THE DAY HAS COME.....................

My EX called me today to give me news.........
He is engaged to her.
What comes out of my mouth.  Guess........

Ok, I told him Congrads........  and Best of Luck.
Yep, I did stop to see how I felt, and nothing. 
Absolutely Nothing......
It is over with him.  I know if he would ask to come back, to work things out again.  I know for sure it would be "No."  I don't love him anymore.........
It is 8 months since the divorce and has been 1 1/2 years separated.  How time flys.........
I do feel something.  Sadness because the guy I fell in love with is no long the guy I see before me.  It like the man I loved is dead in a sense because he still lives but is not the man I loved.
I do wish them the Best, but I know that it will not last.

The sadness is what I deal with now......  Wondering if I will ever find that in someone else.  How I long for it......
I believe I will find it again........  I believe.........

I did get into it with my ex about the kids.  He also told me that the girlfriend is going to speak with her ex about switch the weekends. 
UGH.........  so I told him that he does not understand.
And I tried to explain to him.......
Here I go, Sabrina feeling and told her dad that she does not feeling like a family or that he loves her or that he does not tell her that she is pretty, etc, etc......
I told him that she is jealous about how my ex treats the girlfriends girls and she see how he is with them and how he was not like that with them.  That is why she is jealous and how he does not see it......
So I told him, DJ has all your attention right now because the girlfriends girls are not there, in which he needs that because if he has to see that like Sabrina is seeing it.  How will DJ react to that when he does not know how to tell us if he feels that way.
I told him that I would think about switch in a year after DJ has adjusted to everything.  But all he would do was to tell me how I did not see things. He would go on and on....
I finally told him that I was wasting my breath, and I was tried of it, and I was hang up the phone, and so I did.
Why can't he ever put his kids first........ Jerk.........
It's all about him.  Not anymore for me..........
My kids will be first to me, and I will be here to help DJ with the adjustment, even if it is with the girlfriends girls there.

I spoke with Michael tonight.  He told me the sweeties compliment.  We were talk about this coming weekend.  I asked him if he remember what was coming up this week.  He told me my birthday.  He remembered and them said your turning 25.  I told him I wish but no.  He then said 27, 28 or what age.  I laughed and told him Thank You, but I am turning 37.  He then told me that I had a baby face.  I laughed again, and then I started singing, Baby face, You got the cutest Baby face.  He asked me if I remember that song.  Yes, I do. 
Wasn't that so sweet of him.......
The best compliment and even singing involved with it.
He made me smile so...... just what I need.

Well, I better go.  I know I said I would post the birthday pictures, but I had to write this.  I will post tomorrow.

Till next time......