I should have done 2 entries...........

I took a lot of pictures, but we had a great time.  DJ loved the aquarium.  He kept says,"Like Nemo, Like Nemo."  He was too cute.........

He loved the fishes, and he touched a sea urchin; brave he was.  When he saw the blue crab.  He said, "He is locked up." hehehe..... They had a porcupine, parrot, sharks, blow fish, many kind of jellyfish, and so much more.....  They even had those fish that have sharp teeth.....  ???

OH, DJ loved the otters......  They are so playful.

When we saw the sea turtles; DJ again said, "Like Nemo, Like Nemo."  Can you tell he loves Nemo........  I told him, "Yea, Dude."  hehehe.........

They had a hawk, an Owl, and a Raptor. They are so beautiful.....

You could see the Harbor Bridge in one of the pictures. 

We had a great time......... Glad we went.

I start school tomorrow.... I have to get my head back into school.  I was enjoying this time of relaxation.  I hope this next 6 weeks go fast......

I am feeling a little lonely.  That is the reason for the song.  I remember hearing this song in the pass.
I just don't remember how far back...... 
but I remember feeling lonely.......

Till next time......

 

OK.....  I uploaded my pictures of my apartment.

I am having car troubles again.....

The check engine light came on Friday night as I was taking DJ to the babysitter.  I pulled over and the oil was low.  The security guy for the store that I pulled over helped me.  I told him that it was strange that the oil light did not come on and that the engine light did for the oil to be low.....

Well, when I turned on the car the light was still on.....

So I going to make other plans for the night....  while i was driving to the babysitter the light went out.  So I thought that it was the oil.  So I went out that night...

Then the next morning while I was driving to pick up DJ.  The light came on again, so I drove it to the shop......

Well, it took all morning for them to look at it... and when they did.  What a list of problem it has......

I am still trying to figure out what I am going to do....

But the weekend has not been what I want......

I am going to take DJ to the aquarium, but I will not be traveling to Port Aransas...  Dam....  I wanted to go to Beulah's.......  Not this time,  wasn't meant to be.

Oh Well......

I hope everyone is having a great Memorial Weekend......

Till next time......

 

I am liking the idea of the beach......

 

Maybe, I could get a hotel at Port Aransas on the beach.

With my luck, everyone will be booked up.......

Either way, We are going to do something....

I hope everyone has a great Memorial Weekend....

 

I will be acting like a tourist.............

This weekend, my girls will not be coming over.  My ex and his girlfriend are leasing a house and moving this weekend.  OH MY......  My girls (Brenda Lee, 17 and Sabrina, 15) and her girls (Leah, 9 and Emma, 4) plus them are going to be in a 4 bedroom house.......

So this long weekend, it will be DJ and I.  I am not in the mood to travel far, but I do want to do get out and do something.  So I will travel near by.......
Corpus Christi has an aquarium; link: http://www.texasstateaquarium.org/

It has been awhile that I have taken DJ there, so we will be going. 
Plus Portland has a nice pool.  I had DJ's birthday party last year there.  Here are some picture that I token: http://journals.aol.com/budbrin/B/entries/728

But I am going to see if Susan and Jared (one of DJ's buddy) can go and swim with us.  It has been awhile since we got together.  We use get together every other weekend when I lived in Portland, and now that I live in Corpus.  Hard....
She is going to be working near where I live.  She was trained for an assistant management position and the store that she will be working at is 2 minutes away from my apartment......   So nice......

What else will we be doing.........
Well, there is the beach.....  It has been awhile since we have gone to the beach.  Port Aransas..... plus there is a restaurant "Beulah's" in Port Aransas that I want to go. 

Be back later....  need to go...
BRENDA....

LISA JO..........

You mean so much to me.

I hope you have a wonderful day.  You deserve it.

 

I have not been in the mood to write......................

because the argument with my ex, and he knows how to push my buttons.  I feel so drained plus helpless for my kids.

I did talk to the ex yesterday, and he has clam down.  He still feels that therapy will not help them, but we agreed to make the girls see a therapist.  I feel like they are not going to want to go, but after a couple of session.  Things will change....  I hope.....

He is now making excuse for the girlfriend.  She is saying that I did not grab her, that I stood in front of her way, so I could introduce her to my friend.  whatever.....

