My son had a bad night..........

Yesterday was DJ's week visit with his dad.  Well it was a panic attack or temper tantrum......
When he came home, he hugged his dad around his neck and would not let him go.  He kept saying that he wanted to go with his dad, so David stay awhile to calm him down.  He took him to his room and was talking to him.  He was telling him that he love him and his sis's loved him and that mommy loves you.  He then shook his head that I did not love him.  So David called me to his room and showed me what he was doing.  I told him that I do love him and try to calm him down.  This went on for awhile, so I told my Ex that he would have to leave, and I would take care of him.  Well, DJ screamed and yelled, "I want to go with my dad.  Daddy, Daddy...."  I had to hold him down while he yelled and screamed.  He was hitting me, so I hold him and his arms.  He was fighting with me, and I hold him so tight that I left fingerprints on his arms.  I am wondering if I left bruise on him from holding so tight.  It last for about 10 minutes.  I could feel his heart beating so fast, and turned red and hot.......

He has never acted this way.....
It broke my heart, and my EX plus Sabrina saw all it......
David said that she was quiet the ride home, so I know she was affected with this.....   Everybody was......

I still want to cry.......
I get so upset just thinking about it......

If anyone has some suggestions, please let me know.....

Till next time......
   

HELP ME GET OUTTA JAIL!

                                         

As most of you know, a “fun warrant” has been issued for my arrest by MDA (Muscular Dystrophy Association) for having a BIG heart.  Apparently I am to be “arrested” for good behavior on March 30, 2006, at which time I will be taken to the MDA jail at NorthShore Country Club at 801 East Broadway in Portland, Texas.  My bail has been set at $1800 which will send 3 kids to MDA Summer Camp, and I really need to raise this money fast so I can avoid prolonged time in the MDA “slammer”.

 

If I raise all my bail money by the day of my “arrest”, not only will I get out of jail instantly, but I’ll receive an award and be able to enjoy my time eating North Shore Country Club’s version of jail grub while networking with other business leaders from the community.  This sure beats busting rocks and building railroad tracks which I’m sure to be doing if I can’t raise bail!!

 

I’ve attached a link to my own personal webpage where you can contribute toward my bail. 

 

https://www.mdaevent.org/ONE/BrendaDelMoral

 

All proceeds from my bail go to benefit the local Coastal Bend Chapter of the Muscular Dystrophy Association.  With my bail, MDA will pay for kids to attend camp, receive wheelchairs, leg braces, special medical procedures, flu shots, etc., and most importantly, research toward the dream of one day finding a cure for the 43 neuromuscular diseases that MDA covers, including ALS. 

 

I’d like to leave you with a poem written by the late Mattie Stepanek, the former MDA National Goodwill Ambassador.  He was an incredible young man with intelligence beyond his 13 years.  He passed away last summer from mitochondrial myopathy, one of the 43 diseases MDA covers.  I hope his writing touches you and gives you a sense of who you are helping through participating in this Lock-Up.

 

On Being a Champion

 

A champion is a winner,

A hero…

Someone who never gives up

Even when the going gets rough.

A champion is a member of

Awinning team…

Someone who overcomes challenges

Even when it requires creative solutions

A champion is an optimist,

A hopeful spirit…

Someone who plays the game,

Even when the game is called life…

Especially when the game is called life.

There can be a champion in each of us,

If we live as a winner,

If we live as a member of the team,

If we live with a hopeful spirit,

For life.

                                    September 1999

("On Being a Champion" is excerpted from Mattie J. T. Stepanek's book of poetry Journey Through Heartsongs and is reprinted with the permission of VSP Books/Hyperion.  Journey Through heartsongs is available wherever books are sold.)

 

Thanks for your donations and call me if you need anything….I’ll be in touch.

 

 

Best Regards,

 

Brenda Del Moral

I received my CD today in the mail....................

I'll explain...........

The night I met Roy. I gave him my info. and that night in his car. I heard his cd and found out that he burn it.
I ask him if he would mail me a copy of the CD.
Well, that CD came today......
I have not heard from him, via email or phone.  But today I received the CD without a FORWARDING ADDRESS.....
He did attached a note to it. He wrote:

Brenda,
You are a really sweet person.
Thank you for the wonderful night.
Roy

I called my friend Judy from Fort Worth to tell her. She said that it sound it like he was signing my yearbook.....
It does.... 
I guess he doesn't want anything else to do with me.......

