It has been a while.......
I am falling a part. I lost my job with the prestige law firm, but it was not meant to be. She was something else, but I don't want to get into that.
School started; my last semester, I will be graduating on 9th of May. With God's help and good grades. It will be a difficult time, but I will do it. Plus I will be looking for another part time work. Say prayer that I find one.
Also, say a prayer for my step-father, they found lung cancer and it is spreading. I believe he will not with us to long. He will be 75 years old in March. We are hoping that he will be with us then. I hope he does not go through to much pain. My mom is holding up, but she does have her moments. She is being strong for him, but I know when the time comes. She is going to loose it.
As for my personal life, John and I will be celebrating 6 months on the 25th, half a year. He will be in California for school. The Navy sent him there for two weeks. Once he returns he will be check into the base, and start working. He has been on leave since December 1st. The girls have not come around, but I didn't except them too. They have been blaming me for so much, and they do not want to be in my life. I had an argument with my ex about this. It funny because I was talking to him about DJ. Then the conversation when to the girls. They girls have the choice to see me, and they chose not too. David, my ex has a lot of influence into that, but that is a long story. Maybe next time I write about it.
I will be writing more. I went to speak to my speech professor last week because of something he said in class. I needed to talk to someone about what has been going on with me. Really, I went to him because I thought that something was wrong with my mind. After talking with him, he said that I was under a lot of stress. He suggest that I journal write. I told him that that was funny he said that because I use to write on my online journal but it had been a while. He said that it will help with seeing where I am most stressed out in and break it down for me. I remember in the beginning how I would write about my separation then my divorce and how it did help me, along with exercising. Which I need to start doing again. I gained weight. I notice when I am steady with a guy, I gain. when I am free and looking, I lose the weight. I am happy with John. We get each other, and he supports me. OH.... I meet his family this pass Christmas. It went well. He tells me that his mother has not like any of his girlfriends, but he says that she likes me. She does not have a problem with the age difference. She wants her son to be happy, and if that is with me. she is happy for us.
Well, I need to go and read some more.
Till next time........
