I have been trying to fight the sadness in me. Things with John aren't good, in fact, I had asked him to move out because he did something stupid to me (don't want to talk about it). I had enough and gave him back his promise ring. However, the next day we talked and he is back in, but I know it will not last. He will do something else to blow me up. He did get his orders; he has to report in by April. He will have 30 days leave before, but he is already making plans to go home, and he is planning on visiting his friend in Oklahoma too. He asked me again to move up with him, and I said 'No.' I can't, I really don't want too. I believe things are over between us. I am just waiting till April, or should I? I am noticing that I am have trouble making decisions.



My ex has found work; however, he said that he is getting paid 1/2 of what he was getting paid before. So he feels that he should not pay me child support. The last support I got was 12/15/08. I have been feeling under the weather, so I called in sick today from work. This gave me some time to call and get online to file with the Attorney General for an enforcement case. The stupid thing keep logging me off because you have a time period to fill out the form. Stupid thing.... I also had to get the court records of the order for child support, so I had to travel to the next county, sick of course. But I did get to get a nap in between.



My kids are well. Thank goodness..... They are starting to come around more, even my girls. In fact, the oldest is opening up to me. She needs me. I need her. I love my kids so much......



Well, time for lunch. Till next time.