It was sweet that he send me the CD........
but I know now that I will not hear from him......
I will only have the memories.......

Anyway, I have to go and study. I have a test on Wednesday.....
Sorry Judy, I could not stay on longer. 
Till next time.....
   

Ok, some of these pictures did not come out good.............

I will take some more once it has healed......

I fell in love with my Butterfly from this tag......
I wonder who the creator is.....
Does any one know?

Got to go;
Till next time.....

THANK YOU JEN FOR THIS TAG; LOVE IT.........

I am a hopeless romantic.......................

Andrew called me that; and I am so much so.......
I have been listening to this song; over and over....
and every time, I daydream about my dance with Roy. 
I still feel myself two stepping with him.........  
I know hopeless.......
I just love to dance, and I am starting to realize that I love country dancing.........
I can not stop thinking about that night.  It will be a week tomorrow, and he has not even try to contact me.......
I know I am very hopeless.......
I can not believe I am putting this on here........




I did talk to the tax company......
You see; all this comes down to selling stock options......

My Ex work company gave us stock options at a certain $$.  If the stock goes over the $$ that was given to us and we decide to sell the stock.  The profit is what we get and have to pay taxes on......  Let's say that we got them at $21 and we sold them at $23, then we get the $2 profit and have to pay taxes on the $2.  Well, the IRS is looking at the $21 price and not just the whole thing.  The tax company called it a washout because we pay the taxes on the $2; and I believe that the $21 is my Ex's company.  Anyway, she said we need to amend out taxes and that of course will cost to do.......
But the good news is we do not have to pay the $9,000.00.  Thank God........

Well, I have to read...  School.....
Till next time........
   

Why, Why, Why.............

can things go right for me?

Tuesday afternoon, my EX called me to inform me that we got a letter from the IRS.  They are saying that last year income tax was not done correctly, and we own 9,000.00.  I can not believe that.  Luckily, we had a company that did our taxes, so I will get with them today.  I did call them yesterday to inform them.
Please say a prayer for me that this is a mistake on them and not on us.........

I did homework last night. I could tell that I am getting my head into school which is good.  Next week I have a test on Wednesday that means studying all weekend, but I will have my baby girl this weekend.  Plus on Friday I have my schedule tattoo.......
Yes, I will be getting a tattoo........

Well, Class is about to begin.....

Till next time......

 

OK, TODAY IS A BETTER DAY.......

My car is fixed; it was overheating. The hose clamp was bad.  I did not get to see Weldon yesterday.  We had made plans, but he was not feeling good.  But he did come over to my workplace and brought me lunch.  I was also freaking out yesterday because I could not find my floppy disk for school.  I had done my project on it before spring break and all I need to do was some tweaking, but I could not find it anywhere.....  Well, It was at school.  So glad.......  So today is a better day.......

Now, to go back to the pictures.......

Gabriel is my cousin. His mother is my mother's sister. He looks so much like my baby brother. Uncle Roy and Aunt Liz were so sweet.  My aunt is my mother's sister, she looks so much like my mother.  It has been a while since I have seen my uncle and aunt.....   So I was freaking my uncle....  He said I looked so much like my mother.  At one time, he was behind me and said that I sound so much like my mother......
I will keep in touch with them.  In some way my EX kept me away from my family, even my mother.  He played with my head about my family, but I know that I had the choice and now I choice to be with my family......  I have missed so much.  I am going to plan for the summer to go back; hopefully with my kids........

Now, Roy......
I meet him the night at Cowboys on St. Patty's Day.....
We had a great time.  I danced all night with him and boy can we dances.......  He was so nice and polite, such a cowboy.....  Yes, I kissed him.....hehehe...... But.....
I gave him my info and as to this date.  He has not contacted me....  :(
Anyway, He lives in Fort Worth..........

Tommy is Judy's husband.......  He was the one who gave me a ride on the Harley.  That was so cool........ 
I still can't believe how much fun I had........

Did you check out those horns on the cows.......
They had a stampede everyday at 11:30 am and 4 pm at the Stockyards......

