Thursday night, John went out with his buddies from the ship.

This was the first time that he had been out with them and with out me.  I am fine having a boy's night out.  I have girl's night out too, usually when John has duty, and DJ is with his dad.

Plus, I am learning to trust John or trying to trust a man.  If a man is going to cheat on me again; I know now that it is his choice to do or not to do it.  If he is not getting from me what he wants or needs, and he finds it from someone else.  Than the best of luck for him.

I understand what it means to hang out with your friends and drink and laugh all together.  Just having fun.....

John has not done this since we been together, he has never planned it with his buddies or he is working; plus that night I had DJ and no babysitter.

Well, John had left at around 9 p.m., and he was back home by 12:30.  He was not out long.

Today, he is on duty, and he text me if I wanted to know why he was home early that night.  I said, 'yes.'

This was his text: "I started to miss u more and more while i was watching all the couples dance and you were not by my side and i was feeling bad because i left u at home."

He does love me; does he not?

Till next time.....

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