Yesterday I had the first appointment with DJ's therapist.  He wants some input of what I think is going on with DJ.  It went well, but I could hear myself.  It made me wonder if I was making too much of this.  I am not; at times he is doing well and at times he is bad.  And I feel like at times I am handling it good and at times I am not.

Last week, I told DJ that if his heart did not come off his tree all week, well till Thursday, I would buy him a book.

It worked; his teacher told me that he was trying very hard.  She could see the differences.  Well, this weekend dad had DJ, and he comes back hugging dad and not wanting to let go.  I know he is missing dad and he is adjusting.  For me, the hard part is getting help from dad.  I am hoping that therapy will help all of us......

Plus my girls, they are older, but I could see how they are so confused.  And the way they are treating me.  I can't help them, so I do hope that therapy will help them.

I told Sabrina that I was upset with her on Monday.  We talked on Sunday when they were dropping off DJ that I would be off on Tuesday and let's get together.  Well, she made excuses on Monday, and I told her I was disappointed.  I was tryed ofhow her sister and herself were treating me.  I then told her I would talk to her later and left it that way.  She did not call me back and mention it to dad.  I asked him yesterday if she talked to him about us, and he did.  But did not say anything to it.  He is leaving it to us to workout......

 

Well, School will start next week after Memorial Day......

I do hope it goes by fast.......

Till next time.....

  

I am worried....................

I know now that the girlfriend is crazy.  Her ex husband told me back in July that he felt she was bipolar. I think I am starting to see it.

Yesterday morning, my ex called me.  I has my cell with me at all time.  But for some reason, I did not hear or felt the cell phone.  He had left a message for me.

He first started by said that what goes on with him and Katy is none of my business.  Which I taught if anything he should of told me that yesterday when I asked, but I did not think of anything from it.  Because I know that they have a life to lead.  But what I was surprise on was at the end of the message.  He tells me if I ever lay a hand on Katy that I will have to deal with him.

I flipped......
I did not know what he was talking about.  I was glad that my friend Thelma was there with me.

I tryed calling, and his voice mail came on. I didn't leave a message, but I did try to call Katy.  I wanted to get to the bottom of this, but her voice mail came on too.

So I waited, and I finally got through to my ex.  I asked him what Katy told him.  He said that she was coming out of the salon, and I was waiting for her.  She was in a rush and was trying to go to her car.  She told him that I grab her arm and spin her around to introduce her to my friend.

I told my ex that I am very concerned about this.  Nothing happened and it makes me wonder why she would say something like this.  I told him; I did not touched her, and I am very worry especially that my girls are going to be living with her.  He said that if anything Sabrina has opened up to her.  I told him I wanted to know what is going on with Sabrina.

I flipped again........
She told Katy that her oldest daughter has been talking to her about what her grandfather did to her. Plus she remember what I told her about my father.

I have not wrote about this........
My father touched me.  This happen when I was about 10 to about 15.  He would tell me that he wanted to have sex with me, but I always told him 'NO'.  It was a difficult time for me.  I am over it in some ways.  It does make me sad, but I overcome it.  I know now that I have control of me, but I was very protected of my girls.  I remember Brenda Lee wanted to stay over at a friends house, but the mother was going out-of-town with her son and her daughter was going to be with the dad.  Well, Brenda Lee wanted to go over for a sleep over.  I said "NO" and she could not understand why not.  So I sat both my girls down and told them about me.  And why I have always been protected of them.
So this is what Sabrina is talking about.......

She also told Katy that she is having nightmares.  That is why is tried and sleepy all the time.  Plus she is afraid of all men even her father, but she knows that he would not hurt her.
I told my ex that worries me.  It does not make sense. She is afraid of you.  Then he said yes, but she still wants to live with me.

I have believe that Katy had some doing about her girls saying that there grandfather and dad had touch them.  I believe she has played with their minds and are confused.  And now I am worried that she is doing the same to Sabrina.

I told my ex that I wanted Sabrina in therapy.  I demand.  I told him that I did not want her to be talking to Katy, but I know that she is under his care.  But I tried talking to him.  I told him that if he did not I was going to talk to my attorney.  He flipped and kept saying.

Brenda don't do this.  You are going to make her shut down.  She told Katy all this in confidence, and if you do this she is going to shut down.  I told him than he has to do it.  Make her see a therapist.

I will have to finish this later.....
I need to get ready for work....
I will write at work....

Later,

 

I talked to Brenda Lee......

