I am so hurt by Weldon.....

Along with dealing with the EX on Wednesday, I need to mention what happen with Weldon.

When my car broke down.  I called Weldon being he is a cop.  He would know wrecker company's.  Well, He only knew Portland area, not for the Corpus area.  So he knew my car broke down.  The whole night passed and the next morning not till 10:30 am, he calls me.  I was so upset........

He asked how I was doing.  Did I get my car towed?  I told him yes, but I was not able to rent a car and had to walk home.  He told me he was Sorry.  I told him that I token care of it.  He could tell I was upset and hurt.  He said that he could not talk; he was a work, but he would call me later tonight.

Well, he called me last night again.  He started off by asking how I was doing.  I told him still trying to take care of things.  He could tell that I was still upset.  So I told him that I was very hurt by him.  I was not going to make any excuses for him.  He disrespect me.  I told him even a friend would have not treated me the way he did.  A friend would call to make sure I made it home and was all right, even if it was late.  He kept says he knows and that he was sorry.  I told him how I was giving our relationship some time to see if thing were going to develop; (a month ago).  I knew he had issues just like everyone.  I have issues and deal with them everyday.  He said yes we had this talk about a month ago.  I said yes I have given it some time, and this was a learn lesson.  He hurt me by not calling me.  I told him that he does not see how I like him, the degree I have for him is more than the degree of how he likes me.  And that explain why he treats me the way he does.  So Wednesday was the last time, the last time I was going to get hurt by him treating me that way.

It is so sad because I really like him.  I keep try to figure out what it is.  It was just being with him.  How we talked.  How he would treat me when WE WERE together.  He is a nice guy, but when he is living his life.  He does not include me or that's how I see it.  He is busy with work and his girls plus everything else.  Which I understand.  I told him; I still have my life, school and my kids, but I still make the time for him.  To call him or spend time with him.  I felt like he really did not want to make the time for me, but then there were some times that I felt like he made time for me.  He made me feel special at times.

Why is this so hard........  relationships..........

I really like Weldon.  I know I do not want to be treat like that.  I do deserve better.  I am just sorry he could not do it.  He is a good guy then why did he treat me that way.  Men.....

He told me that he did not want to hurt me.  I told him that he does not understand how that is not in his control.  I choice how I feel about him as he choices on how he feels about me.  And the degrees are different.  I see that.  I gave it time to see if anything would happen. Well, it happen, for him to treat me like that was hurtful.  He said he knew and was sorry.  I told him that sorry does not help.  What you did shows how you feel towards me.

OH and the reason why he did not call me.

He was at his daughter's basketball practice.

Tell me: Am I being to hard?

Till next time......