And the rain on Sunday.......  My flight was delayed 2 1/2 hours..........
I did ride home with Weldon's baby girl, Amanda......
She was visiting her mother for spring break and I did see her mother,Weldon's Ex at the airport.  I did not know how to react, so I did not introduce myself to her. I know I should had.  But Amanda is so cute, I have to tell you what she did..... 
I sat further down from where they were sitting while we waited for our flight.  The flight attendant was calling abroad the flight before us that was also delayed. I decide to go to the bathroom.  While I was in the bathroom, Weldon calls.  He asked me if I was climbing aboard.  I told him, 'No, the flight has been delayed.'  He said that Amanda called him and said, "Dad, your girlfriend is getting on the wrong plane."  Oh.... She was watching out for me...... hehehe.....
He said she was silly.  I told him that she was so sweet.

Well, I better go.....
Till next time.....
   

Ok, I am posting some of the pictures...............

I came home to car problems, so I am not up to writing.
I did have a good time at Dallas.  Now, My friend Judy lives in Fort Worth, and I love it...... My aunt and uncle lives in The Colony's near Dallas.  I loved the visit that I am thinking about moving there once I graduate from college........

Ok, I am tried, so I will write later, but enjoy the pictures......

Till next time......

 

It is Sat. morning and the weather in Dallas sucks............

But I have been having such a great time........

I arrive to beautiful weather so Tommy thought it would be best to go for that ride on the Harley being that the weather was going to be bad for the weekend.  I loved the ride. 

Well, we are about to leave....

I thought I would had more time.... but no....

Till next time....

Brenda

Tomorrow Morning, I will be flying to Dallas, Texas................

My vacation starts..........
I have never token a vacations by myself, so I am so excited............
I will be shopping today for some Cowboy boots, pants and shirt because tomorrow night, I will be County Line Dancing............  Yeeha..........

Plus my friend Judy and her husband just purchased a Harley......  They have plans for me to get a ride on Friday.........  Oh my, That will be a first also.........
I can not wait......  I am so looking forward to this break.

I will be taking pictures so when I return I will post them.
I have not packed.....  but that is me.  Leave it to the last minute........... LOL............

Till next time.............
   

I received a phone call from my EX......................

That was not good, when is it ever.........

He told me that Brenda Lee is drinking, plus she has a myspace website that has pictures of her drunk........

He told me that how he found out:
Last night, she called dad to let him know that she was at a friend's house. He told that her friend's mother need to call him, so he would know that she was there with them.  Well, she had a friend act like her friend's mother.  He knew/caught her in a lie and told her she need to get home.  When she got home, he knew she was drunk, and they got into it.  She wanted to leave, and he told her if she left not to come back....... 
Can you believe him, but I know he was upset. My heart dropped and wonder where she was.  He told me that she went to Katy (the girlfriend), and that she called him.  So he went over, and they talk some more, and she back at the apartment with him, but she is grounded.....
He said that he is going to make her quit her job that he never wanted her to work.  He went with that because I wanted her to work, and he told me that she did not learn to drink from him that is all my doing..............

Then I hung up on him.................
Always a jerk............  and it is always my fault.

He called back, but I did not answer and he left a voicemail saying that I need to talk to her.  That she went to Katy.  She deals with them. She doesn't deal with you. That I need to deal with this, you (I) need to talk to her, and you (I) certainly don't believe it was dumb when you (I) were doing this (drinking) and now she is doing this. But she is only 17 and should not be doing this, but yet he said that he was going to lay down the law and take care of it.

He is a trip..........  I am just so upset........
I let him get to me......

So what I did was:
I called Katy.  I first thanked her for being there for Brenda Lee, but I wanted to know what they talked about.  I know that she will not listen to me, but I want to know how she is thinking.  She told me that she is a typical teenager.  She is drinking, but she is not getting drunk.  She is not putting herself in danger, as for as she says. (I hope that means driving drunk, I believe she is not.)  But she feels like nothing could happen to her.
I did ask her what advise she gave her.  She said that she told her what she is doing is wrong.  She said she told her of some story that she has been in. But she said she is being like any other teenager........
Great.....
I did tell her that I know she will not listen to me because I have been there.  I did the same thing to my mother.  I know how she feels.  And David blaming me is wrong.  She said that is between you all.  I told her that she needed to know because I know he has alot on his plate, but he does not realize that I've token care of all that in the pass (handling problems like this). And now, that he is in care of the girls.  He calls me and blames me......  I told her that I would not stand for it, and she agreed.  I wonder but if she does understand but at least I told her........ and him.

