THE DAY HAS COME.....................

My EX called me today to give me news.........
He is engaged to her.
What comes out of my mouth.  Guess........

Ok, I told him Congrads........  and Best of Luck.
Yep, I did stop to see how I felt, and nothing. 
Absolutely Nothing......
It is over with him.  I know if he would ask to come back, to work things out again.  I know for sure it would be "No."  I don't love him anymore.........
It is 8 months since the divorce and has been 1 1/2 years separated.  How time flys.........
I do feel something.  Sadness because the guy I fell in love with is no long the guy I see before me.  It like the man I loved is dead in a sense because he still lives but is not the man I loved.
I do wish them the Best, but I know that it will not last.

The sadness is what I deal with now......  Wondering if I will ever find that in someone else.  How I long for it......
I believe I will find it again........  I believe.........

I did get into it with my ex about the kids.  He also told me that the girlfriend is going to speak with her ex about switch the weekends. 
UGH.........  so I told him that he does not understand.
And I tried to explain to him.......
Here I go, Sabrina feeling and told her dad that she does not feeling like a family or that he loves her or that he does not tell her that she is pretty, etc, etc......
I told him that she is jealous about how my ex treats the girlfriends girls and she see how he is with them and how he was not like that with them.  That is why she is jealous and how he does not see it......
So I told him, DJ has all your attention right now because the girlfriends girls are not there, in which he needs that because if he has to see that like Sabrina is seeing it.  How will DJ react to that when he does not know how to tell us if he feels that way.
I told him that I would think about switch in a year after DJ has adjusted to everything.  But all he would do was to tell me how I did not see things. He would go on and on....
I finally told him that I was wasting my breath, and I was tried of it, and I was hang up the phone, and so I did.
Why can't he ever put his kids first........ Jerk.........
It's all about him.  Not anymore for me..........
My kids will be first to me, and I will be here to help DJ with the adjustment, even if it is with the girlfriends girls there.

I spoke with Michael tonight.  He told me the sweeties compliment.  We were talk about this coming weekend.  I asked him if he remember what was coming up this week.  He told me my birthday.  He remembered and them said your turning 25.  I told him I wish but no.  He then said 27, 28 or what age.  I laughed and told him Thank You, but I am turning 37.  He then told me that I had a baby face.  I laughed again, and then I started singing, Baby face, You got the cutest Baby face.  He asked me if I remember that song.  Yes, I do. 
Wasn't that so sweet of him.......
The best compliment and even singing involved with it.
He made me smile so...... just what I need.

Well, I better go.  I know I said I would post the birthday pictures, but I had to write this.  I will post tomorrow.

Till next time......
   

IT IS A MONDAY......  SOMEONE PASS ME SOME COFFEE OR RED BULL...

I need some sleep, I was up late last night with Michael.
He was out of town and I was too.  We have not been able to spend some time together till last night.
It is going to be a month since I met him.  How time flys when you're having fun.
I spent the night at his place, and it feels so good to snuggle.  He makes me feel so good about everything.  He makes me smile and laugh; just what I need.  I was sleeping while he showered and dressed.  When he came into the room; he kisses me on my cheek. He is so sweet to me. If only we could spent more time together.  I know with time........

As for the rest of my weekend.................
<<<<<<MY SON TURNED 4 on Saturday.......>>>>>>
My big boy.........
My ex had the kids this weekend, but I did get the kids on Saturday for his birthday party, I had for him.  I went to San Antonio on Thursday and Friday, drove back to Corpus Saturday morning.  I know, I know..... Crazy.
But I went to see Clay Walker in concert, Friday night.  But I did go shopping Friday morning.  I bought DJ this cute shirt with some shorts.  I dressed him with the shirt and shorts for his birthday party.  I will post the picture tonight, but he looked so GQ style.  Too Cute..........
Not to many people showed up for his party.  I only had one child from his daycare, and my baby brother and his family came late, along with my friend Melinda.  My friends, Amy and Mando came with their kids.  She sometime babysit DJ, and Mando works with the Ex.  So ti was a small party.  He had a great time...........  And Brenda Lee took the pictures at the party.

