We are always fools in love, huh.......
I saw Patricia today while shopping for grocery. I had not seen her for over 4 years. She did not know that I was divorce, and she had not seen DJ since he was a baby. She was so surprise on how big he was, and that I was divorce. She asked me if I was over my ex.
How we are fools in love. I told her that I was heartbroken, but I have move on. I went to school and graduated and just started working. But her question about be over my ex has take me to search my feelings.
How a fool I was, but I wonder how I see love now. Am I still a fool in love? How do I know what is really true love.
It feels so good, but it is always good in the begin; is it not? That spark in his eyes as you realize that he watching you. That spark you feel when he first kisses you, or that touch that makes your tiny hairs on the back of you neck stand up. The feel of butterflies in your stomach as you wait for him to show up. Or that thoughtful gift he brought you just because he wanted to please you. It is always good in the beginning.
I wonder about this because I know that this thing I have with John will be ending. In July or August, John will be talking to someone about his shore duty. He has already mention that if he is not able to station here that he will try to move to San Diego, CA. I will not be moving. I really can not because of my son. I can not keep him away from his father. He totally adores his dad, and DJ would hate me for keep him from his father.
So, my time with John will be ending, and I can not seem not to wonder what a fool in love I have been. But it is so real, I am in love with him. It will be a year on 25th of July that we have been together.
Since my divorce, I have learn that things do come to an end, and all we have is the memories.
Till next time......
If it's meant to be, then it will be.
ReplyDeleteAnd as if that cliche were not enough, here's another one for ya: Better to have loved and lost than never to have loved at all.....
;) Carol
I think true love comes from time with someone and building from a friendship that has nothing to do with sex.....that feeling in the beginning of the tingles and cant wait to see each other gets replaced with respect and the same values and ideas and dreams if it is going to be long term. I hate it that you will have to end it with this man....i hate for you to be hurt again.XO
ReplyDeleteBrin I'm sorry that he is leaving and that you will be apart. I hope someday that you two can be together again, if that's what you truly want.
ReplyDeleteBe well,
Ellen
if its true love love will find a way to workif not one lesson learned and move forward:) have a good week
ReplyDeleteDeb