David and I had another therapy appointment on Tuesday.  The therapist brought up the fact of switching the weekends, and how I feel about it.  If I was still set with keep it the way it is or switching it.  I said I wanted to keep it the way it is because I wanted DJ to have dad's full attention.  David came out saying that our girls are still there, so he just does not have his attention but also the girls.  I know that but he will not have to deal with the girlfriend girls wanting attention from you too.  He would have dad's attention only.

So I have been thinking about this.  My feeling are in play here.  I don't want to see that they are becoming a family and moving on or worse that they could make it happen.  When we (David and I) couldn't.
But I do see that DJ may become jealous of the girlfriend girls too.  Just like my older girls are.......  Yep, they are jealous, but David is dealing with that.  Seeing that he is doing that I think he could deal with DJ if he becomes jealous about Kathy's girls or maybe that is why he is acting the way he is acting right now......

I realize this........  Another pain that I have to deal with.  I want to let it go, so I am thinking about switch the weekends.  Big step, huh........

But I want to make it clear to David about all this.  I know that he wants to switch the weekends, so he and finance could have 2 weekends out of the month only for themselves.  I want him to know how selfish this is on my part and maybe show him that I am moving on.  And I want him to know that the next time we have some kind of issue; he would remember this.

The thing that scary me is that he could be an ass at times.......  and I will be the one with egg on my face.

Till next time........