My oldest daughter has been spending time with me. I called her Wednesday afternoon to do dinner. She asked me; if I cook my spaghetti. She missed my spaghetti, so we talked while I cooked. She also came over on Thursday, and she called yesterday afternoon to see if I would go shopping with her. So I picked her up and we went shopping, then I took her out to eat at the island. We acted like tourist, sitting outside on the porch of the restaurant. It was a beautiful night, cool and the shrimp boats docked on the pier. Slow we are sharing; I see how much I really missed her. I am so glad she lives near by, and that she is calling me. I think she is also accepting John too.



John has been working seven days and from sun up to sun down. The project will be ending next week, and I will finally spent more time with him. John has not seen the little man since I don't know when. However, he has talked and asked how he is doing. plus he wants to spend some time with him once this project is over. John is so in love with me; this morning, he text me this: "There is an emptiness in my heart when I leave u every morning and it is not filled until I see u again." All I could think about is how he is going to be when he leaves on his next order, which we will be hearing in about two weeks. When he will be leaving though; I don't know.



My baby girl left for Ohio, not sure where exactly Lisa Jo. Her step-mother's grandfather had a heart attack. Baby girl went to help with the drive. Yep, they drove from South Texas to Ohio; 23 hour drive. They are to be back on Monday, but I hear from the oldest that she loves Ohio. She said it's like the show Gilmore Girls, which she loves that show. We would sit and watch that show every week when she lived with me and before the separation. I miss doing that with her; sitting and watching our favorite shows.



I have to go and take careful of some errands.

Till next time.......

My boyfriend and I have been together for a year and 3 months. We have been though a lot, and we get along so well. I am not sure where he will be station, but he has put in his "wish list" as I so call it. He would like to go to these places, but it could still turn out that they could ship him off to another place. He has put in: 1) Florida, 2) Hawaii, 3) Italy and 4) Japan. He has been to Japan, and he would like to go back there. He will be so far away. He wants to do this Long Distance Relationship, but I have my doubts.

I am about to finish reading; Dear John by Nicholas Sparks. This book is what I have experience with John. He has fall in love with me, and I with him, however he will be leave soon. I just wonder, and I feel like our lives might turn out like the book. I feel that John will hate me when he is away. He will miss me so much that he will hate me for not joining him. I feel like I can't do that at this time in my life. I getting my chance at my career, and I feel like I will not be able to get that somewhere else, plus I can not separate my son from his dad. Even after everything he has done to me. I can not take him away from his father. I still have my doubts about John, but if it is meant to be. We will find a way.

Till next time......

I have been going through so much......

It has been 4 months since I started working for this firm, and I am doing good. I knew that I would have some adjustment; working full-time was a major change, plus dealing with co-workers. Working with so many women: conflicts arrise, rumors are spread; it's like a family. It's like he said/she said, in this case, she said/she said, but for the most part, it's not that bad. I have come along way. Finishing school, I knew that I would still be learning and in training. I step into this firm to help with the receptionist desk 3 days out of the week hoping to move up. I went to school to become a Paralegal. Now, I am waiting for a replacement for me in the receptionist desk, so I could join my team: J and A (I won't write their full names.) I will be with a Paralegal and an attorney, more training for me. My dream is to be "on my own" Paralegal for an attorney. It will take time, but I work towards that goal. Just like I worked towards my degree.

Every since my divorce, I know that I am on my own to make my dreams come true. However, I wonder how much is true about that in the subject of "Love."

My boyfriend, who is in the Navy, will be leaving on another order. My first with him, and I will not be going with him. I will write more about this another time. I am still trying to work it out in my head and heart. There is so much to think about..... and part of me does not want to get into it. Out of sight; out of mind.

Till next time....

Test......

This is a test. This is only a test. Whatever, right...... Setting up my email blog and testing it.

I am still trying to find my way through here.......

I fell in the parking garage after work today, and I am really hurting. I want to write so much more, but I just want to go to sleep.

Till next time....

The Wedding Cake came out so beautiful.........

I did an awesome job.......

I am really for some sleep, still feel bad, but getting better.

I'll write more tomorrow.

Till next time.....

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October 22, 2004 was my first entry.  I can not believe that they are closing us down........

I started this journal right before my separation and being here through my divorce, and my schooling.  I have been through so many things; I have grown so much.

Some of y'all have seen me through it all, and could not have done it without y'all support.

Please help me through this; I am not sure what I need to do to move my journal.  Where do I start?  What blog? How to transfer?

As for me, I am home from work.  There is a virus going around here.  It is like a the flu, but not as hard.  I have body aches, slight fever, headache, and a bad sore throat.

I have been going through some hard times.  I gain so much weight and been trying to get back into exercising and can't.  I am realizing how hard it is to be working full-time and a single mother, along with having a relationship.

I have a wedding to attend this weekend, which I am doing the wedding cake.  Yep.... I am making the cake.  Krista is the daughter of one of my longest close friends.  We have been friends since my oldest and her son were in kinder.  Krista and Sabrina were very close friends while growing up; today, they barely say hi to each other.  Krista is a year old than Sabrina, but they were once together in class.  A kinder and 1st grade program that I put Sabrina in.  But I saw Krista growing up with my girls, and I see her as a daughter.  I can not believe she is getting married.  I will post pic of the cake.  Can wait too....  I am excited.

Till next time.... but wait on some help, Thx......