The concert was great.......
We were so close to the stage, and he was throwing his gutiar picks to the crowd.  And guess what......
I caught one.......  I forgot to take my camera.......
So I do not have pictures to share. Darn it.......
I am so upset with my friend/boss, Kristy.  You see; we are close, close, but yet she is my boss.  I asked her to go with me to the concert.  She had plans to go to Austin on Thursday, so she was going to be in that directions, and plus she told me yes, that she would travel down to San Antonio on Friday to go to the concert. So I also got a hotel for Friday, so we would not have to travel back home that night.  I  would wake up in the morning and travel back to Corpus for the party.  I did not hear from Kristy all day.  I called her and called her.  She never returned my call.  So, Friday night at 7pm when the concert was going to start, and I still had not heard from Kristy.  I called my Ex's cousin; who lives in San Antonio and still talk to her off and on.  So Ronnie came with me to the concert.  But I still have not heard from Kristy. I know she must feel bad on what she did, and can't face me.  But she can hide forever.  She is my boss, but as friend she has hurt me, and still has not apolgize.  I was bumped out about this, this weekend.  I really think she is a cool friend, but she has hurt me.

My ex just left my work place.  He came over to dropped off DJ's suitcase.  He is back home today.......
I am so happy; I have missed him.  But the girls were over this morning at my work place, and they told me they were going to miss him.  So I am glad they had this time with him, plus DJ had this time with his dad.  But getting back to the discussion with my ex this morning.  He asked me about changing the weekend.  Which I told him 'No,' which the girls told me that he told them that he would have DJ this weekend.  So he knew I was going to say no, but yet he still asked.  I did asked him if he could have DJ on all night on Thursay which is the weekday vistation day.  He said that he couldn't; he was in enough trouble at work to keep this up, so basically he juggled throught getting DJ to daycare and him being at work in the morning.  Which I knew, but you know what.......
The mothers deal with that issue.  My Ex took advantage of that.  He would say that he had..... to work, and I had to deal with that.  So now that we are divorce, he has to deal with it.....  I felt like tell him.... Not easy, huh....
But I didn't.  I should have........
Anyway it is over and done with, at least for this year.

There is alot more I need to whine about, but I will do it at other time......
Till next time.....
  

Yesterday was a mess.........

I ran around and took care of things that I had been putting off.  Plus DJ had a dental appointment.  I should have been more prepared.  This is their family dentist before the divorce.  They are so friendly, and we had been seeing them like forever. I walked in, and we were taken to the room.  Michelle has been there since we have been going there.  She walked into the room and told me that she was not aware that David and I were divorce.  She must have been the last one to know at the office.  Strange......  But I told her I was doing good.  Life is going on....

I did not realize how this really affected me.  I kept hear those words; I am doing good......  but yesterday I went for a run.  I was listening to Tim McGraw,  'My Little Girl' went I start to cry.  I remember the pain I went through.  All my hopes and dreams I had for David and I, and how quickly it was gone.......

How I feel so alone right now......
Wonder if I will every find someone to share my hopes and dreams with.

But most of all, how I feel so alone.........
to be connected, so close........
I remember that........
I wish I had that back, but I know I will not have it with David.
That is lost forever.......

I did talk to my ex last night.  He was out of town, but I wanted to talk to him because Brenda Lee called me on Monday night asking to come over.  I told her yes to come over.  Well, 30 minutes had passed, and she still had not arrived.  So I called David.  He did not answer, so I waited awhile and called him again.  He still did not answer, so I called again.  This time he answered; I asked him if Brenda Lee had left already because she has not arrived.  He said that she was still there, and they were having a talk.  She would call me when she was leaving.

Well, she came over.  I made her dinner.  We sat and eat, but she did not say much, so I did not asked what was going on.  She watch tv and then went to bed.

Last night when I talked to David.  I asked him what was going on.  He said that Brenda Lee ran up the Cell phone bill up again, and He took her cell phone away from her.  They had a good talk, and he thinks she is coming around.  He has been on her case about getting a job, until then he would not keep pay for things.  He said that a couple of weeks back, she was upset and throw her cell phone to the wall.  It still works except for the screen on the phone.  She has been asking dad to buy her a new one, and he has been asking her to get a job, so she could buy a new one.  Things like this is what is going on with David and Brenda Lee.

He did also tell me about Sabrina.........
This is goood.......
Apparently, Sabrina told dad that he is fault for everything.  She does not feel like a family; he does not tell her that she is beautiful or that he loves her.  She let him have it......
David said he was shocked....  I can not believe him......
He can not see what he has done........
I think she is feeling a little jealous of how David is treating his girlfriends girl compare to them.  But I do not blame her.  I do blame David.  He just does not see things, and he is shocked... Jerk.......  but this is something that David and Sabrina will have to work out.  And now that the therapist is in the picture; I could sit back a little.

