<sigh>..............

Now I wish I had a man, who would feel that way about me.........  I melt..........

I heard this song and fell in love with it.  I did not realize it till I looked at my cd collection that I already purchased the cd; lovely........

The girlfriend is stirring things again.................

My ex called me yesterday, and I did not want to talk to him.  Which I am glad now because I have everything he said on voicemail.  I can not believe that he believe everything that comes out of that girlfriends mouth.......
I did try to call him back, but he did not answer.  Which was good because I really did not want to argue with him.  But I was pissed.

I talked to the girlfriends ex husband back when the girlfriend accused me of grabbing her.  Now I regret talking to him, but I am not sure what he said to the girlfriend to cause all this.  My ex did not give me all the info about what was going on in the voicemail.  He said that he could not believe that I would in open court say that BOTH and he stressed 'both' girls were gay and some about child molestation.  He was not clear about everything, but I was worry about what the girls had heard......... 

So I called the girls to talk to them.  I did not get into detail with them.  I did not want to be seen as the bad guy and showing that I hate the girlfriend.  I do not want it to back fire on me.  But they did not know what I was talking about, but I told them that if they needed to talk to me about anything to call me.........  I hope they do.
I hope they will not be like dad and believe everything that the girlfriend is saying.  I mean what about what I have to say about what she is saying........  My word...... Me......

I can not believe that I am dealing with this.....
I was coming to terms about my ex moving on and living with the girlfriend; wanting peace.......
and now the girlfriend is feeling so insecure that she has to play games......

I could see how she wants my ex to think that I am the bad guy; the reason why he left me, so he will not feel the same feeling that he felt for me.  So I have not contact him.  I will let it be....  that I am the bad guy.

Once, she sees I am out of the picture.  She will have something else to feel insecure and do her gameplaying on that and hopefully my ex will see her for what she is...... CRAZY.........

Thank You, Daniella......  for emailing me. 

You helped me stay together........

It is rained and thundering....................

as I type this....  It is so nice........ 
We have not had rain for awhile, so the rain is needed.
I had Thelma over last night.  I made dinner, and we had wine.  We almost finish the bottle, or I should say that I almost finish the bottle.  Sometime wine makes me sleepy which was nice because I have not been able to sleep well.  But I was in bed by 9 pm, and now I am up at 4 am......

Oh Well......
I need to get ready for school and see if I could do some homework before school starts.

Did I tell you that one of my class did not make, UGH.......  So I had to look online for other class, but I did find a class that I could take online....  something new for the school, so I will see how it goes.......

I hoping that these next 6 weeks go by so fast......
I was enjoying my break......  Plus in 6 weeks, DJ will be with dad for the month, but I know that all I will be doing is worrying about him.  In the house with the girlfriend and dad for 1 month........  I wish I didn't have to let him go....  but it is in the divorce decree.  He has to be with dad for a month in the summer.... UGH.......

Till next time.......