We are always fools in love, huh.......

I saw Patricia today while shopping for grocery.  I had not seen her for over 4 years.  She did not know that I was divorce, and she had not seen DJ since he was a baby.  She was so surprise on how big he was, and that I was divorce.  She asked me if I was over my ex.

How we are fools in love.  I told her that I was heartbroken, but I have move on.  I went to school and graduated and just started working.  But her question about be over my ex has take me to search my feelings.

How a fool I was, but I wonder how I see love now.  Am I still a fool in love?  How do I know what is really true love.

It feels so good, but it is always good in the begin; is it not?  That spark in his eyes as you realize that he watching you.  That spark you feel when he first kisses you, or that touch that makes your tiny hairs on the back of you neck stand up.  The feel of butterflies in your stomach as you wait for him to show up.  Or that thoughtful gift he brought you just because he wanted to please you.  It is always good in the beginning.

I wonder about this because I know that this thing I have with John will be ending.  In July or August, John will be talking to someone about his shore duty.  He has already mention that if he is not able to station here that he will try to move to San Diego, CA.  I will not be moving.  I really can not because of my son.  I can not keep him away from his father.  He totally adores his dad, and DJ would hate me for keep him from his father.

So, my time with John will be ending, and I can not seem not to wonder what a fool in love I have been.  But it is so real, I am in love with him.  It will be a year on 25th of July that we have been together.

Since my divorce, I have learn that things do come to an end, and all we have is the memories.

Till next time......

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Well, I finished my first week at work, and it end with some great news.

I work with six attorneys, and two attorneys were in trail all week.  Closing statements were this morning, and verdict in the afternoon.  We won; the client was given $1.6 Million.  The office had a celebration at the office.  The office is wonderful.  I am really enjoying it.  The girls are great and the attorney are nice.  It has started off good.  I hope it does not change.

Till next time....

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Thank you, Ellen and Carol, for your kind words.  My mother is doing good; she is trying to keep busy, but she already wants to come home.  She miss all of us.

As for my job; I start work on Monday.  This position is strange because it is with the college.  It is a paid internship and part-time, but the law firm has already told me that they are going need me more than the 19 hours a week; they need me for three days out of the week.  They are going to pay me for the extra hours.  In fact, they called me back on Friday afternoon asking if I could work the entire next week for training.  May they will change there mind and make it for more than three days; I guess will see. Now, this position is at the receptionist desk, but they say that I will handle other responsibilities.  I am going to have to work to that paralegal position.

The sad part; Friday afternoon after I had accepted this intern position.  Another law firm that I had interview with two weeks ago called me.  He wanted to let me know that I was still in the running for the legal secretary position and just wanted to get in touch with me.  I told him that accepted this part-time position but I needed a full-time position.  He said that if it did not work out to get in touch with him; hopefully it will still be available.  What luck......

I have to start some where thought.  Wish me luck.......

Till next time.....

It has been crazy and hard week......

It came on Wednesday that I was finally able to really cry that Wally is gone.  I know that he passed away, but to realize that he was not going to be coming back.  He is gone, and I am going to really miss him.  Then I think about my mother.  She is going to need us so much, so much.

She decided to leave with her sisters, my aunts, to visit her parents, my grandma and grandpa.  They are old and not in good health, so they were not able to make the funeral.

The funeral was something.  You see, Wally's kids, will one did not like my mother and has always made trouble for Wally and my mother.  Well, why would a funeral stop her.  She stood up at spoke, which if she would have asked, we would have granted her wish; this is her dad, but she walked up.  Plus one of the ex-wife raised her voice to my mother.  It was not to bad, but we knew that something was going to be said or done; and both happened.

My mother is doing okay; she has her moments which is to be excepted.  I just wish I could do more to help her with the pain.  Tuesday night, I spent the night at mom's home.  I slept with her which it had been a long, long time since that has happen; strange.  But mom woke up at 3:40 a.m. crying; she said that is the hardest time for her.  She would wake up at that time to fix Wally's breakfast and lunch for work, so she is still not able to get out of the habit.  She wakes up and realizes that he is gone.  I am glad I was there, but my sister had me up till 1 a.m., so I was so tried when I came back home Wednesday afternoon, plus it had hit me that Wally was gone.  It has been hard.  He was a good man. Everyone had kind words to say about him.  The mayor, sheriff and someone else important spoke at the funeral.  That was very nice and had wonder things to say about Wally.  He was well known and liked.  He always had kind words to say to me.  I am going to miss him truly.

I do have good news too.

I had an interview today, and he hired me on the spot.  Very nice, huh....

Plus the day that Wally left the hospital, I had an interview.  Well, he called me today that he still had my name on the consider list, but he was ready to hire.  I told him that I did find work today, and thank him for calling me to let me know that he was still considering me; that was sweet of him.

I will start working on Monday.  Yeehaw.....  The ex is still looking, but he is going to fly out-of-town for an interview next Friday.  I pray that he gets this job because the child support will be end at the end of this month. Oh God, I hope he gets this job.  However, he told me that if he gets this job; his office will be downtown, where I will be working.  I believe the building next door.  Maybe we could do lunch; yea, right. LOL.....  I would not be able to do that.  But knowing that he is working at that building is going to be strange.

Well, till next time and Happy Friday the 13th......

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 Sorry, I have not written.

Wally, my step-father passed away on 4th of June.  He went quickly, he was not in much pain.

My mother asked me to put a presentation together.  She gave me some picture and requested another presentation of wise words, but she asked to add his picture at the end.  I was not able to edit the presentation, so I opened up power point and started from scratch.  Once I am done with it.  I will share it with yall.

It is good that I am keeping busy.....

Plus no job prospect, so I try to stay busy.

This is so sad, Wally is truly missed, but I know that he is not in pain any more.

Till next time......