I tried to talk to David because he kept saying that Sabrina does not do things and for her to be say that was wrong.  He says that they ask her to go place with them, and when they are there.  She is asking to go back home.  He says that he does tell her that he loves her; it is Sabrina that is not realizing things.
I tried talking to him, but I know how he gets when he gets that way.....
Anyway, there is so much you can do, and the rest has to be with the other person.........

It hurts me to see that my girls are hurting this way.......
They are trying to get a voice but not knowing how.......
They are growing up and see that...... 
It is hard to see in their eyes that life can be cruel......
to see the pain, when I feel the pain they are going through......

Just keep movin'  Just keep movin'

Is all I could do.......
Till next time.......

  

My oldest at Prom 2006

 

Haley, Danielle and Brenda Lee.......

                                At the airport coming home,
                 I found this toy for my little man.
                 He loves it..........
                 Southwest Airlines, what I fly.......

                 And I finally did it.......
                 My son is now sleeping in a bed.
                 He is about to be 4 years old, next Sat.
                 And he was still sleeping in a crib....
                 He is my baby........
                 And my last..........
                 Was trying to keep him that way.
                 But I know he is growing up.

                 I did take him to pick out his sheets, etc..
                 And what does he pick..............
                 Superman.............  Boys.

                 The pictures show the date 7/23/06
                 becausewe were up late last night......
                 My friend Melinda was over and 
                 color and highlighting my hair.........
                 Also Brenda Lee came over last night.
                 She called me around 9:30 pm.....
                 She apologize that she did not call earlier.
                 But she wanted to come over........ 
                 She came over and help set up DJ's bed
                 and railing.
                 Then she just hanged out..........
                 After my friend left,
                 I sat with her and watch tv.
                 I did ask her if she was ok..........
                 And she said yes.
                 Sabrina did not come over.
                 MY ex call while Brenda Lee was heading
                 to my apartment.
                 He said that Sabrina wanted to practice
                 her flute.
                 Summer Band starts this coming week.
                 And he said the girls have been practicing.
                 The pass Monday,
                 when I had the girls over for dinner.
                 Sabrina and Brenda Lee had said
                 They would call me to set up plans
                 for this weekend.......
                 So that is why Brenda Lee was apologizing.
                 At least one out of the two called.

                 Today, DJ has a birthday party to attend.
                 One of his classmates.
                 I asked Brenda Lee to go with me.
                 I do not know the parents.
                 But it was an excuse to have her come.
                 I know how to make friends with parents.
                 But I wanted her to come along.

                 The ex and I had an appointment
                  with the therapist on Friday.

                 She will be seeing Sabrina on Monday.
                 The appointment went well.....
                 My ex did most of the talking but 
                 He needed too........
                 He knows how the girls are acting.....
                 I am feeling so left out......
                 When it comes to the girls.
                 I miss them so much.........
                 but hate the drama.........
                 I know it will get better.


                 Ok, now I am changing the subject.
                 I need some advice..........
                 My ex has visitation on 1st, 3rd and 5th
                 of every weekend.
                 He wants to see if I would change that.
                 He would like to have the 2nd, 4th and 5th.
                 The reason.............
                 His girlfriends girls visit dad
                 on the 1st, 3rd and 5th......
                 When my ex has DJ.
                 So, they have kids every weekend.
                 He also told me that.....
                 In the future, if I start dating someone
                 with kids and has the same visitation.
                 It will work out the same for us.......

                 Right now, I am not dating someone
                 who has young kids..............
                
                 Plus this pissed me off...........
                 He is the one who did this mess......
                 Why should I change something.....
                 to please him.............
                 He has some nerve.........

                 You know, when I have DJ
                 and something has come up...........
                 I get a babysitter...........
                 Plus why do I want my son
                 to be with her kids.........
                 When right now,
                 he has his father's full attention.
                 I have been going over and over with this.
                 And it pisses me more off
                 that he even suggested it............
                 But I do wonder.......
                 If I do start to date someone with kids.
                 How would it be.............
                 Plus I could ask him again
                 if this becomes a question for me.
                 I know my ex will be for it but.....
                 then I know.........
                 that DJ will not get dad's attention.
                 This is hard..........

                  Please give me your input..........


                 Till next time.............
                  