Tuesday afternoon, I called Brenda Lee and told her that dad had told me about what is going on.  I asked her if she could talk, and she could not because she had a friend over.  I told her that I need to talk to her before I had to pick up DJ from day care.  So I did all the talking.  I told her that I was not upset with her.  I told her that I felt like she might not be gay and this might be a time of her exploring.  I told her that if it turns out that she is gay, that I will always be here for her.  I love her and she will always be my daughter.  I told her I need to know if she has had sex with a guy. (because she has had boyfriends) and she said no and that things with her girlfriend have not gone far.

So I know that she is exploring.......
I then told her that I was young than her when I have my first sexual experience and that made my life difficult.  I told her that I hope when she does have sex with a boy or girl that she has thought thing though.  It should be a beautiful experience and when you are ready.   I told her that if she ever needed to talk or had a question; I hope she would come to me, and that I will always be here for her.
There was a lot that was said, but I ended with.  I hope I did not say anything to offend you.  I love you.

So now to sit back and wait.....



OH MY.... Yesterday was a day.......

I have a blind date.......  Nervous......
You see my friend Melinda told me about this guy and has been trying to get us together.  But time was not on our side, I was busy or he was.   Well, Tuesday I had lunch with Melinda and asked her about Jessie.  She told me that she would call him, but she need my cell. (I should have know she was up to something. I'll explain in a while.)  But he was busy and told her that he would call her back.  And this is what I found out..........
He did not call her back till Wednesday morning at her work place.  She told him  that he had my cell # to give me a call.  He asked her if I would mind him calling me.  She told him to act like he was looking for me and take it from there.
Well, what did he do he called.......
I like that; it shows that he has guts.....

He acted like he was looking for Melinda, and I told him that this is Brenda.  Melinda was using my phone yesterday, and he could call Melinda at her workplace.  He then said, "Oh this is Brenda. So How are you doing?"  and that started our conversation.  He asked what I like to do for fun.  Where I like to eat? and so forth......
It was a nice conversation..... 

But we made plans to get together on Friday.....
Afterwards I remember that the girls are going to have a Band concert on Friday at 7 pm.  He is to call me Friday afternoon to set more specific plans, so I will see if he will still make plans for a late dinner, and he likes to play pool.  Maybe he will not mind the time......
But I am excited.....  A date.......



Oh guess who I saw yesterday...........

The girlfriend.......  Yes, she was going into Wal-Mart beauty salon while Thelma and I were leaving to the parking lot.  So Thelma saw her....
Thelma kept staring at her and was saying, "David left you for that."  I kept shaking my head at her.......
She said she looks (and sorry if offend anyone) white trash.......
It was funny because she quickly went into the salon once she saw me.  Thelma and I stood outside of the salon look in to see her.  She gave us her back, she would not turn around to see us.  Well, she had to go back to her car for some reason and had to turn and look at us.  I said hello to her and introduce her to Thelma.  But she kept smiling and looking at me strangely.  Made me question if she was Katy.  So I asked questioningly, "Katy?"  and she said yes.  It was strange but that is her.  I could tell she was nervous.  I was like 'whatever'.  but she asked how I was doing.  Like she did not know......
I told her good, just working....  Well, she cut me off and said she needed to go and left hopping in from of us....
Her juggling but was in front of us while she ran outside to her car.  I told Thelma, oh my I do not need to see that....
Well, Thelma has this shock look on her face when I turn to look at her.  I asked her what....  She said, "Brenda, she looks pregnant."  So we are walking to the parking lot and see her get into the car and was heading back in.  And yes, she has a tummy.  I looked at Thelma like that would not pass me that that is her intentions......

I was pissed.  I told Thelma that I was going to call my ex.  So I called my ex.......
I flat out asked, "Is Katy pregnant."  He said no. I told him I saw Katy at Wal-Mart and she looks pregnant.  He said that they have talk about it, but no she is not pregnant.  I said I would not pass her that this is her intentions.  He said no, they have talk about it, but something about how they can not; hinting to money problems.  So I told him, Opps, sorry then.  He said yes, that is not nice to say.....  I told him not to say anything, but I do believe he is going to say something.....
Too funny......



Well that was my yesterday....   I hope today will be better....
DJ has a program at the day care....  He has been singing songs at home.  Too cute.......

I wish I knew how to put movie clips on here....  I am planning to take some with my camera.  OH dad will not be able to go tonight.  It is his weekday visitation, but he said something else came up, plus this is his weekend, I will see him on Friday......

