My honey has been sick since he went to work.
He is lovesick, but he has a cough that would not go away. Well, this morning he called saying that he was coming home. He could not talk; it hurt for him to talk, so I know he is feeling bad. They have a doctor on the rig, and he had been seeing him. Now, he is calling saying that he is coming home. That only means that the doctor has requested for him to leave.
My baby is coming home, but he is sick....
I am missing my honey so much......
One more week than he will be home.
I am in another mood though. DJ is with his dad on Tuesday and Thursday because of my evening class. Remember, David is helping with DJ. He picks him up from headstart and on Tuesday I go to Portland and pick DJ up when I am out of class.
Well, today he called me and told me that he would be able to pick up DJ, but that he would have to go and drop him off with Katy and head back to work. I was fine with that. when I got to the house and rang the doorbell. She came to the door, and acknowledge me told me she would get DJ. But she left the door open and I could see the new picture that were hanging by the door. They were of David and her from the so called wedding they had. She had one of the exchanging of the rings and them kiss. It hit me. It brought back the pain of the pass. Not that I want my ex back or that I still have feeling for him because that is over. I found my true love. I see how someone could really love someone else and that is Luke.
Just like the song; "Mom his crazy, crazy over me." He surely is.....
But I talked it over with Luke, and he said it best. Katy has no respect for me. She had to put those photos there for only one reason, and that was for me to see them. I bet there was more place in that house that those photos could have gone on. But no they had to be by the door.
Also too, DJ is starting to fuss when I pick him or he is dropped off. He says he wants to stay with daddy. The only thing is that today dad was not there, so DJ saying that he wanted to stay with dad did not make sense. I have been taking him screaming and crying. He goes through a trampturm, but I let him. The car ride home he did talk, and I asked him that dad was not even there why was he asking for him. He would shrug his shoulders. I asked him if it was because he wanted to play on the playstation. He said yes. I told him that he would be getting one for theapartment soon. David purchased other one for him to have here with me. (How very nice of him!) But DJ is addicted to play on that machine, and now I am going to have one here. I am going to keep a time on him. He will learn that he can not do what he does at dads. I will have him in the routine I have him on. David let him get away with murder that is why he acts the way he does.
Well, anyway enough of rant....
Till next time.....
We went and took picture with our Cowboy Hats on.
I love my Cowboy....... He is so handsome.
I miss him so much, and we have been writing Love Letters to each other.
Since I put one of his on here. I thought I will put one of mine, so here it goes:
Mi Amore,
My love, My everything...
I too feel like my life is complete, now that you are by my side. I love you so much, and I see how it is right. I too have never felt this way. I feel like I could talk to you. I could be myself, and you will love me for who I am. I see you smile at me and that lightens my heart. I feel so much joy with you. I feel like I am always on a cloud when I am with you. I hear your voice in my head, singing to me and talking to me. I can’t wait till your home, so I could look into those baby blue eyes and have your arms around me.
When you asked me to marry you; I didn’t have to think twice. I knew thatyou are the one for me. I trust you with my life with everything. I know that you will not hurt me. You make me so happy. I love to be with you. You asking me to be with you forever weren’t a hard decision to make. I can’t wait for the years to come. Dreaming, hoping and planning for our future is what I am looking forward too. And yes getting older...
I am glad you told me that this is who you are when you are with me. And I want you always to be true to me, be yourself. I want all of you and nothing more because I want you and only you. Nothing less or different... Believe me baby, I love you for who you are...
Even your stuff but you do need to quit because I don’t want you getting sick from that and leaving me alone.
I thank god that you are in my life. And I meant what I said; in my heart I am marry to you. I love you with all my heart. Waiting for your return to my arms...
Love always,
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Ok, Let me get you all caught up with what is going on.
First, getting older. Luke jokes with me that I am older; I am 37 and he just turn 29. I have no problem with it. He really doesn't, but he like to joke about it because in the beginning, I told him that when I am 49. He will be 38 and would he have a problem with having a wife who was almost 50. He told me that he would love me. He will always love me. Awww....
Second, he told me, here is the section:
I want you to know that you have completely changed my life or showed me how to be myself or both; I'm not sure which one, and I'm sure Corpus had a little to do with that. Come on I cant give you all the credit, but I have done things with you that I never thought I would do with anyone such as sit down and type a letter to tell someone how much I love them or spend time riding bikes or taking walks along the beach, being romantic, even just enjoying being with you, holding you and thinking of you every moment of my life trust me this is not who I used to be. But it is who I am now and I guess deep down inside this is who I always was just never had the reason to show it like I do now. I love you Brenda with all my heart all my soul you mean the world to me and I will never let you go. Let's stay together and grow old together happy ( but you going to beat me there ha ha lol) just kidding.
Third, I got a call from this guy I was seeing before Luke. He called one night. Late and I was half asleep. I thought I saw Luke's name on the phone, and I answered it saying, "Hello, Baby... Is everything ok." The guy answered yes, and we talked for awhile before I notice that it was not Luke. Well, he wanted to get together. I told him that I was engaged, but he did not care. He told me, I was engaged not married yet. Itold him that in my heart I was married and that nothing would happen anymore between us. The next morning when Luke called I told him about it because I wanted him to know that this is how much I love him, and he does not have to worry about me. He told me that he was not worried about me. He was worried about the guys calling me.
Do you all remember Justin......
He was the one back in August. When David call CPS on me, and Justin supported and helped me thought that. He too wanted to marry me, but he wanted kids of his own. Well, He came over the end of January. He saw me and told me that I looked really good. Then he told me that he made a mistake and wanted me back. I told him no that he needed to go and have a family. I was not what he was looking for. I told him that I am here as a friend and will always. But that was all. He understood, but he told me that I was a great person, and he would always love me.
That is why Luke is nervous about Justin. He is not to much worry about the other guys, but Justin is one that he does. That is why I told him that in my heart I am married to him. Which I do feel that way.
Last, the STUFF.... he does chewing tobacco, which he is bad. He could go though two packs a day. So the only thing that I wish he would change.
I am so in love.... The LOVEBUG....... I am hopeless.
Well, till next time......