 

I would like to answer Delaine questions:

Comment from: blueblueandblew
"Dang Brin, the little seamstress you were, good job, they look good.
Thanks for sharing these, I really enjoyed seeing them.
Thats crazy how your grandmother looked all mad in the pic. So what about your parents, you have spoke of your mom a bit, not too much.
Your brothers and sister, are you close to them, where do they live?
Have a nice weekend, Delaine"


First, Thank You, I learned to sew by watching my mother and other grandmother (dad's mom), but I did take a home economics class in junior high school.
As for my grandmother, she was upset because my mother was pg with my brother, and she was only 16 years old.  She hated my father for doing that, even though my mother had something to do about that too.......
It was disappointment.  To this date, she still feels that way.  When I was visiting her, she would say that she did not want my mother to marry my father.  She made visit difficult.  If I remember correctly, we always came home early because dad and grandma would argue.  It was hard, and still hard.  Grandma can't get over it after so many years and now that they are divorce.
As for my mother, for a couple of years I did not speak to my mother.  That was during my marriage, yes the pass repeats.  My Ex did not wanting me to talk to her because of how she treated me.  My mother in someway did the same thing to my grandmother and I did it to my mother.  She did the best she could to raise me.  And I see that now.  I was young, and in love with my ex and would do anything for him.  I was young and though I knew everything........  I did not.
I know that I have only one mother and I love her for who she is; her flaws and her beauty.  Just like I am......
I hope to find that special someone who would love me like that......

Speaking of someone special; I am on Match.com and I recieved an email from this guy. The only problem is that he lives in Waco about a 4 hour drive.  We did finally chat online, and he is so sweet.  I will see where this will lead to; if anything.

So back to the questions:
MY brothers and sister......
My baby brother, Thomas (Tommy) just moved to Corpus, so he is near by.  I sometimes have lunch with him when I can.  He is married and has a boy and a girl.  It is nice to have them near by.  We are trying to get the kids together more.
My older brother, Andy and Sammy live in Alice, where my mother and father live at.  They are married and have kids.  I do not see them often.  They were mean to me when I was growing up, so I am not close to them.  I do see them off and on.
As for my only sister, Melinda.  She lives in Alice too.  I am close to her, but we are going through hard times.  She is dealing with things and I am too.......  She was going through a divorce the sametime I was going through one, strange, huh.  She is live with this loser.....  and I tried talking to her about that, but she is not listening; has to learn the hard way.  I have tried and that is all I could do.....  I worry more for the kids......
But we still talk to each other off and on.

     

Gary Allan.....
On fathers day, I linked this song, but I have the song now.  So this song is for all those father on JLand.
I just love this one.......

Till next time......
   

O.K.  HERE ARE THE PICTURES THAT I GOT FROM MY GRANDMOTHER........

NICE.....

TILL NEXT TIME.....
   

I wanted to share this; Cyndy sent it to me.

       Something to think about

The best kind of friend is the kind you can sit on a porch and swing with, never say a word, and then walk away feeling like it was the best conversation you've ever had.

It's true that we don't know what we've got until we lose it, but it's also true that we don't know what we've been missing until it arrives

Giving someone all your love is never an assurance that they'll love you back! Don't expect love in return; just wait for it to grow in their heart but if it doesn't, be content it grew in yours. It takes only a minute to get a crush on someone, an hour to like someone, and a day to love someone, but it takes a lifetime to forget someone.

Don't go for looks; they can deceive. Don't go for wealth; even that fades away. Go for someone who makes you smile because it takes only a smile to make a dark day seem bright. Find the one that makes your heart smile.

May you have enough happiness to make you sweet, enough trials to make you strong, enough sorrow to keep you human, enough hope to make you happy.

 

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Put yourself in others' shoes. If you feel that it hurts you, it probably hurts the other person, too.

 

 

The happiest of people don't necessarily have the best of everything; they just make the most of everything that comes along their way.

 

Happiness lies for those who cry, those who hurt, those who have searched, and those who have tried, for they can appreciate the importance of people who have touched their lives.

 

When you were born, you were crying and everyone around you was smiling. Live your life so that when you die, you're the one who is smiling and everyone around you is crying.





BRENDA

 

No hang-over, but dragging..........

My bosses friend was having a good-bye party for her sister who is moving to San Antonio, and they invited me to go.  So I went, but before we went to the party.  My friend Susan and I had dinner and drank the wine that I brought from Grapevine.  We drank the whole bottle........  It was so good.........

Well, we get to the party, and I drink more wine there.  I did leave early, but I met up with Melinda at the bar she goes too.  And there is where I drank too much.......  I did make it home at midnight.

And now I am dragging.........
I drank some coffee this morning; on my second cup.  But I think I need a Red Bull.  If you have one; please pass it my way........ LOL........

  

I have plans with Michael tonight.  Can't wait........