It made me think about what he said when I told him that I want to move to Austin.....  He asked about DJ, his visitation with him.  I told him to look at the divorce decree.  It lays it out......  But he can't make it to his program and he lives here.   How will it be when I move to Austin.....

I am not sure I wrote about that.....
but once I graduate from college.  I want to move to Austin, Texas.....  I want to get my bachelor degree; UT: Hook 'em Horns.....

Well I better get to work....
Till next time.....

   

Is it true or is it not.........

I found out yesterday that Brenda Lee admitted to my Ex that she is gay.

I still say and told my Ex that she is exploring herself.
But he said that he read that she is the one making the moves. She told him that she is attracted to this girl; she has not felt like that for anyone else.  Nothing happen with Megan (Weldon's daughter).  My Ex said that in her letters, she has made plans to go to UT in Austin with this girl and that they are going to get an apartment together, work and go to college.  So they are making plans.

So has she explored enough to know if she is or not, that is my question.

I had a dream last night that has me wonder.  I went to bed last night at 11 pm and woke up to this dream at 12:30 am.  I dream that Brenda Lee grab my car keys and drove my car up a stadium seating.  She went over the top and landed in the parking lot below.  I ran around to check on her.  She was coming out of the car with her face bloody.  I stood there think, this is her mess and she will have to deal with it.  The motherly instant did not come out.  I think it is my way of accepting her that she is growing up and becoming an adult.  This is her life and she needs to live it.  Strange, huh........

I have heard that there are a lot of girls coming out that they are gay.  So this might be the in thing that is happening in high school. That is why I say that she is exploring.  I heard also that the girls are kissing and touching each other in the hallway between classes.  I want to call the high school, but I know if you tell high school kids not to do that; they just want to do it just because we do not want them to do it.  Does that makes sense, I mean how I explain it, but also too that kids think that way.....
KIDS....

Sabrina has know about this....  I have been worry about my baby girl. She has a lot going on for her.  Not to say that Brenda Lee or DJ are not.  But She closes up.  And her know about this and dealing with everything else.  Breaks my heart for her. I know she is coming of age and she dealing with her issues.  I just wish that she would open up to someone.  I did hear from my Ex that she was laughing with Katy (his girlfriend).  I was jealous but deep down I was happy that she was laughing.  Maybe she will open up to her.  Maybe she could get her to open up.  I still worry about Katy intention only because I heard about her from her Ex about how she is.  But I know that is her Ex and he would have not had good things to say about her.  Plus I have had a talk with her. 
Back in October, I confronted her because I wanted her to stay away from my kids when my ex had them.  There was a threat that (now) her ex was going to shoot her, and I was worry about my kids.  I confronted her because my ex would not keep the kids away from Katy, and I thought that if I asked her.  She would understand being that she is a mother too....  No, she said she would do what my ex wish her to do.....  I saw that she did not care about what happen to my kids because she told me that if she was shot and my ex was there; he would be shot too....  (her words); I told her that is what I mean.....  I worry about my kids being there to see or be hurt too that was my concern.  She then said that she would do what every my ex would want her to do.....  That showed me that she did not care about my kids.....

But since then I do see that she did talk to Brenda Lee when she ran away.  She was there for her.....   But I still do not know much about her, and I really can not do much....
My ex is the one who wishes for her to be around our kids. I am glad my girls are older, but I worry about DJ.

Why I worry......
My ex's girlfriend kids are 9 and 4.  The reason why she divorce her ex (plus the affair) is that her 4 year old, back when she was 3, said that her dad was touching her in her private place.  She will be 5 in August, so that was almost 2 years ago. During the separation, the kids had visitation with the grandparents.  Well, during that time, the 9 year old said that her grandpa was touching her.

Well, the father has supervised visitation and if that goes well.  He will have regular visitation.  So the court did not believe or somewhat did not believe that this was happening.  Plus I think that she might have talked to her kids to say that, so she would have custody of the kids.  I also got court records transcript of the custody hearing this was during the separation.  She was accused of slapping her kids and leaving marks on them.  She defend herself that she put her hand over their face.  It was questionable....  It let me wondering... Plus the transcript had other things.  Like the way she fought with her ex was questionable.  I was able to see a side of her that makes me wonder.  I made a copy for my ex to read and that was my present when are divorce was granted..... 
So he read it and he would know about her.... 
I know that she is an issue for me....
I am trying to work on that.....  and I am. 
The way I see it; she has my ex... LOL......  She does not know what she is getting into.......