Well that was this morning, this afternoon he called me again.........  I answered the phone...........

He wanted to tell me that he also suspects that she is doing drugs...........
I asked him why he taught that.  He said that one evening she was cleaning her room and making alot of noise.  DJ was asleep, and he was afraid that he would wake up with all the noise she was making.  So he told her to be quite.  Well, she acted all strung up..........

So now what.........
I did tell him that how he was handling this would be different than I would handle it.  So he asked how I would handle it.  I told him that it was not the right time to discuss it. 
He was at work which he had a boss from the Corp. office visiting.  All week he had been preparing for it, and I knew (because he kept telling me) he would be in today.  I told him he should take care of work and then we would talk about it later tonight.  But I know he is not going to like what I have to say.  He has the care of the girls more; but I will talk to him and see if.....  I will plant the seed on how he deals with it, is his doing............

I told my boss that no one has said that parenting was going to be easy; divorce or not..........
either way; kids will be kids........
Everyone has to make mistake and learn from them.
Some kids want to learn the hard way instead of listening to their parents...........

Well Till next time................
   

What a weekend.................

First, I have been thinking and praying about Andrew's Brother.    I remember his entry about his brother, and what it meant to him. My heart goes out to him........

This weekend was nothing but disappointments...............

On Friday afternoon, My boss told me that she MIGHT have a ticket to Nickelback concert.  So I wait by my phone and nothing, which was fine because I had already made up my mind that I was going to get my tattoo.  So I went to the place and the guy who they recommend was booked up till the 18th.  Which I am going to be in Dallas......  I was disappointed, but I scheduled a date for the 24th. Funny, It sounds like a Doctor's appointment, huh......
Well, It did not end there........

Saturday, I had my mattress and Dresser schedule for delivery.  So, I had called Lack's to find out if it was going to be in the morning or afternoon. He told me that it would be in the afternoon, so I thanked him and hung up. A few minutes passed and he called backed. Well, it turn out that the Dresser was not in stock and was in the warehouse, but he noted that the order said that I would be happy with the floor model, which I did not agree to that.  That pissed me off...........
I told him that and ask how long it will take for the warehouse to delivery.  He said a week to 10 days......
I was disappointed once again.........
I was so upset. I asked for his supervisor and was given the phone number for their Corp. office, so I will be calling on Monday.
All through Saturday afternoon, I was called about my car. My car is in the shop being repaired, and it seemed like everything was going wrong.  I hope I get my car back this week; I am in a rental and that is getting costly.......
Then today, Weldon cancel on our date, but set one for tomorrow........  So will see what happens. I am so disappointed, I was looking towards our date........

I did spend some time with my baby girl, Sabrina.........
I toke her out to lunch, and we had a talk.  She was telling about my friend's daughter.  How she was told that she was making out with this girl's boyfriend.  I told her that she was going on a rumor.  She shook her head and said that it was true...............

So I told her this...........
I said it is like Katy, my EX's girlfriend.  She was kissing Dad while he was married to me.  So I asked her why she was ok with Katy but yet she could judge my friend's daughter.  She stop and was thinking about it but I do not think she fully understand the situation.  I just planned the seed of it..........

I hate that I did that but she needs to know that it was wrong on what David and Katy did............  Even through Dad acts like it is not wrong. 
It kills me that they go to chruch. Yes, I called to talk to my son because it is his spring break vacation with the kids, and I caught them going to chruch...........
They are so wrong...............

Well, I better go....
I have work tomorrow..................... Full day.........

I love this song..........  It reminds me of Weldon.........
Till next time......
  

Things are coming along.......................

I received my sofa and chairs on Monday.  They look so nice in my living room. Now, I need to set up the entertainment which I do not know what to do.  I have not decided on an armoire or what plus I need to purchase a tv for the living room.
Anyway there is still alot to do around here........