 

All my; I just remember something that happen last night......
After midnight when I got home and brush my teeth and into my pj.  Passing out......  my phone rings and I answer.  It was Clinton.  This morning when I woke up.  I thought I dreamed it, but looking into my call history.  Nope, he called me at 1:32 am.......  Oh My, I can't remember what I told him, hehehehe.......  LOL.....  Men......

 

Well, till next time........
  

Boy, it was nice to see my grandparents and uncles and aunts.  I can not believe that a week ago; I was in Amarillo.

                         

O.K........

Picture No. 5: that is the one of my mom and brothers and sister.  I was around 10 years old. My mother was around 29 years old.  She was skinny at that time.  I wish she was like that right now because of her health.  My mom has diabetes and high blood pressure.  She is taking pills for her diabetes.  She is over-overweight, and I worry about her.

              

Picture No. 17: The dress........
It is very low cut, but I love it......... 
I just feel so sexy in it, hehehe.......

Picture No. 19: Harley Davidson.....
Yes, I went riding with Tommy again.  Nice........

Picture No. 22: Ricky......
Oh My, big mistake......  but he was cute.
Judy was dancing with him first.  Late, he asked to dance with me, and it was hip-hop.  Yes, Cowboys would play hip-hop now and then.  But I made the mistake of dancing to close to him; if you know what I mean.  Dirty Dancing; remember that movie....  I fell in love with Patrick Swayze.  He knew how to move those hips. 
Well, Ricky did too....  He did say something on the dance floor that throw me for a loop.  He said that he almost came on the dance floor, hehehe.......  It was hot......
But he was too strange because later that night he said something else that I was shocked that he even said that.
You see; after our dirty dancing.  He sticked to me like glue.  I know after that dancing......
But he would asked if we could go somewhere to talk or do something else.  I kept asking him what he had in mind.  He didn't......  But later, he comment: Let's go and throw your legs up in the air.  Yes, he did.......
By this time I had to much to drink because I was not driving.  Tommy was so I planned to have a good time, but I was not able to respond to that comment.  The red flags came up, and I made sure I was not alone with him.  He did ask Judy and Tommy to leave Cowboys and do something.  I looked at Judy and was shaking my head 'No'.  We left Cowboys that night, but I forgot about what he said till the next morning.  Driving home that night, I did tell Judy and Tommy that I did not feel comfortable with him, but like I said I did not remember what he said till next morning.

So next time I decide to dirty dance with someone.  It will be someone I know........  Lesson Learned.......

              

Picture No. 23: Policeman......
Leaving Cowboys; Judy saw this Policeman.  She goes up to him and ask to take a picture with her.  He said yes, but she stands next to him then she steps back to check out his ass then she said, "Hum, hummmmmm......"  The policeman smiles.  Then Judy grabs his face and licks, Yes, lick his face, so that is what she is doing there..... LOL.......  too funny.  Once in the car, I tell her that we are luck that we did not get arrested, but you could tell that she made his night....... LOL.......
I had too much fun.........

               

Picture No. 32: the sidewalk judge at Grapevine.......
I was playing around.......

Picture No. 37: D' Vine Wine.........
We did wine tasting.  It was 3 taste for $5, so we decide to do different one and at the end of our tasting.  We have 9 different wine tasting.  Nice.......  by the end we had a glass of wine; all together.  I did bring back a bottle of the wine I like the most.  Midnight Merlot.  I was waiting for my aunt Liz and uncle Roy to arrive to pick me up.  Well, whenthey got there.  They decide to get a glass of wine, and I joined them so an other glass for me.  Then I arrive at my aunts house, and she fixes me a drink.  My favorite drink, Whiskey sours, by the end of the night, I had 3 whiskey sours.  I had fun on my mini-vacation, but I was not driving, so I drank......

                    

Picture No. 42:  My kids.......
I did get with my kids that Monday I was back in town.  I made dinner and invited them over.  It was nice.......
But they did not talk that much.  I did show them the pictures I took and gave them the gifts I brought for them.  It was nice that they did come over after the way they acted to me the last time.  One of these days, I will need to talk to them about that and other things.

My ex did call me yesterday to talk about the kids.  He told me something that has me so worried.  Brenda Lee woke him up yesterday morning at 4 am.  Apparently, the girls had been up all night and were arguing.  So Brenda Lee finally woke my ex and told him what was happening.  Brenda Lee received a phone call from a friend of hers and Sabrina.  He called to tell her that he reads her 'myspace.com site' and he was worried about what he read in there.  He told her that Sabrina wrote that when she was living with me that she cut herself once.  She did it on purpose.  My ex did talk to her, and she said that she has not done it anymore.  She wanted to feel pain and for me to see it which I did not even.  I did not notice; I feel bad that I did not even notice.  But I did tell my ex that I want her to see the therapist, so I set up our appointment.  They want to see the parents first before they see the child, so they get a picture of what we think is going on with the child.