But I am worried about my kids......  and now she will be living with them. I am hoping that she will love my kids, and that she will treat them as she would treat her own.  If she is a good mother.....  I wonder.

Only time will tell..... I say that a lot.
But what else can I do.  I am just glad that my girls are older and can watch out for themselves.  It is DJ that I worry about, and stay on top of with my ex.  I still tell him that I do not want her to be alone with him, but I know that he will not care for my wishes.  As time has shown......

I am glad that DJ speaks so well, and I make time to talk to him.  I am hoping that he will always be open to talk to me about everything.....
And now that DJ will be in therapy, my and I will get advice oh how to handle things.....  or so I hope.

Till next time.......
 

I have not wrote about my grades............

I made 2 B's and 1 A; my gpa = 3.375.
Another great semester......

Till next time....

 

I HOPE EVERYONE HAD A WONDERFUL MOTHER'S DAY........

I had a great time with my kids and family......
We went to eat at Texas Roadhouse.  My kids were with me, also my mother, her husband and my cousins with their family.  It was a nice luncheon.......

I did spent time with my girls.  Sabrina had homework though and only spent Friday dinner and Mother's Day with me.  I am worry about her, after spending sometime with her.  As for Brenda Lee, She seems to be doing fine.  She is enjoying her time now that she is not working.  But we had a nice Saturday day.  She did leave in the afternoon, but they did come back Mother's day morning, so we could visit with my mother and my family.

On Saturday, Brenda Lee and I were shopping, and I wanted to do something special for this Mother's Day.  We went to James Avery; their site: http://secure.jamesavery.com/index.jsp. I brough 3 rings with a butterfly chram attached (sorry the picture was not good.)  here is the picture of the butterfly:

   I told the girls that a butterfly represent to me; come of age.  I hope they understand.......

If not, I know that one day they will....... But they loved the rings.


Till next time......

   

I am trying to keep calm..................

DJ is acting up.  He is bite, hitting, kicking, screaming/yelling, etc....  He is doing this at day care, and he has been doing this for awhile.  I have asked my Ex if he is acting like that with him.  He says no that he is good, gets along with Emma (the girlfriends baby girl, 4 yrs old) and happy.  Well, on Tuesday the day care called that twice he had been in trouble and if it happen again, my EX or I would be called to pick him up.  I was tried of this.  I had a note on Monday from his teacher and now Tuesday a call. 
So I made plans to take DJ to a therapist.  We had a talk about they way he was acting, a serious one.  He knew that I was upset about thae way he was acting.  I mean a serious talk..... 
Well on Wednesday, I picked him up from day care, and His heart was still on the tree.  They have this tree with all the kids names on it, and if the kids are not behaving.  They drop their heart down.  Well, DJ's heart was still on the tree.  I was so happy, he had a good day.   So, I wanted him to know how proud I was of him.  I token him to the book store and bought him a $3 book.  He loves books and for anyone to read to him.  So I reward him......

Yesterday was visitation day with dad.  He picks him up then drops him at 8 pm at the apartment.  He called me to let me know that he was going to be a little late.  He was going to the donut store and would be heading to the apartment.  I said Ok..... 
When he arrived I asked him if DJ's heart came down from the tree.  He said yes.   I was disappointed.  I told him that he should have not bought him donuts, why are you rewarding him.  He said that he does not see him all week, give him a break he wants to please him.  I just look at him. I told him that yesterday his heart stayed on the tree and I bought him a book.  He buys him donuts even if his heart cames down.  He looks away from me then just leaves......
What an idiot......

Well, the way I see it is........

I believe that therapy is going to help DJ and me.  I think that the therapist is going to want to have a meeting with my Ex too, and I believe that he will set him straight.....
So It will eventually come out.....
Oh on Tuesday, DJ did tell Thelma and I that he bite Emma.  So my Ex is not telling me everything and that he is acting this way with him.

This weekend I will have all the kids.  I am so happy I cannot remember when was the last time we were all together.......
This is the nicest Mother's Day gift I could have......
but it will show me how DJ is going to be.  Meaning.....
During the week, it is only DJ and I.  This weekend, it will be all of us.....  I know he wants to be the center of attention.  So this will show me if he will be ok, not acting up.  I do believe that he is reacting to the girlfriends girls.  That dad is give them some attention, he is jealous.  But that is normal, what I think is happening is that my Ex is not take care of this the right way. 
And now, the plans to all live together....
OH YEAH.....  things are going to get more difficult.  I am glad that I am going to have DJ in therapy, plus it will help me, in everyway.  Advice for me and the Ex........

