There is so much going on........
I have been feeling so stressed.

Well, it happened.  DJ was kicked out of daycare on Wednesday.  He hit another little boy 3 times, so they called David to pick him up and not to bring him back.  I knew this was going to happen.  I was upset, but I knew that David has to deal with DJ.  He called to tell me that he was going to put him in daycare there in Portland.  I told him not too.  I know that he has him, but I am still responsible for his daycare.  I told him I would start looking around and try to call headstart.  I was trying to get him in there.
Well, I had call around for daycare and visited 2 daycares.  One of them was so small; there kitchen was not even a kitchen.  It was a room with a microwave, and they playyard had no grass; carpet grass.  OH NO.....
But I did finally get a hold of headstart and set up an interview for Thursday morning.  Well, DJ got in, but as I sat there. I debate about telling them about the CPS investigation.  I did not say anything, but did attend the parent orientation and learn that they have help with misbehavior kids. So I went to talk to my advocate and told her about what was going on.  Well, on Monday they are going to start the paperwork to get help for DJ.  I feel like a huge rock has been lifted off my shoulders.

Oh, David had called CPS to tell them that DJ was kicked out of daycare.  They told him that he needs to go and do a mental retardation evaluation.  They say not that he looks retarded but for his aggression.  So I have a Tuesday appointment to talk to the therapist about this.  What more has to happen.

Oh, I did let my ex have it.........
When he called to tell me that DJ was kicked out.  He was complaining about his work.
He: I needs to work; my job is on the line.
I: You brought this on yourself.
He: No, Brenda, you went overbroad.
I: It was an accident.  I did not mean to bruse him, and you know that after all those years. You know I am not an abusive person.
He:  You should not spank a 4 year old with a belt.
I: Well, I will tell you; I will never spank DJ with a belt ever.  But you now have to deal with him.  I am sorry I can not help.  I miss him and I am his mother.

It will take me a long time before I forgive him for this.
Switching weekends will never happen with me after all this.  He has put me through so much.........

After all this ended; yesterday afternoon.  I was so ready to let loose......
So I went out last night......
ELI YOUNG BAND was playing at the club I go to from time to time.  Justin was to come down, but when I talked to him.  He told me that his roommate; who is moving today was going to have a go-away party.  So he did not come with me.  So I called a friend; guy friend from college to come with me.  And he did.  He and I had a great time listening to the music and drinking.  Oh, he likes me too but never told me till last night.  But he is other Justin.  He is 33 and wants kids some day, plus I am not really attracted to him.  He is very sweet, and we have good conversations.  He is a good friend, but I don't want to be with him like girlfriend and boyfriend.
We bought CD's and once I upload it.  I will put on some music in here.  I also brought a t-shirt, plus I still have been running everyday, and today I was told that I look good that I lose weight.  My weigh scale broke, so I do not know if that is true.  I did go and purchase 2 pair of jeans for school, and I did go down a size, but they are stretch jeans so.  But I did feel good.  I will not stop running till I have my son back home.  This is helping with the stress and my fitness; all good.

Well, till next time.........