The way I see it:  She tryed this about a year ago and she does see that it hurt bad.  So I believe she will not try this again, but on the other hand.  She is talk about it and why.

Well, I better go, need to do some work.....
Till next time.....
  

Here are some pictures.....

I am tried, but I will write about them tomorrow.....

Till next time....

~BRIN

THERE'S NO PLACE LIKE HOME........

I did enjoy myself.  This was a needed break, so much needed..........

My grandparents are wonderful.  My grandpa is 79 and my grandma is 76.  They are old but for their age; they are doing good.  My grandma called my mother the first night I was there and told her that she has me now and was not letting me go.  She misses me so much.  We look alike.  I have pictures of them, but I needed to upload.  I will be doing that tonight.  Oh, I also got some pictures of my family: my mother and dad plus my brother and sister.  I had my friend Tommy scanned them and edited them because they are old.  He also burned them on to a cd, so I could go to Wal-Mart and make copy for my brother and sister.

But I have pictures and pictures of everyone......
I had so much fun; it was so nice to catch up with my grandparents and uncles and aunts.  It was short but I did alot for the little time I had.

I was traveling home when Michael called me.  We were playing phone tag because of the plane ride; Cell phones in the off position.  I did finally get to talk to him, and we made plans to get together.  It was so nice......  I talked to him about my trip, and I was able to give him the present I bought him.  I found a picture frame of a bone with a hook, so he could hang his dog leash.  I wanted to buy other gift for Michael.  You see he is a big 'DALLAS COWBOYS' fan.  He has his guest bedroom decorated with Dallas Cowboys stuff; bed sheets, curtain, etc....  At the Dallas airport on Wednesday when I was flying to Amarillo, I found a store of Dallas Cowboy Stuff from hats to shirts and glass mugs.  I wanted the mugs for Michael, but I decide I would wait to purchase it when I returned from Amarillo.  When I returned I decide to wait till I left for Corpus.  I did not want to carry this mug around, and I would be returning to leave back to Corpus.  I would be able to purchase it at that time.  Well, It was closed on Sunday evening.......  Just my luck........
I had told Michael what had happened.  He told me that it was the thought that counts.  Wasn't that sweet of him......  He did like the bone frame.  LOL.... He said he would need to get a picture of the Pebbles and Princess.  And he would hang it up.

I also got a present for my boss.  I will take a picture of it and posted it tonight, but it is a crown plank with the words: Wine Goddess; all I do is whine, whine, whine.  Not that I am saying she whines, she does not.  I just thought it was cute and she would love it. I hope.......

Anyway, I am happy my trip went well, and that I am back home........
Till next time.......
   

My mini-vacation is going well........

Spending time with my grandma and grandpa was great, but they just had so many questions about the ex and the kids. 

I realize that everyone choices how badly one can hurt you, and the worst hurt feelings are for your kids.......
Talking to my grandparents about my kids was hard.  I felts so bad, for my kids and myself...... 
Where did I go wrong.......

I did get some old pictures of my parents and my brother and sister plus me; when we were young.....
Can't wait to upload these photos......

Well, I am tried.  I am going to take a nap.....
Yep, a nap....  We are planning to go to 'COWBOYS' tonight again........  And we will be out late..... so a nap I need.....

Till next time.....

  

 

6 1/2 HOURS.......

Yep..... It took me only 6 1/2 hours to drive from Corpus Chrisit to Fort Worth.  It was a beautiful day to drive.....

I left Corpus at 5:30 and arrived at midnight.  It was so cool.....  but I have never seen so many 18 wheelers.  After leaving Austin, every minute I would see them.  Driving by them scared me, especially at night.  I did love the drive and listening to my music.  I had some CD's that I had burned about 5 years ago and listening to them took me back in time.

Just to name a few songs: Hotel California, Freeze Frame, Jessie's Girl, Come Sail Away, and I will Survive.  Boy did I have fun......  It is just what I needed...... At time, I was bopping my head like the guys from 'Wayne's World'.  Do you all remember that movie?  I can't remember which song I was bopping my head to, but I remember think that.

Well, Till next time.....
   

MY GRADES ARE IN..............
  
A 'B' FOR MY ART ELECTIVE IN 'HISTORY OF ROCK & ROLL' AND A 'B' FOR CIVIL LITIGATION II.
 