I did make my plans for DALLAS........
I can not wait.........
I will be flying next Thursday and will be back on Sunday.  Just in time before my son gets back.......
I am trying to make plans to visit one of my aunts that lives near Dallas.  I have not seen her since I was maybe 10 or 12.  I do not remember; that is how long......
But I will have fun.......
I am not sure what to do there.  I need to go online and look up what is hot in DALLAS, TEXAS......
Any suggestions???????

Oh, I did not hear from Weldon yesterday, but I am starting to feel O.K. about this..... (about calling me everyday).  I know he is busy.......  but......
I did call him today because I picked up my baby girl in the afternoon, and we went shopping.  So, I let him know that I would be back in Portland that evening. Suggesting that we get together afterwards.......
He did.....  He meet up with me at Dairy Queen.  He made time for me....  I am happy...... Right now, I wish I was still living in Portland, so I could be closer to him......
While we were sitting at our table.  Some of Megan's friends came over to say hello to Weldon. Megan is Weldon's older daughter.  I have not meet her.  I meet Amanda but the more that people see us together, the more the word is going to get around that we are dating.......

Anyway, I need to get some sleep.......
I was up late because of homework.  I have to get to school early to finish up......
So......
    
  

Weldon came over last night...................

He missed me, as I had missed him.  His schedule is very full....... He wished that he had more time.  I so enjoy being with him.  He is so kind.  He calls me 'beautiful' isn't that so sweet........

Time is flying so fast........... 
Next week is Spring Break....... 
I can not believe that.........

I want to plan to go to Dallas and visit my friend, Judy........  The EX will have Spring Break Vacation with the kids this year..... 
So I have all the time for myself......
So off to Dallas......  My boss is so cool..........  She is working it out that I could do a Sat, Sun, Mon & Tues. or I could do a Thurs, Fri, Sat & Sun....  So I need to get busy with my plans.....

I have not said anything about my little man........
DJ has been doing WONDERFUL at the new daycare.  Beyond my expectations......  He has not cryed, and his new teacher loves him.  She told me that he is a well polite little boy.  Which I knew that.......   He only had one accident last week, and he is making new friends. 
This pass Saturday, I was in Portland, and I did see his old teacher, Gina.  She told me that the kids are missing DJ. She told me that Cody was very upset. He would tell her that 'No, DJ goes to school here.'  He was so upset.......
I need to bring DJ over, so he could say hello to them..... One of these days......

I did see my girls for awhile on Sunday...........
I had planned on give my girls some money.  I gave them $500 each, so they could do what they like with their money.  I did tell them that I would like to go shopping with them. Brenda Lee was surprise and grateful for the money. Sabrina and I have already done some shopping, so I hope that Brenda Lee will call to set up a date for shopping......  Well see.......


I did get my kitchen together.  I fit everything I have in the small kitchen, I can not believe it, but I did. I did go and purchase some bedroom furniture. That will come on Sat.; I can not wait......  I put up some bamboo blinds up in the living room and my bedroom. They are from World Market.  I love them.  I did find my sofa and chair for my living room. It is leather; the sofa is black and the chair is red.....  I can not wait till that comes which should be sometime this week.  All in All, everything is coming together.......

Anyway, things are going..... 
I did play tennis with Sal on Thursday.  He lives at the apartments, but he is too good for me.  I bring his game down, but I hope he still calls me to hit balls back and forth.  That would help me, to get my game back...... with time, huh..........

Well, I will go......
Till next time.....
   

I have been so busy....................

I can not get things done. To much on my plate and not alot of time........  I know that it will take time, but I want everything in place.  I am still trying to get my boxes out of the living room, so I could have a sofa and chair in there.  I did find a sofa and chair plus an entertainment center...... I just need to go and buy them, but I want to clear the boxes....
I guess I should do that instead of writing in here..... HUH.....

Anyway, I have been upset with Weldon, but I am trying to be understanding......  He finally called me last night when he was at work, but the last time I talked to him was on Thursday afternoon.  I joked with him about feeling like I have been left on the back burner with him......  He did say that he forgot to call me yesterday (not a good thing)...  but He was sorry.  He did say that he has been busy with his kids.  But they are all excuses as I see them.....  I am not take things for granted this time around.....  That is why things did not work out with Manny.  I do not want someone that is not going to talk to me everyday....  Is that a lot to ask for?????? 

Well, will see how today goes??????


Till next time, I need to go and clear those boxes......