I am sunburn..............

This weekend; Portland, where I use to live. They had a festival.  I took DJ on Sunday, so he could ride the rides, plus there was going to be a band that my friend, Melinda wanted to hear.  So I met up with her that afternoon.  Well, On Saturday I took DJ to my nephews birthday party.  Funtrackers: They had go carts.  So I took DJ for a ride.  Well, I did not realize that I was going so fast that I scared him.  He did not want to get on the go carts anymore, and He did not want to get on the rides at the festival...
Except later that afternoon, He did want to get on the fun house.  Well, I was seeing Weldon off and on.  He was working while I was there.  Off and on, he would talk to me, and He gave me kisses.  He kissed me in front of everyone.....  Later that night, he was over at my place.  He received a call. He told the person on the phone that he was over at his girlfriend.  He called me his girlfriend..... 

You see last Monday I had a serious talk with Weldon.  I basically told him that I needed more from him.  I could tell that he was holding back, and I wonder why. 
He did not know why; he said he understood if I wanted to break things off with him.  I told him that is not what I wanted.  I wanted him to know how I was feeling and that I wanted more from him.  I understood about his work and his children.  But I wanted him to know this was how I was feeling.  He broke and opened up to me.  He finally told me how he was married a second time.  He did not want to make that mistake again. I asked if he still was in contact with her.  He said no, for all he knew she could be in Japan......  They did not have children, but it was a couple of years back.  So he is over it but does not want to make the mistake again.....
I told him I understood so much...  I did not want to get married; I want a relationship.  Someone I could share my time, my moments, my happy time and my sad time.....
Someone who wants the same thing too.....
We connected.  I am glad I talked to him how I was feeling..... 

I was smiling that he was kissing me at the festival.  I am sounding like a high school girl talking about her boyfriend...... 
What I was getting to was that when DJ got on the ride; the fun house. I spoke to Weldon that he wanted to get on but was nerves for DJ.  He told me to let him on. I told him that if he fell down; I would have to go after him. He tell me, 'So'...... So I gave in plus my friend's son was going to watch him.....  Well, we were watching him when I notice that Weldon was passing by.  Weldon stopped to watch DJ too.....  He was smiling at him.  DJ handled himself well in the fun house.  He was not scared.  He went slow when he needed too, but I was glad to see that Weldon token the time to check out DJ.....  He does like my son, and he cares for him....  I am glad....  but I am still worried that if thinks do not work out for us.  How will affect DJ?  Even if we date for months..... How will it affect him?
This is one obstacle: why we can not see each so much.  Because I do not want DJ around us?  Our talk last week, Weldon had mention that too.....
He is worried about it too.....

This is my dating life now......
Worrying about my son or his kids......

Well, I need to go and study.  I have a Test on Wednesday....
Say a prayer for me; I do not feel like I am ready for this test.....
Till next time......