Boy, I am just going on and on..... Sorry.........
I had to get that off my chest.

And yesterday, my car battery went dead.......
Yep I was at the HEB parking lot and it would not start.  I sat there and wonder who do I call.  I am not calling my Ex; I thought first.  Why does that still comes to my mind, I guess after so many years that was what would come to my mind first.....
But I did call Thelma, my best friend....  She told me she was on her way.  But I did thought of Weldon because he knew the wrecker for Portland.  He asked where was I and he told me that he just put dinner in the oven and he would need to call Megan then he would be over.  I asked if I get a boost would that help.  He said yes for me to call this guy.  Well, when he was telling me that.  This man asked if I was having trouble.  I told him yes and asked if he had jumper cables.  He said that he had a battery jumper cables.  I told Weldon Thank You; I have someone who is going to help me.
So we got the car started and I head for the parts store to buy a battery.  $95 dollars, man.....  but it comes with a 36 month warranty......

BUT......  guess who called me later that night.......
Yep....  Weldon.....  I guess lesson learn.
I did Thank him for calling me back, that was sweet of him and we talked.....
I left it by telling him to visit me at work.  He has mention that he seen my car at work.  So that is why I told him to stop by.....
But I left it in his court as to what he wants to do with us....
Will see....

Till next time......
   

It is 9:00 a.m. and I am at work.......................

I am still trying to wake up.  I was up last night passed midnight.  Oh Thanks, Delaine for our talk......
So I am trying to wake up......  I have finished my first cup of coffee and still half awake.

But I am still laughing inside......
Last night I told Delaine that My Ex gave me some news last week which I have not mention it on here....  or have I.

But he told me that his girlfriend and he are going to buy a house together.......

I guess he thought I was going to react different, but all I did was smile from ear to ear.  Then I told him that I was leaving for Austin for the weekend.  He was shocked....  I laugh now...... and still laughing.....

But last night I told Delaine that the way I see this is......

I have my time, my freedom, my own apartment, dating, my life......  and She has my Ex (LOL, LOL.....)

OH MY....... TOO FUNNY.......

I was thinking....  it is about to be 6 months since the divorce was granted.  Man, time does fly......
I look back and realize how things change, what I was doing a year ago, where I am in life, what I am planning for my life.  It gives my butterfly in my stomach, but I am excited about everything.   I am happy......  I would have not believe that a year ago....  It was hard, but I see things so clearly now.

 

 

 

Oh I have tell you who called me yesterday......

Weldon.....  But.....
He called because he found some letters that my oldest, Brenda Lee wrote to his oldest, Megan.

Now, I do not think that anything is happening, but Weldon is the one who read the letters.

He found this letters in Megan's room just lay around.  They start off my saying, "Hello my love,"  Now, I spoke with Thelma and she said that high school girls are talking that way.  She did write that she misses her and Weldon said that she is going to Megan's games.  Well, he just mention one game that he noticed.

Now, I can't remember if I wrote that Weldon's Ex wife is gay.  That is why they divorce.  Well, I asked him how he felt about that.  He said that he was fine with it, but I think he has a problem with it.  That is why I said that he had issue.  And I could tell that he is still dealing with this issue, so he is thinking now that his girl is too.  I know he has a problem with it.  We started talking, but I was at work, and I could not talk to much.  But I could tell that he wanted to talk.  I wonder if he trying to reach out.  I did get the feeling like he called to tell me about this but his excuse to call me and check up on me.  So when I told him that I could not talk, and I would call him. And when I called him back.  I kept it short.....  I think if he wants to start something back up with me.  He needs to do it correctly not an excuse to call me.  So will see......

As for Brenda Lee, I am still think about it.  If she is gay, then she is.  She is my daughter and I will still love her.  I love her so much....  I miss her so much....
She will be with me this weekend.......  I am so happy.....
I went out yesterday to buy an air mattress, so Brenda Lee would have someplace to sleep.  She plans to come over for weekend.  So my first weekend with all the kids.....  OH MY.....  I can not even remember when was the last time we were all together......

 

 

Now to Michael.........
I have not mention him because he is my friend with benefits....  LOL.......
Yes, he is, but there is more to this......