  

Well, I will be leaving for my mini-vacation as soon as I get out of work today.......

I am burning my CD's because I rented a car to drive to Fort Worth.  I rather take copy of my CD's just in case I loose them.  But I am so excited about my road trip.....
I love to just get out and drive; on good weather......
And boy what weather we are having.......
I can not wait to get into my car and just drive.......
Plus listening to all my CD's....

Lisa Jo, you would be proud of me......
I have a mixer of music to hear......  some 80's, some heavy metal, and some country.  I am so ready to pop in that CD and drive away.  My time to think things through.......
And what better way to do it, then with music and the road to possibilities.  Can't wait......

Well, Till next time.......

   

This picture was taken on Jan. 1985.

I was so young......

Well, I talked to Michael...................

He invited me over to his place yesterday evening.  We sat around and chatted.  Then we took his dogs to the park by the water.  We had to travel, so we took his Jeep.    Princess is a mixed; not to sure of what.  Pebbles is a beagle, but she weights about 18 pounds....... 

Apparently, Pebbles sits in the front where I was sitting, so I had to have her on my lap.  Princess sat in the back seat all by herself.  She would hang head over to the side to catch the wind in her face; so cute.  We were able to see the sunset and the moon rising.  It was a beautiful night.  It was........

Michael and I have so much in common.  He likes to ride his bike, to play tennis.  Last night, he asked me if I would like a beer, which I do not drink.  He offer me wine, which I drink.  And which wine did he have, my favorite; Moscato.  I could go on and on, but I do enjoy being with him.  I just wish we had more time for each other.  Will see how things turn out.

Yesterday, my ex came to pick up DJ.  Well, let me start this with what happen on Thursday.  I spoke with him on Thursday.  He told me that Sabrina, the baby girl had plans to come over this past weekend.  I told him that she had not called me about it or that the girls have not called me.  I have not talked to them since 2 weekend.  Oh, I did talk to Brenda Lee on July the 4th about my homework assignment, but nothing about the weekend.  Well, he told me that he would tell her to call me.  On Friday, he called me back to tell me that the girls decide to go with them to San Antonio.  The girlfriend's older daughter was going to have a swim meet there, so he was calling me to let me know that they were not going to come over.  In fact, he was going to take them to his real mother's house.  You see my ex is adopted and barely talks or sees to his real mother.  When we were married; I was the one to make the effort to take the kids to visit there grandma.  This hit me, plus I know that he was going to be introducing the girlfriend to his real mother.  I did tell him that that was very nice of him to take the girls to visit with Linda (the ex-MIL), but I thought that he should take DJ too.  I told him that it has been along time since she had seem them, and he should take DJ.  He said no that he would make plans again and take DJ at other time.  I told him that he should do it now that he had the plans set because the last time I took them was about 3 years.  He said no he would make the plans again.....  I know him he will not.  The only reason he went this time was because of the girlfriend's daughter swim meet.  I know they stayed with Linda even though he did not tell me that, but I know that is the only reason why they were at Linda's.  If the girls decide to visit with me this pass weekend.  I know that he would have not taken any of the kids with him to visit with their grandma, but the girls did decide to go, so that is why they saw Linda.  I just know it........

Well to get to where I was going with this........
He called me at 3pm; I missed his called and he left a voice mail.  He said that if I was still going to keep DJ till Monday.  You see.  I told him that I had plans for Sunday evening, but I wanted to see DJ on Monday before I left out of town.  Yep, my trip is coming.......    I called him back and told him that I had told him that I had plans for Sunday night.  I had told him about it.  He said Oh yes, I remember.  Well, We will be leaving San Antonio and I will rush to pick DJ up.  Can't believe him......  the things he will try.  Well, he picked DJ up at 6 pm, and the girls were with him.  He called me when he was heading into my apartment, so I could meet him outside because he was going to use my carseat because he did not have his.  No planning ahead..... just like him.

Well, when I went downstairs; my ex was driving up.  I head for my car to get the carseat.  The girls did not even get out of the car to say hello to me.  They just waved at me to say hello.  Sabrina did say that she was going to get out, but she saw that I headed for the car to get the carseat.  That is no excuse; she should had gone out.  I was so upset......  Why aremy girls acting and treating me this way......  This is so even fair........
I could see my ex tell my girls that I was going to be gone this coming week and they should say hello.  But they sat in there seat......  I did waved to them.  I blow a kiss to my son and turned around to walk the sidewalk to my apartment.  I am not going to stand this treatment.  They need to put some effort.  They need to understand that I am moving on with my life, and if they want to be in it.  They need to put some effort in it........

