Some good news and bad news...........

First the bad news, I always want the bad news, so I have good news after it.

I was let go from my job.  Yep, she did not need my assistance anymore.  I hope I could find another job that will work around my school hours.  Please say a prayer for me.  I have been looking.  I went to the school; they have a job bank for students, and I went to a temp agent and apply again. So please say a prayer that I find one soon.

The good news; I meet someone yesterday.  He is 10 years old than me, but he is very nice, and we do have a lot of things in common.  So will see how things go.

Where did I leave off on my last entry; OH Yea.

Brenda Lee.....   Well, she called me back to apologize, but I tried to talk to her and get her to talk to me, but she was still holding back.  I told her how I want so much for her.  How I am here for her.  She does not understand.  Yes, Daniella, she is a teenager, but I was hoping that she would start growing up and realize things for herself.  I ended our conversation about the plans for the Thanksgiving Holiday.  I should have the kids, but after we talked.  I get a phone call from Sabrina.  She start say that Brenda Lee told her about my plans for the holiday.  Oh, quick note: Brenda Lee's 18th Birthday will be on Thanksgiving Day this year.  And the ex and I have talked about what times we were going to share for Brenda Lee's birthday.  He was going to have the morning, and I was going to have them for the afternoon and evening, plus the holiday days.  So Sabrina tells me that they have plans already for Thursday.  They wanted to spend the morning with me and afternoon with their friends and evening with dad.  She said that my ex told them; they could choice on what they wanted to do for the holidays.  I was so upset and told her that that is not right.  This holiday is mine, and she reminds me again that their dad told them they could do what they want.  I told her that the divorce decree is set, so we could share the time equal between our kids and that this holiday was mine.  But if you choice to spend it with your friends instead of your mother then go ahead.  I was so upset and hung up on her.  I am so tried of this treatment I am getting from my girls.  I called my ex and asked him if he said that.  He said that he told them that they could choice to go with me on the weekend like we agreed but not the holidays.  He said that is the first time he heard about their plans, so he said he was going to talk to them.  Well, he did and he called back saying that they are so upset with me, and they are not going to change their plans and left it.  I told him I was done.  Things for me are going to change between my girls and me.  I will not be giving them money, and if they wanted to see me.  They better get with me in advance because I am going with my plans and not change things around for them.  I told him that what is so sad about this is that Katy (New Step-Mom) gets more respect than I do.  And he agreed; can you believe that.  But I told him that was changing for me.  I am so tried of this treatment. 

Anyway, I hope things change around here.  I need a job, and I meet someone new.  I did my education plan, and if everything goes as plan, I will graduate in Spring 2008.  WooHoo......  I am halfway there.  I could see the light in the tunnel.  I just need to find another job that will work around my school hours, so I could finish.  Oh God, I hope I do.

Till next time.....

 

 

"He Is Your Brother"

I was a fighter always looking for trouble
And my life was so empty, there was nothing left to live for
But then it happened one night as I got into a fight
I could hear someone saying as though he was praying
Ah-a-ah-a-a-a-ah-ah

Treat him well, he is your brother
You might need his help some day
We depend on one another
Love him, that's the only way
On the road (on the road) that we're going
We all need (we all need) words of comfort and compassion
Treat him well, he is your brother
Love him, that's the only way

I was a woman never thinking of others
And my life was so lonely, didn't care for anybody
But then I happened to meet a begging man in the street
As I turned down his praying I heard someone saying
Ah-a-ah-a-a-a-ah-ah

Treat him well, he is your brother (brother)
You might need his help one day (he's your brother)
We depend on one another (brother)
Love him, that's the only way
On the road (on the road) that we're going (that we're going)
We all need (we all need) words of comfort and compassion
Treat him well, he is your brother (brother)
Love him, that's the only way.

Treat him well, he is your brother (brother)
You might need his help one day (he's your brother)
We depend on one another (brother)
Love him, that's the only way

[repeat and fade]