College has really opened my eyes to many things.

I remember and believe that our kids need guidance.  When they are so young; the need is more.  When they become teenagers; the need is less.  You hope that the teaching that you gave them will be with them when they become teenagers.

I grew up different than what my parents brought me up; so I know that my girls are going through the same thing.  Plus I beleive that we evolve more from generation through generation. Cultures chances as well as people change; that is life.  More therioes are developed, more hypothesis are sloved or proven.  We realize that we are all human as well as our kids.  They become adults with their own way of thinking, and if WE stay opened minded.  We can all be happy; isn't that what we all want?

Why should my kids happiness come first than mine.  If that means that I am shelfish or that is how you see me.  That is your right.  But for me, I am tried of my kids' happiness coming first.  What about my happiness.  I have not put my kids in danger and will not intentionally.  I love my kids.  They are part of me, but I know that they are their own person and will grow up the way they think they should live.  So why should I tell them what they should be doing (and this is when they are young adults) as well as they should not be telling me what I should be doing.  If they want to judge me for how I am living my life; they have every right.  They have not walked or try to even image what I have been through.  They assume so much, and how they are wrong, but they will not listen to me.  They have closed their mind, and that I can't help them with.  They do need to live life, so they will know what life is.  I still hope that the teaching I gave them will be with them, but if I was wrong.  I hope that they would come and tell me how I was wrong (specifics).  That we could sit and opened minded talk about it.  The first talk did not go that way, so I step back and wait.

I don't hate you.  (You know who you are.)

I am here to talk about anything.  I want to speak my mind, but if I am not seeing something.  Please tell me.  Be specific because I am interested in all that I could learn.  Knowledge plus communication is the key to growing, but with an open mind to things.

Till next time.....

MY, MY........

How time flys.......

It's been since mid-July that I have written an entry and a lot has happen.

Dave was my rebound guy.  Things did not work out with him, but that is fine.  As for my ex and his wife, she lost the baby, and I'm not sure if they are going to try again.  I believe not because (BAD NEWS) he lost his job.  Yep, he is looking for work, and I am trying not to worry.  I did meet someone, but.......

I have to be honest here.  I hope that everyone here will be open minded, but I know that I might not because I have been deal with the outcome of this......

My man is 22 years old. 

His name John.  He's in the Navy, a gentleman, and he is so infatutate with me.  My girls meet him briefly, but they think he is too young for me, (even through they do not know his age, just his looks) they do not want to be around him.  I had a talk with them, and they do not want to be around him.  They said things to me; Brenda Lee called me a "cougar" and a slut.  I was upset, but I am not.  John is an adult as well as I am.  We know what we are doing.  We are happy.  He is not the typical teenage boy, he is a man.  He is here with me or at work.  He calls me and text me every free moment he has.  He is so infatutate with me, but he gives me my space and time with my friends.  He is not the jealous type.  He shows his mutuality, but the girls have not give John that chance.  I talked to Sabrina this pass week about giving him that chance, and she respond by say that she would talk it over with Brenda Lee and get back with me.  I am not going to push.  If they don't want too than I can't change that.  But this is not fair, I know that things are not always fair, but why can my ex do what he did and not get sh*t from my girls.  My Girls are brats, and that I blam my ex.  He is dealing with them, and in a way, he is try to talk to them about this (even through he does not know who old he is).  And the way I see, IT DOES NOT MATTER.  We are adults.

You know that every relationship are not guarantee.  You take a gamble with your heart, with your time, so why put age in the factor.  Am I wrong, or not see something I should?

 

Oh my birthday pass;  I turned 38 years old on August 3rd.

Well till next time.......