his case too. I left him to think about it. The ball is in his court. Let's see what he does with it.......  

I have not heard from Weldon. I did talk to him yesterday and saw him when I was walking with my friend Pat. He waved hello and we start laughing like teenage girls, too funny....... But he has not called me this morning. I will see about tonight...... 
I just do not know what to think about Weldon......  

I am getting so excited about my new life. The new cite I will be moving into. The new people I will meet. And just excited about everything.......  Dealing with these guys..... Does that sound bad...... guys......
I feel like such a PLAYER......  But then I have heard and been told not too......
I am DATING..........  But it is hard to figure this out.......

I am having fun. It feels nice to be told that I am beautiful, to be kissed, to be hold, to be with someone.......  Yes, I am feeling lonely......  I just have a big heart, and I want to share it......  

 Well, I better go and do some work...... hahaha......
Till next time.....

 

The Weekend..............

I had my Moving Sale. It was a mad house, but I am so happy it is over........  I did GREAT on the sales on Sat., so I did not open up on Sunday.

But the weekend was blah........

I am getting so confussed. I spent some time with Manny on Friday. I had a great time with him. He even cooked BBQ chicken for me. I had been wanting some, and he cooks goooooooood chicken just the way I love it......
Well, We had plans that I would meet up with him at the beach that Sat. afternoon. I tried to reach him after my sale, and I could not reach him, so I left him a voice mail. Well, I did not hear from him all weekend. He did not return my calls till this morning while I was in class. I did not answer, but he did text message me to 'please call.'  Which I did not. I will not. He should of left me a voice message explaining what happen.

But the weekend was not bad. I did hear from Weldon, and we got together on Sat.  I know I have been busy.......
But it was nice visiting with him.....  He was in his cop uniform, and he finally kissed me.  He is so romantic......
But we will see where this will go......

NOW FOR SOME GOOD NEWS................

Brenda lee (my oldest) is in the club BPA (Business Profession Of America), I believe that is the name.
Well, She will be going to State for 2 division of the club; one for computers, and I do not remember what the other one was. But I am so proud of her..........
My EX called me Sat. afternoon to tell me about it, so I called my oldest after that call to say congrads. It was upsetting.........
She answer Hello, I tell her it is me. She said, "Yes, what do you want?" I tell her that I heard about her awards and wants to say congrads. She said, "Thank You." Then she says that she has a call coming in, so I tell her ok and to call me later. Well, she does not. I knew she would not, but I tried.

I still need to clean the garage. I have some stuff that did not sell. Plus I need to hire someone to fix the repair to my house, so I could close. There is still a chances that we could close sooner than the 27th date.......
So I am glad. I have the daycare lined up, and tomorrow I will be finalizing the apartment. I have the movers ready to go; I just need the date for move......  Which I knew....

Anyway, things are going.......
Taking things one day at a time.....
Till next time.....