I know his parents, and I am having trouble with that.  I could be his mother.  He is 25 years old, in fact he will be 26 on the 15th; almost 10 years differences.....  OH MY....  What am I doing.....  but I have notice that I am attracted to the young ones.....
Boy, he has a body.......  I am still dreaming about him.....  LOL......

So when I went up to meet him, which he lives with his brother.  I did not want him to find out about us.  Anyway, We had a great time........
But I am daydreaming which I am glad that finals are over....  because I could not concentrate but now I could daydream all I want.......  Which I am...... LOL.....

Well, I guess that is all for now......

Till the next drama.....

   

  

My tatto butterfly....................

What do you all think?

Plus some pictures when I was at Austin.......

And this song --- I want a man like that........

   

WEEKEND AT AUSTIN, TEXAS.............................. 

I feel in love with Austin....................
So much that I want to move to Austin in the future.  There is so much to do.  I went by myself.......
My friend Melinda told me that I am so brave to go by myself.  I wonder now, Am I take a risk by going by myself to place like that.  I sometimes go to happy hour or dinner someplace by myself.  I wonder........

The drive is about 4 hours, going to Austin and try to locate the hotel.  I got lost.  Michael called me at the right time.  Oh, I went to go and spent some time with Michael.  I meet Michael a while back.  We talked last Thursday, and he asked me to come over.  I told him that I was free this pass weekend, so I made my plans and reservations and token off.....  So is that brave of me?

We had a great time........
I am still smiling and laughing.  I did make new friends too.  I meet Chris and Beth on Friday night.  Yep the first night, Beth told me about the Art Festival going on at 6th street.  Which I had plan to go to 6th street.  Austin is known for 6th street, bar hopping, college students, and great bands...  
Just a big party street....... So I wanted to go.
I was only able to spend Friday night with Michael, so I made plans to meet up with Beth on Saturday at 6th street.  Will she was not able to meet up with me till dinner time then we went bar hopping.  I did get to shop and had my hair done.  There was a lady doing French braids which I have been wanting my hair braided.  I have pictures but I have not uploaded them.  I will soon.
Now, Beth had a friend, use to be her boyfriend, years back and still good friends.  Well, When Bobby went to the bathroom.  Beth told me that he cheated on her and that is why she broke it off with her.  So I knew that he does this, cheat.  I say this because by the end of the night, he was hitting on me.  Though the night he would whisper in my eye because the bands' were loud.  But at the last club, that is when he made his move.  Beth went to the bath. Well, He whisper in my ear that I was beautiful and he wanted to kiss me.  I told him that I could not plus I did not want to hurt Beth's feelings.  I looked away, and then I felt his hand on my knee.  When I was moving his hand from my knee.  Beth walks in and saw what was happening.  I turn away while She told Bobby something.  Then she went to the front door; I did not realize where she went.  Bobby once again whispered in my eye that he wanted to kiss me.  I again told him no and got up to see where Beth was.  I thought that she was ordering other drink but when I could not find her.  I then realized that she went outside.  So I token off to go and look for her.  She was outside and when I saw her; I apologized.  She told me that she was not upset with me.  That she was upset with Bobby because he was doing it in front of her.  I told her that I could not do that.  I could not hurt her feelings.  She was very upset with Bobby.  She gave me a ride to my car and gave me a hug and then she left.
I sent a text message to her and I plan on calling her tonight.  I hope she is not upset with me, and that she still wants to be my friend.  She was a very sweet lady.  I am glad I meet her......


Now, for today's drama........
My son's day care called me this morning around 11:30.  DJ was in the office.  He has biten a girl at the playground, and now had push a girl in the lunch room.  They had him there because they wanted me to talk to him on the phone.  3 years old and is being sent to the office....   OH MY.....
So I talked to him and told him that he was in trouble.  He needs to stop hitting, biting and to be a good boy.  Well, Marco gets back on the phone and tells me that if other incident happens that they will be calling me or my Ex to pick up DJ.  UGH........

I called the Ex to let him know what was going on and that they might call him to pick him up.  Plus Itold him that I was going to look for a therapist for DJ.

I need to do something, and I am feeling like the day care can't or qualified to help me.  So my next step look for a therapist for DJ........

Well, I need to go and study.  I have my last test tomorrow morning.  Then I will have 2 1/2 weeks off........

Till next time......