March the 11th was my last entry and a lot has happen.

 

Well, first, Luke went back to Courtney.  He wants to try to work things out with her.  5 months, we were together and in love.  I feel so rejected.  It was so hard and right before finals.  It was really hard.  My last final was on Thursday, but I had all 3 test that day.  Talk about stress......  At least I did not have a break down.  But I think I am starting to.....

Because my boss let me go.......
Yep, beside not having a finance.  I do not have a job.  Why does this happen to me?  The reason that he told me was that he needed a full time Paralegal and one with more experience.  He said that he should have done that from the beginning.

I have so much going through my head.  I am missing Luke so bad....

Feeling like I am so worthless. Hitting rock bottom again.....

 

Luke has admitted to me that he know what he is walking away from.  That I could make him happier than what Courtney can.  He misses his kids so much and sees how hard it is on them. He has told me that if Courtney could make him half as happy that he is with me than he wants to be there because of the kids.  He told me that it was nothing that I did, but that he had to give it one more try for his kids.

I can't get him out of my mind.  I am so in love with him.  It was so real... so real....
We had a lot of obstacles.  A lot has happen and said that I want to write in here.

In time.....

Till next time....