So I was glad to hear from Michael that night.  I was planning to go out to this hangout I heard about, but that changed once I heard from Michael........ 
It turn out to be a beautiful night......

So now to finish my planning for the trip.  I will be driving to Fort Worth.  I can not wait for my road trip.  I love to travel, so I will be renting a car to drive to FW, then I will fly to Amarillo; visit my grandma, grandpa and my aunt.  I will fly back on Friday morning to spend the weekend in FW and Dallas; with my aunt Liz.  Then I will fly back on Sunday night.  I can not wait.......  I so need this trip.

Well, Till next time......

 

FIRST..........

I want to wish All the Best of Luck to: Daniella and Kevin.

The ups and downs of me.

Her wedding was yesterday.  I am sorry, I have not called.  I image you would not have time.  I will call you soon.  Be Happy........ You deserve it.

On Friday night, I was at my cousin, she invited DJ and I to dinner with all my other cousins, and my brother Sammy and his wife and kids were there.   It was nice to spend some time with them.  You see; my ex would not like for me to spend time with my family.  He would hold me back from my family, so now that I am free......  I am spending time with them.  Plus DJ is getting to know his cousins. 

It is funny, but I felt old......  I turn to my aunt and told her that.  I remember when we: my cousin and I were the kids running around and causing trouble, and my parents and uncle and aunts were visiting.  Now, I am the one sit at the table visiting while the kids are causing the troubles.  It was fun though.......

Yesterday, my friend Susan called me.  We made plans to take the kids to the beach and have a picnic.  We went after 5 pm, so that explains the sunset picture.  It was very beautiful and not too hot.  The kids enjoyed the beach, and we were able to catch up.  I miss her so much.  Now that I live in Corpus, it is so hard to get together.

I have not heard from Michael, but I figure it was not meant to be.  I am not giving up, but I am feeling so lonely.  Will I ever find someone to spend time with me?  Will I find Mr. Right?  I know it will happen, but I hate eating alone, or going to the movies alone, just doing anything alone.......   I am not going to be desperate, but I am starting to read Dr. Phil's book: Love Smart, so will see how it goes.

I bought a new bed frame; finally....... plus I was playing around with the camera.  Tell what you all think?

Well, I better go. I have not been wanting to write.  I have notice.  There is a lot more going on, but I just do not want to get into it.......
Till next time........
 

        
School is finally over............

My Summer break started at 11 a.m. this morning.  It took me 2 1/2 hours to finish my final exam........

Boy, I was so happy........
But I come out of my classroom and into showers......
It has been rainy here.....  and rainy......
Yesterday, it flood in front of my apartment entrance.  I had to wait for about 30 minutes..... UGH.......
I am missing my son so much......  I have so much to talk about, I do not know where to start.

Highlights, good highlights first, right......
Well, two weeks ago, I went to .38 special concert.  My friend called me and told me; She had tickets for this event.  She did not know that they were going to play.  She just wanted to go to this party.  Well, we got there and I see other friends there, and they tell me that .38 Special was going to be playing.  I could not believe Melinda......  It was so cool.......  I was able to get to the stage.  I was about 10 feet away from the stage.....  Yep........  Had ball that night.....

Things with Clinton have not been going well, but I know that there are other fish in the sea.    And last Saturday, I meet Michael.  Now, this is other Michael, not the young Michael.  In fact this Michael is older..... Much older......  hehehe.......
Now, I am 36 about to be 37 on August the 3rd.  Michael just turned 46.  LOL......
but we notice that we have alot of things in command.  For the first time since I started dating; I feel like there could be someone that could feel and think the way I feel and think.  We got along very well, but I am going to take things slow.  I am just glad that I felt that way.  I was starting to worry that I would never find someone that I could connect.

I woke up Monday morning with a sore throat, and by the night I was running fever and chills.  I felt like my throat was closing up when I was sleeping.  On Tuesday, I was not able to get out of bed, which was what I needed; some rest, but I needed to finish my online class assignment plus the final exam.  I was able to do it, but I felt like s**t.  On Wednesday, I had to see the doctor, and the day was ugly; rainy.  But I did get antibiotic.

I will be on a mini-vacation next week.  I will be traveling to Amarillo.  I will be visiting my grandma and grandpa, plus my aunts and my friend from Fort Worth.  I will take pictures.  Speaking of pictures; my cousin has a picture of me from Jan. 1985.  I am trying to upload it, and when I do. I will post it.

Well, till next time......